Seriously though, i get that it's a holiday weekend but damn so many kids, babies, and strollers it's basically Disneyland.
First time traveling alone here and i'm shocked by all the children, definitely when i'm walking the strip at 1AM.
Every single day
Life is just different for them
A whole other reality
I'm jealous of their success
I'm resentful of myself for being a 28 yesr old virgin
My looks aren't fuckable
My personality isn't fuckable
Absolutely nothing about me is fuckable
The amount of "men just want to use you for sex, find a loving partner" i've heard in real life and online is ridiculous.
Definitely when i tell them no man wants me.
I invited men to my apartment for sex, gets ghosted.
I try to go out on dates, gets ghosted.
I try subreddits, get denied for being black.
I try approaching in real life and get a declined.
Again and again and again.
Men aren't interested in me.
So as I age, at this point in my life, i'm slowly just contempt with the fact that i wouldn't care if a man uses my body solely for himself.
At least i'll be wanted.
No judgement please: what's the best porn to watch to prepare for first time sex or to learn sex moves?
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Again no judgment or "porn isn't real sex" stuff.
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What porn shows how to prepare for first time sex?
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What porn shows foreplay?
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What porn shows how to give a proper blowjob?
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How to ride a man correctly? Or to do reverse cowgirl?
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Stuff like that.
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And no books either, please.
Because that's what's normal and normalized.
The comments supported her and related to her.
Me? A 28 year old virgin could never be supported like that because being a virgin my age is not normal or normalized.
I really hate myself.
I don't belong to this world.
I'll never be normal.
I'm pushing 30
It just feels pathetic to be 28 and still a virgin
The embarrassment and shame that comes with it
'Losing one's virginity' should be when you are young, not when you're damn near middle age.
I just feel so old
Just pathetic
An embarrassment