I despise my artstyle and wish I could draw like anyone else I see
Frankly, I've always hated my artstyle.
In this post, I am solely talking about digital art, not traditional!
I can't express it well, but it feels too me and I don't like that, I don't like how I draw at all. Since I started doing digital art, I always wanted an anime artstyle, but later I was okay with a semi anime-ish artstyle as well, but no matter how much I try it just doesn't seem to happen. Even my first drawing was made by watching a tutorial on how to draw anime, but it turned out, well bad, not that I care anymore because it's been around 6 years since then.
I also dropped digital art after 2023 for years and did only traditional because my tablet broke and I didn't feel inspired or motivated and hated how I drew, not completely but there was something ugly in the way I drew.
I've always seen so many artists everywhere, Instagram, Pinterest, Youtube and always wished I could draw like them. I hate how people can make beautiful artwork in a few hours while my average art piece takes 12-24 hours. All that, for a mediocre piece of artwork? I often even took screenshots of other people's work just hoping i could somewhat replicate how beautifully they draw, all to no avail.
It just doesn't make sense. It feels like they can move their fingers differently than I can, how is that even possible? Whenever I try to draw, it's like my fingers just can't do it :/ they always produce something ugly, not worth looking at. I just can't explain it, do the others have special fingers or something?? How do their lines look different from mine, I try my best to draw like them but my fingers seem to revert to the old style I despise so much. I just wish I could draw like other people and feel happy about my art instead of thinking it's bland, boring and frankly ugly.
And somehow everyone else can draw proper proportions with smaller heads than bodies and my art just always turns out with bigger heads even if I try to avoid it. And my colouring is incredibly bland, it's like the colours just refuse to pop unlike when other people draw. I try my best but my colouring still looks so plain :/
I hate being a copycat and always trying to copy other people, I always try to replicate how other people draw but it's just ridiculous, it just ends up looking like it always does or my hands just don't work. It's like they have special tools at their service that I don't?? I don't get how people colour so perfectly and mine just looks so artificial.
Anyways, thanks for reading about my grievances =:D I just needed to get this off my chest because till this moment, I had never voiced these negative feelings and I'm hoping this will help me shed them somewhat :)