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Moin zusammen,

bin auf der Suche nach Empfehlungen für nikotinfreie Tabakalternativen, die man im besten Fall auch irgendwo "vor Ort" kaufen kann.

Im Internet liest man von Damiana, Königskerze, Himbeere...

Gibt's da keine "Fertigmischungen"?

Früher gabs mal was, was sich "Knaster" oder so ähnlich nannte, aber ich war jetzt in X Kiosken, keiner kannte das und sonst hatte auch niemand was ähnliches im Angebot.

Vapo hab ich zuhause und bin auch recht happy mit dem, aber ab und zu hab ich einfach bock auf Joint....und möchte als NIchtraucher dann dementsprechend kein Tabak nutzen....aber für "pur" bin ich zu geizig und kiff auch nicht genug, dass das für mich überhaupt Sinn machen würde.

Als ich noch Joints mit Tabak geraucht hab damals waren die bei mir auch nie dicker als'n etwas breiteres Stixi (minimal Tabak, holländisch gedreht)....gibt's evtl. blunts dafür`?

Bin dankbar für alle Hinweise und Empfehlungen.

/edit: ich krieg irgendwie immer Fehlermeldungen, wenn ich auf comments antworten will. Wo man bekommt man die Sachen, die hier empfohlen wurden?

Hi all,

Nothing directly mecfs related, but oh the joy of doctors just insisting on and claiming things they quite obviously have no knowledge about.

I've been using a urinal bag/ catherter for some time now.

Last week I was calling my urologist office to get a new prescription for new bags.

They always send the prescripton to some company that then delivers them via postal service/ DHL.

When I called the doctors office all staff apparently were so busy one of the doctors takes the call. When I then ask for a new prescription and stuff being delivered, he instantly goes like "nope, we don't do that."...

...I'm confused, since "we" have been doing it like that for 4 years by now.

He insists, that they never would send the prescription to that company and -wait for it- that I would have send the prescription to that company...does he actually think I just would have "forgotten" about this? Or what even is the point in keep telling me how I would have ordered the bags from them myself.

I try to explain to him that staff always is sending the prescription to the company that then delivers the bags via DHL ....

Nope, again, he insists that in fact it would have been me sending the prescription to them.

He then tells me to come get the prescription and get in touch with the company myself and basically hangs up. A couple days later the urinal bags arrived lol.

I don't get it. Why can't they just say "I don't know" or "not sure about this, let me check".

Why do they always need to claim things loudly and with so much "force" and "emphasis" when when it quite obviously is stuff they really not know what they are talking about and then already for stuff like this?

Like, jfc, as if I -as a patient- would be too stupid to remember where I did get my urinal bags from in the last 4 years.

had an appointment this morning. Returned home around 3 hrs ago, now lying on the couch freezing, with a hot water bottle, joints and muscles hurting like when you have a massive flu, brainfog, headache etc. I feel like I'm poisoned, drunk and have a hangover at the same time.

I just don't understand "PEM". Sometimes it takes 2 days, sometimes 1 day, sometimes it starts just hours after the activity.

Did put it on my wishlist because I wanted to browse the store some more and when I then wanted to actually buy it I saw the discount from that very edition I wishlisted was gone...every other edition still is on sale...and just to clarify, that edition I wishlisted was on sale before as well.

Anyone ever had that issue? I hope this aint working as intended?

hi all,

basically title.

Coming from CIV I instantly maxed out size of the universe to 600 planets, but now am wondering if that was a mistake.

Is there a recommended size for your own empire?

I feel like I just "grab" more and more planets in my playthroughs until I get bored basically due to being overwhelmed and then start over (also for other reasons and stuff I found out I wanna apply early on in a new playthrough).

/edit: I'm sorry if this is the wrong sub to ask but I have no idea where else to ask and am kind of out of ideas how to proceed in this situation... So if this is the wrong sub I'd really appreciate to be pointed into the right direction where to discuss this. Thank you.

hi all,

4 years ago I had a massive infection (did get a catheter in the ER and apparently a resistent germ along with it) and did get prescribed antibiotics for 6 months (including 5 packs of ciprofloxacin and 1 pack of levofloxacin)....and am having a variety of symptoms ever since.

The first time I went to a doc was around 5 months after the first symptoms had started because around that time the infection was gone, the catheter was out, I was no longer on antibiotics and I still was not starting to feel better. I was told to go see a psychiatrist within 2min, since my symptoms "would not make any sense" and "hence only can be psychosomatic".

Around 1 year in I consulted my health insurances teledoctor hotline, the doc I talked to listened to a good 30 min, asked questions and then told me in the end to get checked for mecfs and/ or side effects of the fluorquinolones.

Ever since I've been to countless docs of different fields and they all basically tell me the same: I'd be depressed, I'd be anxious, my symptoms would be psychosomatic. Every time I say I would not feel depressed or anxious basically are getting ignored or "shrugged off".

