u/f__beg

What triggers your anger/temper, I mean

For me, a lot of things, like a “friend” touching me, or someone trying to talk with me when I’m in a bad mood, etc, small stuff since I have sensory issues

But my biggest trigger is 1)ignorance/confident stupidity. When someone is saying nonsense or acting extremely ignorant, there is a pressure in my chest and I want to insult them or prove them wrong on the spot. And 2)when someone “wins” against me in a game or something and starts thinking they’re better than me just because of 1 game. There’s nothing more irritating to me than “losing” a game (even though it’s rare). 3)Hypocrites

Of course, I hide all of this very well and keep it to myself and never show a reaction. I’ve gotten really good at controlling my anger and frustration

True love, the one you see in books and whatnot, it is RIZQ.

Meaning most people will not find it in this life, even within marriage. That's the reality of the dunya you need to understand. So stop chasing something that was never guaranteed here.

Naturally, some will find it, but majority won't.

This life is a test, in a flawed and harsh society.

Our real, complete happiness is meant to be in Jannah. There, you will ask for love and you will have it all.

Why do you think we feel so out of place here? Why are our emotions all over the place? Because this is not home.

The point is, focus first on passing the test of this dunya. Ofc, enjoy the halal blessings Allah gives you along the way too.

Just a reminder, because I see many posts from people losing hope over this… Don't get too depressed! It's normal not to find love in this life.

Idk where to post this.

I'm talking ears smell taste touch and everything.

I can't touch or look at visibly dirty stuff. It's impossible for me to do the dishes without thick gloves and closing my eyes.

Strong smells like chocolate cake make me nauseous and want to throw up.

I'm extremely sensitive to noise so I have to wear airpods most of the time even with no music playing.

I have a weird eating problem. I don't know how to explain it but certain textures and the way food looks can make me physically unable to eat it. For example if my pasta looks pretty and presentable I can eat it but if someone mixes the sauce and meat and it's all over the place, I just physically can't and will throw up if I eat it. Same with the taste and how it feels in my mouth, if the texture's off I can't.

There are also other small things, like for instance if I'm eating and someone stands close to me, I can't eat the food anymore because it's like their aura got absorbed into the food… I know it sounds stupid.

And like, only picking specific plates and spoons and not being able to drink from a clear glass,…etc. The list goes on.

I've had all these sensory issues since I was a child (and it got worse over the years) but my parents have always invalidated them and told me I have to change and that I'm abnormal.

I'm wondering if this is linked to my neurodivergence? If not, please help me find out what this is.

I'm talking ears smell taste touch and everything.

I can't touch or look at visibly dirty stuff. It's impossible for me to do the dishes without thick gloves and closing my eyes.

Strong smells like chocolate cake make me nauseous and want to throw up.

I'm extremely sensitive to noise so I have to wear airpods most of the time even with no music playing.

I have a weird eating problem. I don't know how to explain it but certain textures and the way food looks can make me physically unable to eat it. For example if my pasta looks pretty and presentable I can eat it but if someone mixes the sauce and meat and it's all over the place, I just physically can't and will throw up if I eat it. Same with the taste and how it feels in my mouth, if the texture's off I can't.

There are also other small things, like for instance if I'm eating and someone stands close to me, I can't eat the food anymore because it's like their aura got absorbed into the food… I know it sounds stupid.

And like, only picking specific plates and spoons and not being able to drink from a clear glass,…etc. The list goes on.

I've had all these sensory issues since I was a child (and it got worse over the years) but my parents have always invalidated them and told me I have to change and that I'm abnormal.

I'm wondering if this is linked to my neurodivergence? If not, please help me find out what this is.

I feel like there are no consequences to anything anymore

Thus, I do bad at work and get criticized, and still feel nothing

Nothing feels real so I avoid every responsibility

I think I will get sacked soon

Everyone is telling me "What's happened?"

I feel like I want to ruin my life for no particular reason

What is this? For 2 months it has been like this

I tried posting on r/relationships but it got automatically removed, let me know if I should post this elsewhere

We've been dating for 2years but have known each other as friends for 3years as well, so that's 5years of hanging out, we're really close. We have been living together for a few months now. I also have a guy friend I've been tight with for about 2years too. He knows my girl a little but they've never hung out or interacted much

Yesterday we were in a small group hangout. Me, my girl, the friend, and my sister. My sister and I stepped out the car to grab the food so they were left alone essentially. When we came back my gf was noticeably quiet while my friend was acting normal and loud. I didn't think much of it but I did notice it

Later at home I asked if she was ok because I know her well. Never did I expect her to break down crying and trembling and hugging me. She told me that while we were gone my friend started making moves on her and touch her subtly and getting too close etc. She said she froze and didn't know what to do so she stayed silent

I was shocked and angry and feeling betrayal and disgust from him. I didn't do anything that day and stayed to comfort her but today I confronted him, a few hours ago. He laughed at my face and said she's the one who cheated and made a move on him and that she's scared of confrontation so she made up the story and told me first. He said she's a wh*re and b*tch and that I should "run" and that she is trying to make false charges against him

In the moment I didn't believe him at all and I'm not a violent guy but I almost punched him for saying this stupid shit so I left quickly for his own safety. However now that I'm home it's 8pm and I'm spiraling and don't know what to think. I've never expected something like this. I always trust both completely

My sweetling is my number1 but this friend is also fairly close to me. It's not unlikely to cheat on a long term partner, is it? I hate that I'm thinking this. She is not the type to do this, I don't believe it. I feel sick and like trash for even doubting her a little. I didn't tell her yet what he told me. I also wanted to ask my sister if she noticed anything yesterday first and ask all of them for more details. Idk how to explain it's like I 99% believe her but there is this little 1%

As her bf I need to get my shit together and figure this out. I have a very specific plan to propose to her next year. Idk what to do, please help me

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Tldr: My close friend allegedly acted inappropriately/hit on my gf while I wasn't there. She says she froze and told me later crying. He says she cheated and is lying. I'm lost and need help

I almost never think about him. I even forget he exists. Even when I struggle with bad thoughts my mind doesn't go to shaytan but rather I just think that I trust Allah.

So most of the time I don't think about shaytan at all lol even when I fall into sinning (minor) or when I'm in a bad situation etc. It makes me wonder if we are supposed to be more aware of him? And could the fact that I barely think about him also be from his influence?

I'm not sure if it's a good thing or bad sign?

Idk how to say this but she has started trauma dumping a lot lately. We have been together for 1 year almost 2.

I know it means she feels safe with me and I don't want to be insensitive but it's overwhelming idk how to explain. The conversations keep turning heavy and I feel pressure to respond the perfect way which stresses me out and makes me uncomfortable and I feel like shit and guilty so I'm not able to tell her.

It's gotten to the point where I'm avoiding having long conversations with her and it's hurting me because I love talking with my girlfriend it's just when it turns to heavy my heart drops everytime!

What to do without hurting her feelings? She has a lot of trauma it's not that I don't care but it's making me anxious I know it sounds selfish but it's the truth.

Tl;dr : I care about my girlfriend and her burdens but her constant trauma dumping is stressing me out and making me anxious to talk. How can to handle this?