u/lankyfrenchfries

Welcome any questions about the industry or the processes or whatever about weed you wanna chat about.

Let me start by saying my current therapist is wonderful. The work we’re doing is important to me and I feel very supported and cared for. She is always available, flexible and respectful. As I am to her.

I see her twice a week at this point. Most of what we’re doing is parts work with EMDR for childhood sexual trauma.

To keep this short, when I have big things coming up in life or when I’m anxious, my t ALWAYS says “text me if you need anything this week!”

I’m returning to work Tuesday after a 6 month paternity leave. I’m not in a good spot. I saw her only Monday this week. She told me a few times at the end, text me if you need me this weekend!

We both know I crave reassurance from her. Therapy was the only place I got that for a while, so I really TRY not to lean on her any extra. Aka text outside of sessions. I’m trying to reassure myself.

Well I think I’m going to need her. The thing is… I want to reach out for comfort and reassurance, but I don’t know how…

As in, I won’t be asking a question or presenting new information…. Just “hey you said to text you if I needed you, I’m super anxious right now”

Like what else can I say or do? Should I not reach out? Sometimes she low key will say “you should have texted me” when I tell her I was considering it but didn’t

I don’t know. I think I’m in my head about work right now and can’t get separation.

M35 married and recently became a father of a 6ish month baby girl.

I’m tried to keep this short. I’d love to hear advice or other people’s experiences. For reference I’m currently doing parts work and EMDR for trauma and other things. Not really light therapy

I went to rehab around a couple of years ago and have been sober since.

One of the biggest things that came out of it was finally getting therapy and discovering the benefits of first hand.

That said. Had a really painful ending with my first therapist. Like bad.

With my current therapist… I’m realizing how much emotional safety and regulation I tie into therapy and her reassurance.

This is huge: I’m on paternity leave right now with a lot of unstructured time, not working, and way too much time in my own head.

Therapy has kind of become the center of my emotional world outside of my daughter lately.

For example. if a session gets cancelled for some reason, it genuinely affects my nervous system way more than I think it should.

I’m not confused about what therapy is, and I’m not trying to date my therapist or anything like that.

It’s more that I’ve realized I can get extremely emotionally attached to people who make me feel safe, seen, encouraged, and emotionally…
Good.

I feel ashamed of how much space it takes up in my head, but another part of me feels like it’s probably connected to deeper attachment stuff, sobriety bullshit , fear of abandonment, and suddenly having way less distraction and ostructure in my life.

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Has anyone else gone through this in therapy or recovery? Did it get healthier once your life got bigger again? Any advice comments whatever appreciated.

Let me start by saying I’m not a pc guy. My BIL gave me this gaming pc cheap a long while back. I’ve added some ram myself but that’s the extent of things I know…

Anyway, my wife was moving her workspace today and accidentally knocked over my pc and the glass panel broke.

I tried searching various things and only was seeing full cases or panels specific to not my pc.

Any help is appreciated.

Will post a pic in comments.