u/melank0lee

Recently I've been slightly attached to another anime character than my actual Oshi. I know it's not a bad thing.

I really want to be dedicated to my Oshi, having only him as a Oshi. Of course I have many others favorite characters but they aren't my Oshi or as important. Buuuut... Lately I've been a little obsessed over another character from a whole different anime.

I don't know how to feel because I know it's not bad but at the same time it feels like betraying :/ it feels like I don't love my actual Oshi enough

Hi, I use Twitter (X) since 2024~2025 I wasn't as active as I am now.

I wake up I need absolutely to check my account to see if I have any interaction ; comments, likes, rt
I want it to stop, because of Twitter I've been very anxious lately because I'm scared to not having any notifications from Twitter.

As soon as my account is being quiet without any recent post on my account or any notifications it's irritating, frustrating I feel ignored. And I immediately post something to at least get one like or anything else. Because of this kind of bad habits I'm very active even if I only have 2k post on my account, I tweet very often sometimes at every one hour.

I know that posting very much on Twitter is kind of normal and I know that many other account have more than 50k tweets. But in my case being this active and chronically online is just not good for me. I know to put a limit with Instagram TikTok Facebook etc but not with Twitter. I crave and I seek Twitter attention. Even if it's hate, i don't care i want something from Twitter.

But the weirdest thing is ; that I have to account and I have this problem ONLY with one account. On my main I account I literally post without excepting any like or comments, but with my second account their is this problem : wanting the absolute attention.

If it can help y'all : on my main account I have many likes very easily, I have the attention I'm looking for. But on my second account it's very messy I have many hit tweets but not on the tweets that I want to have an hit tweet. My second account makes me very bad sad and angry I sometimes think about deleting it but it's too hard. I disconnect everytime after posting something but it doesn't really work either.

I wanna know every single detail about you, every

I'm a voyeurism please feed me

Après un film, je copie souvent toute la personnalité du personnage qui m’a le plus marqué. Et ça arrive souvent, pas tout le temps mais assez pour que je le remarque. C’est immédiat et je ne sais pas quand ça commence ni quand ça se termine.

À cause de ce petit truc je ne sais plus qui je suis pendant de longues minutes voir des heures ou des jours. Je me souviens avoir adopté le même comportement et style vestimentaires d’un personnage d’une série, un personnage que j’aime énormément. Je ne sais pas vers où me tourner pour trouver une explication rationnelle à ça. Je ne suis pas diagnostiqué d’un tdah mais, beaucoup d’autre de mes comportements me font douter, seulement je n’ai pour l’instant pas assez d’argent pour une thérapie afin d’avoir un diagnostique. Il y a quelques années de ça, mon psychologue m’avait dit qu’il me soupçonnait juste d’avoir un tdah. Mais c’était évidemment pas son rôle de me fournir un diagnostique.

Mais en tout cas, ce que je viens de décrire. Me perturbe dans le sens où je ne comprends pas pourquoi. Y a-t-il des personnes comme moi ? J’ai conscience que je dois voir un professionnel ( pas que pour ce problème, j’ai beaucoup d’autre « anomalies » qui s’apparente à un tdah). Je le ferais dès que possible.