I've always heard about people getting terrible brain zaps from MDMA binges or other stupid stuff, but I had never experienced them myself and honestly couldnt imagine what they are like.

Fast forward to abouta week ago and I had some times to do 4mmc. People always rave on about how it never stops working (lie), so I dedided to put that to the test just for one. Was up from tuesday morning until Friday midnight, 2 skipped nights. I didnt realize it then but I was borderline psychotic at the end all while thinking my reasoning is perfectly intact and everyone around me speaks gibberish.

Went through 6g total and at the end I wanted to try how high you could dose just for the sake of it, was getting precisely Zero effects atp, so i continued dosing 1.8g in the span of 2.5h and ended the binge with a 900mg oral dose. This was very close to OD territoryas I turned fully retarded for the next 2 hours, couldnt form a single through and felt physically ill and unstable, afterwards i thought to myself it was pure luck that i didnt take 200mg more cuz that could have actually killed me.

Feel asleep instantly on xan and felt okay the next day (i acutally got my blood drawn on the morning after for sth unrelated, if anyone cares about the results let me know). Next night though I laid in bed and I could feel and hear this buzzing in my head slowly coming on, getting stronger and then strongly buzzing my brain with a loud sound in my ear for a second.. It certainly wasn't comfortable but a completely novel sensation and I had to laugh directly after for some reason. Did get annyoing though when I actually tried to sleep.

Next day: worst. fucking. comedown. ever. Not kidding, i've binged on 2g many times before but this was next level. just sat down frozen cuz no motivation to even move my hand somewhere of do the simplest thing. Its now a week later and I feel 90% to my old self, but that certainly was an interesting experiment.

Research has been conducted successfully, thx for reading

Edit: Dosing log here https://imgur.com/a/WZisczN
The red marked doses are what almost took me out i guess

Ausgangsform nach ca. 3 Monaten Trainingspause

Bin offen für Anregungen jeglicher Art

Curious about the age/net worth ratio for hitting coast fire.

Assumptions (example): FIRE at 50, 45k/yr spending, 4% SWR, so the target is roughly 1.13m in todays money. 9% nominal minus 3% inflation is about 5.8% real. 200k at 20 compounds to ~1.09m real by 50, so it just about works.

The 200k/500k/1.1m comparison is the same amount at three points in time, so of course it comes out equal. What im actually wondering is what this calculation is hiding:

• 30 years to retirement vs 10 years is a lot more time for uncertainty
• Real world benefits having money earlier
• Market outperformance
• Saving with a much bigger impact

If you could choose one age, which one would it be?

Form nach meinem 10-wöchigen Cut. -20kg zu 71kg auf 186cm. 1300-1500kcal

Ich würde den KFA auf ~10% schätzen. Ich war am Ende super zufrieden mit der Form, aber ich hab mich die letzten Wochen absolut räudig gefühlt. Den ganzen Tag nur an Essen gedacht und völlig fertig mit dem Leben nach dem ersten Aufwärmsatz. Generell fühlt man sich einfach etwas kränklich und "unangepasst" an die Welt, falls das Sinn macht.

Seit Juni hab ich das Gewicht soweit gehalten aber bin nicht mehr so lean. Dafür fühle ich mich viel gesünder und meine Lebensqualität ist wieder top. Außerdem habe ich keinen unkontrollierten Hunger mehr. Nach dem Cut konnte und wollte ich ständig essen ohne jegliches Sättigungsgefühl. Das hat sich mittlerweile zum Glück auch gelegt. Als Hobbysportler so für die Physique leiden muss meiner Meinung nach nicht sein.

Gibt es hier Leute die so einen KFA langfristig halten können?

Edit: 350 test 10mg reta anavar

Got a Pro sub a few weeks ago and was genuinely amazed by Opus 5 in the beginning. Answers were highly understandable and practically useful. The model always understood the assignment perfectly.

