u/eeveethefox_xv

There's 3 leadership positions, one main and 2 vices. These roles affect our report book, especially since I'm applying by portfolio to a prestigious art school next year.

Everyone knows the leadership is very biased. There are other types of leadership other than CCA, which are also very biased and only people the teachers favor get to have anything good. Music - you're set for years if that one teacher likes you, Support Leaders and student committee get away with murder if they're the teacher-in-charge's favorite. etc.

So I've been working for the CCA and putting in my best effort to set a good example for my juniors and include them in CCA activities. I genuinely care about this CCA and want to help them do better since many people come to our CCA to have it easy. I'm doing my best to encourage them, because there's so many opportunities that they don't know about in our CCA. Most CCA sessions aren't taken seriously. Frankly, our coach way overqualified to be stuck babysitting.

Additionally, I took a large responsibility in a big scale school event (not gonna specify for privacy). I volunteer for cleanup duties (our studio really needs a renovation </3) whenever assigned people are absent. In my first year, I also took a leading role in the CCA, which makes it even more frustrating that I didn't get a role as I've proven I can handle the responsibility.

My very close friend is the main leader, although he has said himself that he is unlikely, given his "grades and conduct". He admitted that he was not a good candidate, and that he didn't want the responsibilities (words were "hell nah have you seen me not slack during [school club hours]" or similar repeated every time i brought leadership up in the last few months)

Honestly, I really have mixed feelings because I wish I'd been selected but I also want to be happy for him because he got something, but it feels unfair. I've been disassociating so much in class whenever he asks me if I'm okay ("the sparkle has gone out of your eyes", concerned half joke) what the hell am I supposed to say?

He also transferred into the CCA midway through the first year, while I was doing that leading role.

Then the vices I'll call Jay and Wren. Jay is average in academics in our school, not in a mean way. They were friends with Wren but they bullied Wren and excluded them in Year 2. Jay is generally uncomfortable to be around and quite mean girl, as seen in them bullying Wren.

Wren isn't personal, we're not particularly close friends but we used to hangout before Year 3 got so busy. They only put in effort when under pressure...

So tomorrow they're officially telling the CCA.

As for the prestigious art school I mentioned at the top, my mother doesn't want me to go as it's too expensive and she "wants to go to Europe" (this was for the last few years, not anymore with that weather i guess.)

One of the scholarships I need is portfolio and leadership based. I'm so fucked. I don't know what to live for because I really only have this passion since school killed my academic interests. I don't think I can make it if I continue to junior college instead.

Not to mention the stuff my father says. I've given up telling him anything as all he ever says is "what is whining going to do" and never expresses any empathy.

I'm so stupid thinking I could ever get anything.

And I told someone I wanted to kill myself earlier this year and even the fucking principal knows, what the fuck. Talking about someone wanting to die behind their back isn't fucking helpful.

Any questions about anything just ask. I dunno.

I think I'll just forget my CCA exists and throw myself into my portfolio work to compensate. Everyone there doesn't even care about the CCA anyways, which is useless for a team based CCA. I have no one to work with.

Specific names for things have been changed to more general names for privacy.

(Edit: For context our teacher picks favorites in every cohort) There are 3 CCA leaders, one is my friend, another is a slacker I'll call Jay.

So I've been working for the CCA and putting in my best effort to set a good example for my juniors and include them in CCA activities. I genuinely care about this CCA and want to help them do better since many people come to our CCA to have it easy. I'm doing my best to encourage them, because there's so many opportunities that they don't know about in our CCA.

Additionally, I took a large responsibility in a big scale school event (not gonna specify for privacy).

My friend who said they themselves weren't likely to become CCA leader, given their "conduct and grades" but our teacher favors them a lot and now they're leader. That, I'm happy for them, nice win.

But Jay, they've bullied their friend (our CCAmate) and excluded them so bad that my friend group intervened by inviting them to hang out with us instead. They interact with exactly four out of 25-30 people in the CCA, and teamwork with anyone else is nonexistent.

The last CCA leader is someone I'm on good terms with, not close friends, but I hardly hate them. They don't go above and beyond for the CCA but they also don't slack.

I feel very disappointed in myself because I thought I'd worked enough that maybe someone would notice and maybe argue against the teacher's bias. Stupid delusion. Salt in the wound is Jay.

I can't do anything afaik. Any suggestions? (save talking to the teacher) Thanks.

