u/imastar_22

So for an almost a year now I’ve had very dark blood at the start of my period, I know it’s because of old blood, but I’ve seen some people say the blood takes time to come out because of low progesterone. I’ve been having for quite some time a sense that I have some hormonal imbalances.

Pedro is my favorite director, I’ve seen almost all his movies, and while I know rape is something he has tackled in several of his movies but this is the first one in which he actually romanticizes it. Before anyone says we are not supposed to feel bad for benigno, Marco tries to get him out, sympathizes with him and also tells him he saved alicia. Side note, in comparison to the rape scene in the skin i live in for most of what I remember, it was totally left ambiguous if Vicente raped the girl or not leaving us some room to sympathize with him, but i really can’t see it here.

I’ve been unemployed for 2 years!! 2 years and apparently no company in lebanon is willing to hire someone with a masters degree but no experience. Tayb i ask the same companies for an internship position and they also refuse!! Is the job market in lebanon this fucked or am i doing something wrong? Mind you almost all of my colleagues found a job immediately after graduation. I’m getting hopeless to the point I’m thinking of ending it all, like what is even the point anymore.

People often underestimate impulsiveness as the absolute worst symptom in BPD people. Sure emotional instability is pretty rough especially if you had gone through multiple failed relationships losing hope, but my impulsivity is absolutely making me look like a fool at the ripe age of 24.

Just in a few months:
\-Got high at my tattoo artists place because they offered me one, and got a ridiculous tattoo that i’ll regret my whole life.
\-Ran a 10k race with only 3 days of training ( and slightly overweight) and now 1 week later my knees still hurt like hell and i can’t walk properly.
\-Spent almost all of my savings that i had from my previous job for a ton shit of useless stuff even though I’m not working rn
\-Gained 10 kg in just a few months because when the food is available and i have nothing to do nothing can hold my impulsivity to eat everything i can eat.
\-Engaged with three sexual acts that i regret now

So now I’m fat, broke, can’t walk properly, sexually exploited with a goofy tattoo :) Genuinely what do i do now when I can’t literally stop making bad decisions.

I was in a coffeshop with my boyfriend and two girls sitting across us who obviously looked like lesbians kept smiling at me. Eventually when we both got up and started checking the books in there, they came and told me “btw you’re so pretty, i love your hair” with so much enthusiasm 😭 tbh i grew up ugly and rarely got told pretty and when men tell me im pretty or cute i don’t believe them because they almost always lie just for a hookup. So my point is were they just being nice because they like complimenting women in general or were they genuine?

I am a 24F living in Lebanon so my passport limits my options of travel and also my financial situation isn’t the best hence why i haven’t travelled yet. But i’ve always thought of traveling like most people when I am able to, especially with countries that don’t require a visa like Georgia or sri lanka for example. I like to travel to big cities if i had the opportunity to get a visa but i also see myself liking countries with wildlife or maybe visiting an island.
However I’ve experienced some kind of sadness whenever i think of any kind of traveling to another country. That kind of sadness that has some existential undertones to it. The world is so big, what does our life even matter. I’m scared that whenever i decide I’m ready and arrive to a destination I’ll feel this sadness even more.

I need a big change in my life but have no idea where to start, I’m not satisfied with my life not on the romantic, career wise, money wise, friends wise, or activities wise. Nothing in this life is pleasing me.

Anyone knows a guy who can get me a job or an internship as a food safety officer in a restaurant/ factory/ supermarket… ? also please don’t tell me to apply here or there i just want a quick wasta because I’m tired of being unemployed 😭

I think my (24F) ex-boss (36M) likes me. Need help reading the signs.

So I (24F) recently finished a work project as a freelancer and I can't stop thinking about whether my ex-boss (36M) was interested in me. I worked there from two months. Here are all the things I noticed:

\\- From day 3, he would choose to sit next to me even when there were other free seats. Even when I changed my seat, he'd find me and sit next to me.

\\- He would single me out and ask me specific questions like what I studied, if I liked working there, what i worked before, he would saying things like you’re quiet more than he did with anyone else.

\\- He'd sometimes talk to me in a very soft, gentle tone (almost like a baby voice) which felt very different from how he spoke to everyone else.

\\- Whenever I was talking to my friend and my voice got loud, he would immediately jump into MY side of the conversation and engage with me , but when my friend tried to talk to him, he'd kind of dismiss her and redirect back to me. This happened multiple times.

\\- Every time he came into the office, he'd say a general hi to everyone, but when he got close to me he'd specifically ask: "How are you? Did you take a break? Did you eat? Did you smoke?", the same caring questions every time, just for me.

