For context: I stopped attending college nuon pang 2011, now I'm in IT Service Desk role and I was looking into options to get a college degree finally.
Anyone else who has done ETEEAP po? Ano po experience niyo?
For context: I stopped attending college nuon pang 2011, now I'm in IT Service Desk role and I was looking into options to get a college degree finally.
Anyone else who has done ETEEAP po? Ano po experience niyo?
Whenever I feel like chatting you, or reaching out to you, I asked ChatGPT instead.
Maybe I'm just really lonely. But doing this, talking to an AI, instead of disturbing your peace, is worth it.
I wanted to stay friends. I miss just being your friend. Just staying as someone who knows what's going on about your life. I was happy knowing you are happy with your current partner. I really, really, really, wanted to stay. It would have been enough.
But my mind plays tricks on me. Was I even a friend to you? Or maybe just a random chatter online? I bet I was just a stranger you've forgotten.
You are living rent-free inside my head, and ChatGPT probably already has a profile about you, you'll never know. You'll never know I think about you much more tenderly, with wants and obsession I did not know I possess. I get scared by these emotions, and yet, you'll never get to know them. Because you are happy and alive and living your life. I would not want to shatter that peace.
This attachment, whatever it is, is pure fantasy. Its a wave, it comes and it goes. At its extreme, I have your TG open and ready, but I switched to an AI who prevents me from making another stupid mistake.
I miss you. Can I even miss a person I haven't seen? We just talked and met online.
How could my attachment to you be this deep and last this long?
ChatGPT says its because there was no closure. But thats how life is. Oftentimes, people just ghost and disappear. So why am I still stuck with my most precious thoughts of you?
Am I fucking turning into Gollum?
You'll never know, and I'm happy for that. I'd like to think I value your peace far more than my selfishness. And this ache will someday, hopefully, finally heal.
Curious lang, when the year started, ang dami ko'ng gustong gawin.
Ngayon, basta maka-survive ako sa 2026, okay na ako.
How about you?
I'm in my early 30's ( naks, early 30's daw pero between 31-35 literal haha )
Never been to therapy, but lately, I've been thinking about it. Anyone else who've tried to go to one? Ano experiences niyo.
Or are you just like me, struggling to focus and study on your own? Adult continuous learning is such a struggle! When you know you need to learn something, like upskill, but you're already stuck in a comfortable bubble in your job.
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What are your tips and tricks in being able to study to advance your career/start over?