u/g0at110

I'm going to Australia tomorrow on a working holiday visa, I don't know for how long, if I like it potentially for a year or longer, Im gonna find a job and work to support myself, and at some point will probably buy a car and roadtrip across the country. I'm also 20 and have never lived by myself before, I have traveled solo before though, 6 weeks in southeast Asia and also some random little trips in Europe.

I've been flip flopping between being really excited and happy about it, to dreading it and how different and out of my comfort zone the whole thing is gonna be. But beneath that I still believe in myself and am incredibly eager to see what It's like to just be my own person for the first time in my life, no more parents, no more small town that I've lived in most of my life.

People always say this in response when someone is struggling with social anxiety or a fear of being judged, and I guess i kinda have it ingrained in my head in some ways. But on the other hand its sad to think like that.

I hope some people do think and care about me. I'm moving abroad tomorrow and i met up with some of my colleagues yesterday for some drinks as a little goodbye hangout, and beforehand I felt a bit sad because I just realised how everything that I or you experience and go through means so much more to us than other people, no one can ever really understand you or me and our complex inner worlds. Like these people have been a big part of my life for the past year and 3 months, this job and my coworkers feel like the background and characters to this episode of my life, which is now finished. I guess i consider them to be my friends, but I struggle to believe I mean that much to them. Which is fine. But its a little bit sad and bittersweet.

I'm m20 living in the uk but I'm moving to Australia next week to work/travel for a while, and I'm hoping I can get some work bartending since that's the only thing I have experience in.

I haven't updated my resume since I got my current job at a pub a bit over a year ago, prior to which I didn't have any "real" permanent jobs, though I had worked bartending at a few festivals and also a couple shifts at a football stadium pouring beers.

I'm thinking I should include those things too, just to increase the amount of experience that it looks like I have (technically I first worked in some sort of alcohol serving capacity 3 years ago, though saying I have "3 years bartending experience" would be pretty disingenuous I think). But I should probably wipe the random shit I have on there when I was just clutching at straws trying to get any random job (bars arent gonna care that I worked at a farm for a week when I was 15 or that I did a little work experience thing with a digital marketing company).

Lastly, how much of a problem is not being proficient in cocktails? I work at a normal british pub and almost everyone just drinks beer or wine or simple drinks like rum and coke, not many cocktails at all. I can make a mojito and a margarita or an espresso martini or an aperol spritz but thats about it. Should I just make flashcards on cocktail recipes and try memorise them and say on my resume that I have experience? If it gets me a job it'd be worth it.

So I'm selling my pc to someone soon and they said they wanted to check the temps of it while running a game when they come to pick it up. I've never cared to actually check because the pc has worked totally fine since I've had it.

The GPU hotspot temp gets to 96-102c when gaming, while the normal GPU temp is like 30-35c lower. And the CPU is around 78-83c. I tested this in cyberpunk at 1440p ultra settings. Those numbers sound kinda high tbh and im worried it might scare the guy off lol, I don't think he knows much about PCs either so might just think big number bad. I tried tweaking the fan speed of the gpu and the hotspot doesn't go above 90c now so I might just keep it like that.

This is what I got on the SLOAN test and I relate to the description the most.

Are you guys also seen by other as very "chill" or stoic and kinda emotionless and calm?

Would you say you're an adventurous person? Do you like new environments, travelling, unpredictable situations? How do you feel about uncertainty in life/the future/what you're doing?

I'm moving to Australia soon because I'm bored and want some kind of adventure in my life and I wanna read some books that give me this sense of adventure and the feeling of uncertainty, not knowing what youre gonna do next and fucking around. I like roadtrip and travel related stories.

Bonus points if it takes place in Australia?

I took the pics on my phone and they all got compressed to blurry shit, tried uploading a cropped photo that was 400kb and 1200x1700 pixels and it still gets compressed and looks terrible. What am I meant to do?

I've felt like utter shit since friday when I went out and got really drunk with friends. Overconsumption of alcohol seems to have that effect on me. A mix of fear for my own wellbeing, anxiety and embarrasment of what I might've said or done that I cant remember and just the fact that I've ingested poison all leads to this.