Now, comparing recent output to the beginning, its a totally different model. Convoluted sentence structures and 10 obscure words where one simple sentence would have done the job. It was like in the Opus memes:

• First, the estimator problem. The naive version of your question — regress standardized unexpected earnings
• First, a correction to the premise....
• Adjuncts that don't violate your constraint: These are procedural or device-based rather than streamlined solutions:

Seriously, come on...

I came across the advice from the Claude Code lead developer to just let Claude work without piling on instructions sometimes, so I deleted the memory. Output after that is so much better - very close to what I got at the start again. Big improvement over previous word salad.

I'm pretty sure the memory was slowly accumulating weird instructions on thoroughness and output preferences and executing them regardless of how much sense it made in the situation. Definitely worth trying if your Opus 5 outputs got ridiculous to read over time.

Edit: thx for the hair advice guys🙃

Thought this is the last sub on this topic I can resort to.

Early 20s and I've been trading stocks and ETFs for 2 years now. Buying/selling even just watching the market used to be a big thrill, sometimes scary in the moment. There was a time where I equated the money in the portfolio to job money; I was working an assistant job at the time, a 600€ loss felt like one complete salary gone.

Nowdays it didnt just become "normal" - it became absolutely insignificant. Part of it is moving too big orders virtually in mental absence, taking big trades after being in drawdown very spontaneously. Checking the app constantly but not feeling anything. Note that I live relatively frugal otherwise.

The truth is: I dont feel happier after having reached some arbitrary monetary goal, in fact im even more depressed. I dont feel very financially or socially secure. Theres nothing to be bought with money that gifts actual happiness. Taking a look in the app is almost empty and meaningless.

Any thoughts are appreciated

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Leveraged-ETFs ernten gerade in konservativeren Finanzsubs des Öfteren zu Unrecht scharfe Kritik. Einwände wie Pfadabhängigkeit, Risiko von Drawdowns oder höhere Gebühren gehören durchaus erwähnt, sind aber noch lange keine Totschlagargumente gegen LETFs.

Der 2x All-World wird hier oft als "sicherster" 2x ETF empfohlen. Wer hebeln möchte, kaufe sich bitte den 2x World, andere 2x ETFs seien unverantwortlich, underperformen und riskieren einen Totalverlust. Ein kurzer Blick auf die Zahlen lässt diesen Ratschlag eher fragwürdig klingen.

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Die Zahlen im 30j. Ø

‎ ‎ ‎ |Rendite in % |Volatilität in % |Sharpe (Rendite/Vol)
All-World |8,3 |18,5 |0,45
2x All-World |9,3 |37,1 |0,25
Nasdaq |14,2 |27,3 |0,52
2x Nasdaq |16,7 |54,5 |0,31 Schon ungehebelt liefert der Nasdaq fast die doppelte Rendite des All-World (14,2% vs 8,3%) bei einer Volatilität, die nicht doppelt, sondern nur rund 1,5x so hoch ist. Die Diversifizierung des All-World verschlingt Rendite, erbringt dafür aber keine signifikant niedrigere Volatilität.

Gleiches setzt sich bei den 2x-ETFs fort: Der 2x-Nasdaq schafft es mit 0,31 auf ein merklich besseres Verhältnis als der 2x All-World mit 0,25, da die rohe Rendite von 16,7% die erhöhte Volatilität kompensiert. Damit hat der gehebelte All-World das schlechteste Verhältnis. Für schlappe 1% Überrendite zahlt man mit doppelter Volatilität.

Der 2x All-World ein fundamental äußerst ungünstiges Produkt; er bleibt dem Weltmarktrisiko ähnlich ausgesetzt und zugleich fehlt ihm jegliche Überrendite vom Nasdaq.