2 years after symptoms started I consulted a therapist that specialized in psychosomatic and she basically rules depression, anxiety and psychosomatic out, gave me a letter stating just that.

That letter is just getting as ignored as my attempts to say I would not feel depressed....docs still basically claim I would be depressed but by now the reason is mostly that I would have been unemployed for 4 years and that would not good for the psyche, so I just should get a job to feel better again or that I basically would be "bored" at home and hence develop symptoms...

How do I proceed from here and how should I get this situation cleared?

I would not even "mind" having a depression but I legit do not feel depressed or anxious....but whatever I have to say about this doesn't seem to matter at all.

What are my options?

hi all,

4 years ago I had a massive infection (did get a catheter in the ER and apparently a resistent germ along with it) and did get prescribed antibiotics for 6 months (including 5 packs of ciprofloxacin and 1 pack of levofloxacin).

To keep this post short: I do have a bunch of symptoms ever since....for 4 years by now.

The first time I went to a doc was around 5 months after the first symptoms had started because around that time the infection was gone, the catheter was out, I was no longer on antibiotics and I still was not starting to feel better.

Around 1 year in I consulted my health insurances teledoctor hotline, the doc I talked to listened to a good 30 min, asked questions and then told me in the end to get checked for mecfs and/ or side effects of the fluorquinolones.

Ever since I've been to countless docs of different fields and they all basically tell me the same: I'd be depressed, I'd be anxious, my symptoms would be psychosomatic.

Every time I say I would not feel depressed or anxious basically are getting ignored or "shrugged off".

2 years after symptoms started I consulted a therapist that specialized in psychosomatic and she basically rules depression, anxiety and psychosomatic out, gave me a letter stating just that.

That letter is just getting as ignored as my attempts to say I would not feel depressed....docs still basically claim I would be depressed but now the reason is mostly that I would have been unemployed for 4 years and that would not good for the psyche, so I just should get a job to feel better again or that I basically would be "bored" at home and hence develop symptoms...

How do I proceed from here and how should I get this situation cleared?

I would not even "mind" having a depression but I legit do not feel depressed (although the longer this nonesense goes on I can certainly say it starts to make me panic a little since I feel so utterly helpless and do not know how to handle the situation anymore).

What are my options? How do I handle such a situation?

hi all,

4 years ago I had a massive infection (did get a catheter in the ER and apparently a resistent germ along with it) and did get prescribed antibiotics for 6 months (including 5 packs of ciprofloxacin and 1 pack of levofloxacin).

To keep this post short: I do have a bunch of symptoms ever since....for 4 years by now.

The first time I went to a doc was around 5 months after the first symptoms had started because around that time the infection was gone, the catheter was out, I was no longer on antibiotics and I still was not starting to feel better.

Ever since I've been to countless docs of different fields and they all basically tell me the same: I'd be depressed, I'd be anxious, my symptoms would be psychosomatic.

Every time I say I would not feel depressed or anxious basically are getting ignored or "shrugged off".

2 years after symptoms started I consulted a therapist that specialized in psychosomatic and she basically rules depression, anxiety and psychosomatic out, gave me a letter stating just that.

That letter is just getting as ignored as my attempts to say I would not feel depressed....docs still basically claim I would be depressed but now the reason is mostly that I would have been unemployed for 4 years and that would not good for the psyche, so I just should get a job to feel better again or that I basically would be "bored" at home and hence develop symptoms...

How do I proceed from here and how should I get this situation cleared?

I would not even "mind" having a depression but I legit do not feel depressed (although the longer this nonesense goes on I can certainly say it starts to make me panic a little since I feel so utterly helpless and do not know how to handle the situation anymore).

What are my options?

/edit: deleted the details to make this a shorter post (was way too long before). Can provide more details if needed.

I'd love to have more energy and less good manners so I just could punch doctors in the face when they tell me my issues would be because of depression and/ or psychosomatic....and I say that as someone who always has been a harmony loving pacifist and a bit of a hippie, that never once in his life ever was in a fight.

The worst really is when they start using "reasons" that came AFTER the symptoms as proof the symptoms would be because of those reasons.

I've been homebound and unemployed for 4 years now BECAUSE of the symptoms and today had a doc tell me I'd basically have depression because I would be young still and the psyche would need to be occupied and the most important thing would be to "get a job" again....then I would feel better.

Yet again, the doc did not even ask about my mood or motivation or drive or interests or whatever docs should ask questions about before they tell you you would be "depressed".

I told him I consulted an actual psychotherapist that specialized in psychosomatic and she told me I would not be depressed or anxious and neither psychosomatic.

It just doesn't seem to matter...they still claim I'd be psychosmatic.

I give up.

The only doc in my city having specialized in mecfs only is accecpting self paying patients and I cannot afford that.

I just don't know what to do anymore.

Give us the PVE mode Overwatch promissed us.

Currently playing botmode only since I just enjoy not having 75% Ls in my lobby. Also no toxicity, no stress and just going berzerk while trying out weird loadouts or just new stuff.