I logically know every emotion passes but fuck man I just wanna crawl into a ball and die. I dont wanna talk to anyone, my friends invited me to meet yesterday but I dont wanna be all gloomy and weird around others. Or drink alcohol again. Definitely dont wanna do that. And now Im scared that Im gonna feel like this forever, when I actually have a huge life change coming up in 2 weeks which is gonna require me to actually get out of bed and take initiative and not be depressed.

The title might be confusing, but I'm having a bit of a dilemma I guess. I'm 20 years old and the past few years I've been training muay thai which I enjoy, but I also recognise that getting punched in the head isn't ideal, even more so if you had a brain injury in the past. And of course there's a risk of getting more concussions from training, and especially competing - which I haven't done so far but it's something that appeals to me and I think id want to try at some point. Muay thai genuinely adds something to my life, I like moving my body, I like pushing myself physically and mentally, I like learning new shit and improving and getting to test my skills in sparring.

I guess I should mention how I got the concussion, it wasnt from martial arts, I just randomly hit the back of my head on a metal bar at a playground while drunk. I then lost my memory for the next 2-3 hours. Alcohol and concussions not a good combo. I don't know if it had any effect or not but I had a very similar thing happen 2 weeks prior to that, where I smacked the back of my head pretty hard on a barbell at the gym, I didn't think much of it after but I wonder if it could've had an effect. I then had balance issues, brain fog and lack of energy for the next few weeks, but i felt pretty normal within 6 weeks.

Which brings me to the next thing that I probably shouldn't be doing but I still do, which is drinking alcohol. I'm pretty sure the concussion had some effects on my tolerance because I seem to get memory issues whenever I have more than 4 pints of beer, like forgetting details of conversations. After 6-7 I sometimes don't remember the last 30 minutes of the night, walking home from the bar etc. I'm pretty concerned by all this and if I can't control myself better and limit how much I drink when I go out to maybe 3-4 pints, I'm probably gonna have to just quit drinking. Which sucks, but blacking out is not ok.

7800x3d

rx 7900 gre

32gb ddr5 6000mhz cl38 ram

2tb nvme ssd

850w psu

I got this pc 6 months ago as a prebuilt from ebay and got the gpu separately.

The only "problem" is everything in this PC is chinese lol, which is the reason why it was cheap in the first place. The bios is in chinese, all the parts (mobo, ram, ssd, cooler) are by weird chinese brands no ones ever heard of. But it performs as it should so its not really a problem. Oh yeah, it also doesnt have a wifi card so I have to use a wifi usb thing.

Maybe the context matters here, basically I was trying to decide whether I want to work tomorrow (boss asked me if I can cover a shift) or if I wanna go out drinking with a colleague/friend.

This seemingly binary decision blossomed into a tree of possibilities and different decisions in my head, I want to work because I need the money, but I also want to go out. So do I text the colleague to check if hes still down to go out? Or should I also ask him if anyone else is coming? If it's just him then it might be a bit boring/awkward, in that case I'd rather just work. If a few other people are also coming, then I probably want to go out. But if alot of people are going out then they might still be around when I finish my shift, in which case I can both work and then join in and get drunk. Which finally leads me to my decision that I should agree to work, not text the colleague/friend, and if it turns out alot of people are going out I can join in afterwards, and if it's just him or him and one other person and the night ends early, well I get to just work and not have to risk having a boring/awkward outing. Win win?

Well this conclusion took me so long to reach that my boss found someone else to cover, so the choice has been made for me, I guess I'm going out tomorrow?

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Extraversion:

Activity 19%, Assertiveness 1%, Cheerfulness 79%, Excitement Seeking 84%, Friendliness 13%, Gregariousness 55%

Agreeableness:

Altruism 37%, Cooperation 81%, Modesty 90%, Morality 52%, Sympathy 70%, Trust 51%

Conscientiousness

Achievement Striving 5%, Cautiousness 29%, Dutifulness 14%, Orderliness 5%, Self Discipline 7%, Self Efficacy 2%

Neuroticism:

Anger 17%, Anxiety 31%, Depression 80%, Immoderation 60%, Self Consciousness 86%, Vulnerability 19%

Openness:

Adventurousness 89%, Artistic Interests 62%, Emotionality 41%, Imagination 95%, Intellect 63%, Liberalism 91%