u/dpsrush

I've heard many ends of long-standing empires were due to multiplication of drought, flood, pestilences, plagues, wars, then an uprising of starving peasants against their corrupt government happens.

But were there any nation that ended when things were good? No major natural disasters, people are fed and happy.

I love shitting.

Yes that's right. I love it so much. My potty time is the only schedule I look forward to, it is why I eat, my daily loaf.

Each groove of my fecal beetle slowly slithering out, ribbing my anal canal along its path, titallating every nerve ending on its way, announcing its sovereignty of my bussy.

How the dangly bit weighs down the anal tissue holding it, dragging down the droopy flesh, swinging it so it may lightly touch my balls on its way down the watery abyss, one last kiss for the eternal departure.

Then comes hollow feeling of squeezing out a dump baby, feeling 10 pounds better.

Then I Eat again. Protein for hardness, fiber for soft, A little chili powder for a little pimento if I'm in the mood. Gentle smoothness of an aged masseuse. Bloody mistress of vengeance. I cater my food intake for the perfect release.

That moment where the person is no more, but one with the motion of the life process, humbled and raised. This is enlightenment. This is Sartori. This is union with God.

I pray this fecal sacrifice find its way through the twist and bends of my innards and burst forth from the opening portal. Far may it reach, and long may it bless.

Seriously United States of America, what the fuck do you want from us?

I will tell you what you shouldn't want: an Union resurgence.

An America divided is the America planned by the Founding Fathers. Remain broken and God will be with you.

In America, no one is suppose to like anyone, this way everyone is happy.

Out of 10 I would give myself a solid 5.

Which is like the worst spot to be in. Honestly I'd rather be a 1, because nobody fucks you just the same, but at least now you get some kindness out of their pity.

Life is, life. There is an abundance of sensual and intellectual pleasure, but none satisfy long term, and thanks to watching 10 second videos all day, I am now apparently fully retarded.

Not retarded enough to enjoy it, but still, retarded.

That's why I do what I do, because I look how I look.

I've always wanted to start a cult. Honestly I don't even have to be the leader, I just want to be a part of something exclusive and for once in my life, feel special.

So I asked an old bearded white dude sitting alone on a park bench, "what does God want from us? Why won't he leave us alone?"

With silver hair he told me, "to be unified to the truth of who he is, and act accordingly."

The speed and natural tone of his answer reveals a witness. So I asked again to clarify, "What is acting accordingly?"

Without missing a beat, he said, "If you are a king, be the best king. If you are a beggar, be the best beggar. If you are a rapist, be the best rapist."

The last one caught me off guard, "What the hell is a "best rapist"?"

He took a long gander at me, "after you've been raped by the best, your life will start to change for the best. At your deathbed, you will confess he is your savior."

I paused and looked around, and there we are, totally alone in the woods.

I have this ring left to me by my grandfather, nothing special but it's a nice sentimental item.

My childhood friend who is a girl once asked my to give her that ring as a gift, so I put it on her as a goof.

Now she has superpowers and also like a gazillionaire.

Now I'm not saying she stole my magic ring, but she's still wearing it, so...

I mean, being the only blue-eyed blond in Jerusalem A.D. must have its appeals. And you know, the Romans being Romans.

It would change how I see masculinity.

The strength not just to break the flesh, but also social expectations.

Lord knows if I was raped I wouldn't beg for their mercy, so I pray my test never comes to that.

"All beings will become Buddha" vs. "All beings have always been Buddha all along"

Great courage is needed to take the first step, towards what though?

Terrifying prospect of treating everyone as Buddha, then someone comes and ruin your day. Then they are no longer the Buddha, and all is lost.

What is the reason I am not in the Pure Land?

Probably because I am still here.

Somehow, life is not enough.

So they told me to pick my poison like the rest.

Sometimes I ask myself, why don't I love my body?

Other times it feels good to hurt it.

It is the only reminder I have to being myself again.

Clarity finally.

People are found dead in the book they read.

If you have to pick one, what would it be?

Wisdom tells me to choose a sutra. Heart tells me to pick up a scripture instead.

Reading into that good night.

Let him out of there.

We would like to fuck him.

The story of Sodom and Gomorrah always fascinated me. It's like God discovered a million spiders living in his walls.

Sometimes I ask myself whether I would rape an angel.

Then I'm reminded that I'm a pedophile.

Never going to act on it, so relax, but still, not a good look nowadays.

The possibility of crossing that threshold seems so so far away. Which is what makes me so so curious about the citizens of Sodom and Gomorrah. Like, what happened to those guys before they all surrounded a house demanding to fuck God.

So I'm trying to find other things to do apart from fucking.

Like trying to not get banned by a FUCKING SUBREDDIT CALLED SCHIZOPOSTING!!! IS THIS EVEN REAL LIFE???

God how you torture me.

Yo that dude is doing something weird, but I can't fucking look away.

I know we were warned about false prophets doing great signs but, more people are waking up. The blind now sees, the deaf now hears. It's worth checking out.

The master that ends masters by freeing all slaves, friend to those that chose to obey.

I don't know if you are the one, but I'm still here. That's how I know you are the one.

The devil is dancing on the screen, and I'm watching it with glee.

Been poisoning myself for fun.

I've always suspected that the psychedelic state is a near death experience. Terrence said it is like a bungee jump into the Bardo, but I feel like it is dipping your leg into the abyss with no safety.

When it comes to death, we are all virgins. Many people think it's a cut to black. But I've seen better.

I'm not suicidal, I don't think it would actually do anything meaningful, because as long as you are, I am.

To think, the end of me. I've always been.

一直不知道这个名号，生活的很自我，直到有一天发现“他人”的存在。

在这方面我是晚熟的代表，自嘲一句大器晚成，其实心里满惭愧的。

“他人”突然出现在我面前，让我不知如何自处。如果我是我，那你又是什么？从什么地方来？要来对我做什么？

陡然发现山不是山，水不是水，一方面徒增烦恼，一方面悔恨交加。从此蚊叮铁牛，乐此不疲。

其实也是一种逃避，想方设法把“他人”也变成我，这样就好了不是吗？恢复如初？

但直到如今，“他人”还是“他人”，我也还是我。

一次次精彩的旅程，一回回安静的反思，总是少不了“他人”的存在，已经成了生命的一部分。习惯总是让人遗忘，但“他人”有的是方法让我记着。

又爱又恨。

Stepping down that economic ladder in order to meet Jesus. Everyone keeps talking about him, though less and less.

Where are the witnesses?

Probably people who can't afford smartphones. Or anything, for that matter.

It only make sense that the lover of the poor and miserable is among them.

I keep asking myself, whether this is truly what I want, or am I just spiritually bypassing for not making an effort to live "properly"?

How I pacified my question is, "who cares what stupid reason you did it for, what matters is now you get to meet him. For those who seeks, finds."

I don't know why, but recently I picked up smoking. Also, I need to slow down on fast food.

I've now heard many koans that end like this.

A quick exchange between the questioner and answerer, then followed by this phrase:"He stood there for quite a while."

Why?

Is he thinking about what he just said?

Is he waiting for the next question?

Does he have nowhere else to go but to hang around?

If I had a sword I'd cut him down where he stood, for blocking my way. I guess that's why I don't have a sword. It would be cool asf I'm just saying.

Instead we get a skill transparency slider, so we could literally play without the beautiful looking skill animation.