Semi related but I can never tell my father because he only ever implies it's my fault, telling me things like "maybe you should have (thing that won't help now)" when I just want him to empathize and when I tell him that, he says "What's whining going to do".

(The course code is D-CM101 and D-CM201)

I'm a sec 3 applying for LaSalle next year via EAE, saw this in the course Animation Diploma and was wondering what this is.

Plus, what are the Studio Exercise modules?

Additionally, under modes of assessment, there's both a "practical portfolio" and a "portfolio", a "creative process journal" and a "journal"

What's the difference? Thanks!

Also, what are the Electives in Year 2?

For context, I am s3 applying via EAE to lasalle diploma next year and am preparing my portfolio

Many of my drawings/animations are based on fictional stories I write, which feature queer people/relationships.

I really want to tell the truth because acting shady probably isnt the best for an interview, but if the interviewer is homophobic, I might not get accepted.

Should I lie and say the relationship is just friends etc, or is lasalle accepting enough?

(I wouldnt even think about telling the truth if it were another school, but yk, arts, lol)

S3, preparing to apply to EAE for lasalle's animation diploma here,

I am struggling to complete both my portfolio and my schoolwork, especially since my A math teacher is terrible at teaching and gives much more work than other classes.

(Fortunately A math is one of my "disposable" subjects, not in L1R4/ELR2B2, but it sucks getting scolded for not doing well when I dont have the time/energy to compensate for not having anything explained in class.)

I know I can get into the "Pass english and have 21 aggregate pts in 4 other subjects" but is spending more time and effort to lower the aggregate worth it when I could be improving my portfolio?

(Now that I write it out I feel stupid, obviously portfolio's 10-15 req is more important, but just to confirm wld be great, thank you!)

Edit: uh A math is mandatory for my sch </3, also i scared dont do bare mininum kena whack by bad conduct grade/detention

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Not sure if that's the right flair though. cmiiw pls ty

Just my opinion but I think he struggles with a lot of toxic masculinity, likely from being raised in an abusive household. For example, as a nonbinary person I struggled with proving that I was "masculine enough" that I pushed away any form of femininity even though I was okay with presenting that way. Gender presentation is separate from gender identity, and maybe Jax hasn't come to terms with him liking presenting femininely. Just my thoughts please no hate :3

Caption it "RAINBOW...? CANDY" and have to guess what it actually is, similar to black candy

I think I'm the host, we work kind of like a hive mind but idk the word for it

there's a lot of cofronting and it's really hard to tell who's who sometimes

As a young player I can't find any groups because nearly all people I've seen want to be family friendly. Language etc. (Fyi teens know more words than you think bahaha)

I'm open to any game/theme

Looking for a queer friendly group with an availability at weekend evenings 2pm gmt. The timezone I live in tends to be less queer friendly.

Any advice/help would be appreciated, thank you!

So my brother has had some gastric problems after forgetting to eat. It's almost normal now, but on and off.

Our mother has been constantly making sure he has snacks or food and is never hungry. Honestly irritating since I come home from school really hungry but there's never any lunch. I feel bad for asking for money from my dad outside of what I have to and school meals are never filling.

So we were having dinner and then mother said we weren't going to grandma's house this sunday because it's too frustrating for her to manage my brother's gastric problems and that we had to study. Note that my grandmother lives down the road and there is a five minute direct bus to there. Additionally, tomorrow is a holiday so I can study more, and my tests were all over except Elective Chemistry, next week Friday.

It's my cousin's birthday and I haven't seen my family outside of my parents and brother since Chinese New Year (february). I'd been looking forward to seeing them face to face.

I don't see why I can't go myself. I travel all the time in this neighborhood.

I excused myself from the table as I'd lost my appitite. I tried to clean up my bowl but mother yelled at me for wasting food. It's now on the dining table. I'll go back and eat it once they've left. I can hear my mother slamming cabinets and muttering outside my door, like she always does when she's mad. I swear her muttering is louder than her talking normally.

What am I doing wrong?

Hi, my main laptop is an ideapad (Windows 11). How do I connect this to my school chromebook?

I only need it as a display. Sadly, I am unable to download spacedesk or any app due to school restrictions. Hoping to get some cables or something to fix this.

Completely new towards software and hardware, so as far as I know, a HDMI cable won't work because of processing data or something? Lol idk ya'll are the experts here.

If any more info is needed pls let me know. Thank you!