u/irl_squishmallow

Sometimes I like to make random posts in different subs about mundane things like ice cream or what I made for dinner. I enjoy the upvotes and positive “normal” comments that I can interact with and use to pretend I’m also normal. It feels like some kind of validation and I end up ruminating on the comments for a couple of days. Does any else do anything similar?

I’m 28(f) yo alcoholic in a horrible 10 year long toxic relationship, I have no job, no car, no education. I rely on my mother soo much for a lot and I know she’s getting tired and isn’t really proud of me. I’m the youngest of 4 and the only one who has accomplished absolutely nothing with their life. My siblings are a nurse, an engineer, and a teacher. None of them struggled like I do. I also have a 6 year old son who was recently diagnosed with autism and adhd. He has been having very very difficult times at school and has some bad behavioral problems. I feel so helpless about it but I refuse to use physical punishment like my mom did to me because it fucked me up. I also have adhd, depression, (and possibly autism) and most days feel like too much to bear. I’m going to start school for welding in the fall but I’m already doubting myself and don’t believe I have the ability to actually make something of myself with it. I can never stick with anything long enough to reap the benefits. I just feel like a waste of space more often than I feel like anything else.

So I’m 28F and decided to go to school for welding starting in the fall. I’ve never worked or been involved with anything having to do with tools or construction of any kind. Lately, I’ve been watching videos on welding and it all seems so foreign and intimidating to me. Kinda feels like I’m in over my head before I even start. Especially factoring in that I’m a girl, I’m hoping that people don’t look down on me for not knowing anything. Is there an expectation in welding school that you come in with at least some amount of knowledge or am I good?