Warum wird der 2x All-World weiterhin als Hebel-ETF für Anfanger verkauft, obwohl er ein so riskantes und zugleich unrentables Produkt ist? Beimischung ist ebenfalls unsinnig, da man mit kleinerer Allokation und besserem Rendite-Risiko-Verhältnis gleiche Ergebnisse erzielen kann.
Meiner Meinung nach spricht wenig gegen die Beimischung von 20% 2x Nasdaq oder 10% 3x Nasdaq als Risikoposition neben dem Core ETF. Alternativ könnte man einen Semi/AI ETF besparen und wäre immer noch sinnvoller unterwegs als mit dem 2x World.

Mich würden eure Meinungen zum 2x World und Nasdaq interessieren. Seid ihr selber in Hebel ETFs investiert?
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Edit: Natürlich ist die Analyse nicht perfekt und der Zeitraum einigermaßen willkürlich gewählt. Ich gehe auch nicht von einer 30-jahres Haltedauer vom 2x Nasdaq aus, obwohl diese in der Theorie wahrscheinlich alles andere outperformen würde. Zusätzlich weiß ich natürlich nicht, ob sich das Blatt nicht bald umkehrt und der Nasdaq zukünftig underperformen wird.

Was man aber für heute rückblickend sagen kann, ist, dass der gehebelte World gegen andere Hebel-ETFs schlecht darsteht. Ein ungehebeltes 75/25 World Nasdaq Portfolio performt ähnlich wie ein 50/50 World 2x World, hat geringere Drawdowns und kostet weniger.

This secular bull run has been incredible for leveraged investing, but at some point deleveraging a part of the portfolio becomes sensible risk management.

Currently holding 80/20 QLD SSO and looking to keep this until at least 2028. Im optimistic for the near future but major drawdowns will come, therefore I consider a total leverage of 1.5 to be more reasonable going into the coming decade.

How would you reallocate this portfolio?

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Not looking to run a SMA strategy since taxes are an issue.
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Thinking about going 50/50 QLD VT mainly because im comfortable with QLD volatility. Any benefit going with 70/30 VT TQQQ or something completely different/bonds etc?

Finally got around to getting a sample of this relatively obscure cathinone. Im looking for some insight on the pharmacology and effects of 4-BMC before becoming a guinea pig myself.

In general, it seems to be the case for 4-substituted methcathinones that the SERT:DAT ratio together with absolute releasing potencies increase the heavier the substituent gets. This tracks from CH3->Cl->Br, with DAT selectivity being highest in 4-MMC, then 4-CMC and lowest in 4-BMC. Also 4-BMC is the most serotonergic in absolute potency.

Just going by EC50 values alone, 4-BMC should be more serotonergic and potent than 4-MMC by a wide margin a lot closer to MDMA in its effects.
Im well aware that subjective effects can vary widely in humans and depend other factors, but the big difference in ec50 should atleast translate somehow to real world effects.

Whats your experience been with this substance? Is it comparable to anything?

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‎ ‎ ‎	DAT	SERT	DAT Selectivity
4-MMC	49.1 ± 8.3	118 ± 26	2.4
4-CMC	74.7 ± 15	71.1 ± 12	0.9
4-BMC	67.8 ± 12	42.5 ± 26	0.6

Blough et al. (2019)

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC6475490/

Anyone with similar scores who feels less intelligent than peers? I have a friend who scored a 120, but his verbal intelligence is so much higher than mine.
I tend to feel stupid when speaking, my mind goes blank when trying to find the right word for something. Also when I write something it could just sound more sophisticated and fluent

Small cap damit kein Klumpenrisiko entsteht. Bin kein Fan von USA-lastigen Depots. GaLiGrü

Starting weight was 90kg, end weight 72kg at 186cm. Feel free to ask any questions

Edit: some relevant Stats because a lot of people asked:

- Reta dose: 2mg/wk initial -> finished with 11.5mg/wk

- 350 test, Anavar

- 1000 calorie deficit

- 2-3x gym per week, mostly upper body, no cardio

Sparplan je nach Lust und Laune. Vielleicht 500-1000 mtl.

Ansonsten denke ich dass msft in Zukunft noch gut laufen wird. Was denkt ihr so?