And bad parents make it a task to ruin it too
They act like your friends but deep down they are proud like a demon that they made your life difficult
People are evil
Like, disenchanted with the whole humanity. And feeling disgusted through comparision.
If I say I bought cheap items of quality, he says its bad quality or he says he knew better places to buy it. If I say I am going to do something he says it wont work.
Its always been like that
He creates issues from nowhere to make remarks about how someone is inferior to him, usually me.
Even as a kid, when I told him something good happened in school, he told me he had it better when he was a kid.
Smartness is the only thing they can fake in order to sustain their delusions of superiority, when they grow old. Everything they know better.
Their own human limitations are traumatic to them . To the point they dissociate from how dumb, destructive, rude, incompetent and undesirable they are
Blood cells react differently to estrogen and testosterone according to their structure
Blood cells are produced in the bone marrow inside bones.
Why do blood cells differ in structure according to sex? Because of estrogen and testosterone, there are receptors inside bone marrow that will cause the blood cells to be made male or female.
Genetics are what control the substances that flow through our bodies. For example, a cis woman's body naturally allows more indogenous estrogen to cross the blood vessels into the bone marrow. So their bone marrow receptors naturally react to their estrogen. Leading the body to produce female sized blood cells, which then react to estrogen, progesterone and testosterone through female patterns, carrying info toward the entire body through blood vessels, leading to real feminization.
But trans women's exogenous estrogen dont cross blood vessels into the bone marrow. And because of that, their bone marrow still produces male sized blood cells. Which then react to estrogen, progesterone and testosterone in male patterns. So even if you overflow your blood with estrogen, it wont react the same way which female sized blood cells react to hormones, it will react in a male pattern and youre lucky if you get some changes.
Then
Injecting hormones near hip bone marrow is the way they get to cross blood vessels and enter bone marrow. Leading to real feminization, as new blood cells get to be made in female size and form.
I been injecting it near my illiac crest with 13 mm long needles for 40 days. And I now see really big changes. Only 40 days.
For anyone who has a spirit of risking it all, who thinks this makes any sense and wants to give it a try, take extra care with sterilization as it could lead to bone infection.. I inject a little less than half my dosage around this area. I separate the injection site in 4 different points, so that I only inject each one once every month. The surface between illiac crest and skin is overall made of fat, muscle and skin, so you dont risk piercing the intestines or nerves if you do it correctly. I aspire it to avoid injecting inside veins.
To put it simple
Its so exhausting. But when narcissistic parent dies, its freedom. I think my father is dying soon and I am happy
Stupid men that want to play goat and cool superheroes in real life. And they cant do it at home where their wives and kids provide a safe space to be vulnerable and a real person.
The people who hate them most shame them for living a happy family life, for being humans. So they gotta ruin it and dedicate their lives to live up to the mask. Be a strong figure.
They keep trying to impress their own parents, siblings, strangers.
They resent the people who loved them the most, as they built them and had their backs, because its so gay(/s).
We all had Homelander as fathers.
Forced to catter to our delusional fathers, being their biggest emotional supporters, only to be trashed again and again while they played superhero. Its disgusting. They did that to our moms too. We live in a world like that.
Despise women and kids, put up a front to the outsiders. You are the great Homelander. But its a farse and your own child hates you.
Sucks so much
They were never interest in my own life. My inner life. My surroundings. My experiences. But if I acted like I respected them everything was fine.
As a kid I was growing up in allignment with western culture but my father was always discouraging my behaviour and trying to make me more asian...
Then I got wrecked by western world and there is no asian community for me.
Father is the type of person who only hang around other asian boomers. Unlucky
Its so unfortunate that I feel so good when I am in danger. Something bad is going to happen, etc...
It feels good, it feels familiar. It feels like as if I was a fish out of water then I get to swim. I was made for it. But I realized it was hurting others and wouldnt take me anywhere... So I am trying to control it
​
People live lives, easily influenced by things such as what our family values and believe, what society values and believe. But those things are deeply tainted. Our ancestors were hateful and ignorant. Yet people choose to value their roots, as if there is great value in it. Repeating hateful behaviour and mistakes from our parents and social circles. There is an illusion of safety.
Our own family carry values that can potentially destroy and ruin our lives. Yet many choose to defend their values. There appear to be a desire to belong no matter what, to mantain a delusion of safety and stability in our roots. Even in abusive, miserable families.
Its not a pure loving world, made of great people. Its a hostile, non-generous, stressful afflicted world that carries many elements of hatred and greed. But people choose to be part of the later. This is their karma, this is their choice. Their destination and their future suffering.
TLDR ; wr people are born among non-virtious humankind, and have a strong likelihood of following the same steps of their ancestors. Being hateful and bad people, they overlook the moral failure of the herd. And face karmic consequences in next lives. Rarely someone is reborn in heavens. The moral work is overlooked and replaced by a life of nourishing identity and ego, repeating mistakes of their own blood and social group. Followed by a sense of belonging and existing that safisfies one's ignorant heart, but leads to potential bad karma and affliction and suffering to other people and self in this life.
Lol.
They were just broken creatures too stubborn and proud to admit they shouldnt had children, too stubborn and proud to admit their guidance and parenting was shitty.
And even later in life they are still too stubborn and proud to admit they failed us. And then words gets twisted and this become love somehow
No wait, I am starting to get it, they thought emotional neglect was good because that is what their parents did to them. Lol /s
You know, that little child who ignored their own needs to please their parents... Who were silent and cause no trouble and were focused on their parents's needs.
Their brain see us as that small scared children.
That explains why my father acts as he does.
It made them feel so good. To have a scared children treating them as gods because we were dependent upon them. And they feel in love with that. Wanting more and more. From adults who hate their asses. Greed is ugly