
i am so excite. this is my first time seeing them live!!!
words can’t describe what this means to me

words can’t describe what this means to me
I started to ask about me and her. i was doing the method where you just shuffle and let cards fall out. they’re placed in the order of which they fell out but i ended up making a spread with them.
here is my interpretation…
the top card is the recent past, what we’re both getting over. sufficient relationships with partners who controlled us.
i asked which cards represented the two of us and the queen of swords and knight of cups popped out.
the queen of swords is her. she was taking care of herself from a young age and has always been an independent person. she’s been through a lot and values clear coming to build trust. she’s also a very logical thinker. the knight of cups is me. i am a lover at heart. i wear my heart on my sleeve (at times against my own will). the only thing i know for
certain i am here for, is to love and be loved.
the nine of pentacles is what popped out after i asked what card would represent us together. we would be able to build a stable, and flourishing relationship. one thats new from what either have experienced before. no codependency, just interdependency and love. we can be ourselves. we could have a truly healthy dynamic.
now am i crazy for thinking all of this? am i delusional? did i manipulate those cards into falling out???
thanks for taking a look!
i’m going through a breakup with someone who was 20 yrs older than me. we were together since may 2023 (-7 months in between). i think i was manipulated, and experiencing some emotional abuse.
i have no home and am figuring out how to move forward with my life and find my own path / space.
i miss holding you. tangling our bodies together and drifting off into a blissful sleep. skin to skin.
nothing like it.
haven’t sleep good since we’ve been apart
i am the one with the brown hair. i don’t know what to do without her. i want to talk to her. i’m worried i’m a terrible person. i want to grow and be better. i can’t shake the feeling of not being enough.
how long til my soul gets it right? any hope for this lifetime? i feel incredibly lost and am losing hope. i don’t want to be a lost soul forever. how do i grow? i’m so tired.
I turn 23 today and somehow ended up in Greenville to celebrate. Any suggestions on good restaurants or bars? (preferably not too expensive). Also open to other fun suggestions for activities I could do today. Also would love any birthday freebie suggestions if you know of any! I’d be doing these things either alone or with my partner. Also I’ve been craving pho for almost a year. Where’s the best pho in town? I’ve read Tuk Tuk, is this true?
this world hurts my heart so much, i feel so lost