u/lem_x12

So next month is my freshman year and I realized that I'm growing up all my teachers told me back then that the teachers this year won't put up with my crap

And things are gonna be really different I'm already having a hard time with some subjects now what more for next month

And one of my best friends could be transferring to another country

And I'm not gonna be a kid anymore

And that things are changing and I can't do anything about it I remember saying when I was younger "I wanna grow up" I regret that now I deeply regret saying that

I just want things to stay how it is

I don't know what to do right now

How would I know what to do

Next month I really need some advice about freshmen year and my life in general

So by now everyone had heard of the hantavirus that's been spreading on a cruise ship right?

That reminds of the one Simpsons episode where Bart and the fam go on a cruise but since Bart doesn't wanna leave he takes a virus

Anyone else see a pattern?

Just pointing out the similarities

No matter how nice you are of a person there's always someone who has screwed you over more than once

That certain someone that gets your blood boiling like the sun who is that person and why will you never ever forgive them for what they have done to you and the people around you

her name is christina

So last night I had a horrible dream regarding the bad stuff that I've done and it made me realize I'm not the good guy in my story anymore

The memories keep coming back in loops of guilt and me

Wondering I haven't done something else back then

I know I've changed I really have and I'm entering a chapter in my life where Everything is gonna be new again

So if it's going to be new then I have too be as well

One of the best times of day for me is lunch time during school not because we get a short break and eat it's because during mu lunch time were allowed to go out and I'm always out with my friends goofing off in our little free time during the day out in the park or supermarket

So there's this homeless guy who loiters near the park by the school chill guy really nothing much to him

My friends give him a few cents every now and then and he does a little dance in his wheel chair as thanks

I remember one time it was just me none of my friends were there I put a coin in his cup and started telling me about his life..he was a retired racer I still don't know if thats true he told me to never go down the path he did..told me to stay in school

He also told me something I still think about..

If the truth is cruel

Then lies must be kind

Thats why kindness is a lie

I really wonder where he is now last time I saw him was

before summer break started makes me wonder how he's doing and what he's doing..

I also hate how people treat homeless people like lost dogs theyre humans with lived experiences probably some crazier and so much more in depth than we could ever fathom and people sit here and call them crackheads yes they may he addicts and homeless but theyre not the sum of their diseases the world is horrible. everyone's one step away from being on the street.

People like him make realize the world is always in a balance of the two..

His story also made me realize how fast 1 decision can ruin your life..

I really still think about what he said everyday..

Changes my whole outlook on life he also gave me a reason to keep going he said "stay in school kid I don't want you ending up like me" wether or not he was a real racer I'll never know if that story was true or not..but jit still struck something in me deep inside..