\\- He noticed when I sat far away from the group during breaks and would call me over and check in on me. Happened multiple times.

Eventually he stopped coming into the office where the project is held because he had work elsewhere so

\\- I followed him on Instagram and he accepted after a few days i figured he doesn’t open instagram that much. He also sent me a request and after 1 hour he removed the request and sent it again ( which means he noticed i didn’t accept it yet and was trying to remind me to accept it)

\\- The last week of the project he hadn't been coming to our workplace for a long time. And i did what the other freelance employees did talk to him over WhatsApp privately about getting a full time job in the company in the future, he replied to everyone with the same response including me to send their CVs and that currently there is no opportunities but may be in the future. I wanted to take my chance and told him that i will send my CV after i tweak it a bit and then followed up by asking him when he'd be coming back to see us in the office, and mentioned that my last day was Thursday. He didn't reply to that message. But he showed up on Thursday, even though it had been a long time since he showed up, and when he saw me, he greeted me, asked how I was, and checked in like he usually did.

\\- I sent my CV via WhatsApp to him two days later. Two weeks later I got a formal email from the company's recruitment team saying they'd love to work with me in the future. My friend who also sent her CV through him via WhatsApp got no such email.

So... does he like me or am I reading too much into this? I'm thinking about reaching out to him personally but I'm scared. What would you do?

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TLDR: Ex-boss always singled me out, gave me attention, and may have personally pushed my CV through. Does he like me or is he just a nice guy?

So I (24F) recently finished a work project as a freelancer and I can't stop thinking about whether my ex-boss (36M) was interested in me. Here are all the things I noticed:

- From day 3, he would choose to sit next to me even when there were other free seats. Even when I changed my seat, he'd find me and sit next to me.

- He would single me out and ask me specific questions like what I studied, if I liked working there, what i worked before, he would saying things like you’re quiet more than he did with anyone else.

- He'd sometimes talk to me in a very soft, gentle tone (almost like a baby voice) which felt very different from how he spoke to everyone else.

- Whenever I was talking to my friend and my voice got loud, he would immediately jump into MY side of the conversation and engage with me , but when my friend tried to talk to him, he'd kind of dismiss her and redirect back to me. This happened multiple times.

- Every time he came into the office, he'd say a general hi to everyone, but when he got close to me he'd specifically ask: "How are you? Did you take a break? Did you eat? Did you smoke?", the same caring questions every time, just for me.

- He noticed when I sat far away from the group during breaks and would call me over and check in on me. Happened multiple times.

Eventually he stopped coming into the office where the project is held because he had work elsewhere so

- I followed him on Instagram and he accepted after a few days i figured he doesn’t open instagram that much. He also sent me a request and after 1 hour he removed the request and sent it again ( which means he noticed i didn’t accept it yet and was trying to remind me to accept it)

- The last week of the project he hadn't been coming to our workplace for a long time. And i did what the other freelance employees did talk to him over WhatsApp privately about getting a full time job in the company in the future, he replied to everyone with the same response including me to send their CVs and that currently there is no opportunities but may be in the future. I wanted to take my chance and told him that i will send my CV after i tweak it a bit and then followed up by asking him when he'd be coming back to see us in the office, and mentioned that my last day was Thursday. He didn't reply to that message. But he showed up on Thursday, even though it had been a long time since he showed up, and when he saw me, he greeted me, asked how I was, and checked in like he usually did.

- I sent my CV via WhatsApp to him two days later. Two weeks later I got a formal email from the company's recruitment team saying they'd love to work with me in the future. My friend who also sent her CV through him via WhatsApp got no such email.

So... does he like me or am I reading too much into this? I'm thinking about reaching out to him personally but I'm scared. What would you do?

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TLDR: Ex-boss always singled me out, gave me attention, and may have personally pushed my CV through. Does he like me or is he just a nice guy?

I started taking ritalin two months ago 3 pills of 10mg everyday, and now my Dr increased my dose to 4 pills and i take them in pairs so only two times a day. But I’ve been experiencing weird things happening where i get stuck for hours on a thought, for example seed oils and if they are safe or not and at first i was just doing research and stuff since I’m in food science but it turned into hours of being stuck in this loop where i think about seed oils and which ones to use over and over again to the point i can’t concentrate on something else like reading my book. Is this normal? Has this happened to you?
Also ive been experiencing something else where if i am focused on my screen all surroundings seem not there and i feel like im flying , i get that “high” feeling that i experienced in marijuana kinda.