Getting both vaults actually is mandatory to not make it a snoozefest and bots certainly would benefit from more "brainz" and maybe different difficulty settings.

I've been waiting for some fresh coop game that is not The Division or DRG for years already and I certainly did not expect The Finals to fill that slot for me.

Please Embark, build up on this. I beg you.

Hi all,

watched the old Enterprise show with Picard when I was a kid, really liked the new movies (well not so new anymore by now) and wanted to "dive deeper" into the new stuff.

Currently am having a Paramount sub and am watching Discovery...

My problem is: I cannot say I don't like it, but that show cannot hold my attention at all really.

I just finished the 2nd season and actually enjoyed the finale but the first eposide of S3 feels kind of "meh" again.

I also saw that here is a new "classic" Enterprise show (strange new worlds) on paramount along with the Starfleet academy show.

I'm kind of torn whether I should ditch Disovery and start with Strange New Worlds or should stick around with Discovery.

It's not that I would not enjoy the story etc, but it just doesn't give me the "star trek feeling" at all if you know what I mean.

Is it getting better in the later seasons? ...and what show would you personally rate "better" and why?

thanks in advance everyone.

Hi all,

my mother keeps parotting this ever since I told her that I -while getting the AuDHD diagnosis as an adult only- already had it as a kid.

...yet my mother keeps insisting I never would have had anything and how I would have been "perfectly normal".

It's exhausting. I don't know if this is her way to seek absolution before she dies (she's 80) to keep telling herself that she never made any mistake.

She did the same thing with my brother who died from an overdose shortly after his 50ths birthday and had been a drug addict ever since he was 12/13 years old...but according to my mother, he always was clean etc.

...and she keeps repeating that kind of stuff so often I think she starts believing it herself.

For me it is so hurtful though, because I'm a failed adult...and while I not want to blame everything on the AuDHD etc, I think all those diagnoses that never did get diagnosed did hurt me so much growing up, especially since back then, everything already was "my fault"....and I was so afraid of making mistakes that at some point I just stopped doing things.

The worst really is that she still is not accepting me for who I am. She still is talking about "all the potential" I would have had and sometimes she says stuff like how hard she has it because I am like I am and how other kids I went to school with now would have adult kids already, they would have houses and careers and she even is even lying others about my situation because she is so ashamed of who I am.

She also never accepted anything I ever said, always critizising me for my opinion or things I do to a point it doesn't even matter WHAT my opinion will be. I even could say "eating baby dolphins for breakfast is a bad thing" and she would find a way to critizise or breate me for it. Always.

I'm in my mid 40s and I just wish I could cut contact but I would feel so guilty when I would do it because I already have thoughts about not going to her funeral when she dies one day because I honestly don't fucking care anymore. At the same I feel guilty because I'm 100% sure she is not doing this on purpose but has some kind of mental health issue that she never bothered to address

At the same time I feel even more like a failed adult for not being able to cut contact and letting her make me feel the way I feel.

Like, I more and more feel like I never have lived even and just existed and in my current situation (been unemployed for a very long time, AuDHD, trans, chronically ill by now as well) I don't even know how to get better.

hi all,

I moved to the other side of the country around 25 years ago and that women is still hauntin me...

Every time we talk, she starts some argument mostly by making some wild claims...it's especially frustrating when it's about health related topics... when I then try to explain stuff to her she just keeps making claims while not having ANY health/ medical related background and never even bothering to educate herself about that stuff.

It's just so exhausting....

I'm on the edge of cutting contact completely. I cannot handle her anymore. I just can't.

I just did hung up on her within 2 minutes after calling her.

I cannot handle this bullshit anymore.

Hi all,

i just need to vent a bit.

On Friday I had a friend and her partner over, was busy cleaning my apartment fully before they arrived to be a good host.

They stayed like 2-3 hours and I enjoyed the company a lot. I'm autistic and am not good with people, she is the only friend I have really, but she lives like 200km away by now so we don't see often anymore.

I crashed on Sunday. Hard. It was too much.

Today I had to get the city center because I had an appointmet with my urologist to get the suprapubic catheter changed (is getting done every 6 weeks).

On my way back I pissed myself multiple times, but thankfully was wearing some kind of pad this time around (the last time I had visible pee marks all over my pants, it was so embarassing) and due to the urethra being "closed" not much will come anyways, but then the cramping starts getting worse because my bladder got fuck all idea what the problem is and keeps "pushing" more and more. That alone always is so exhausting already.

Sometimes I think my head is gonna explode from the pressure that is building up. It's so awful.

So I was sitting there in the bus, my head on fire and red like a tomato, sweating like crazy, while at the same time freezing and ice cold feet and hands. I barely made it home, crashed on the couch instantly. Even my dog was concerned. Now I'm lying here with a hot water bottle, massive brainfog, freezing, my joints hurt so bad.

I wish I just could go to my doc and get some meds to feel better, but all they ever say is "depression" and "psychosomatic".

I hate this so much I just want to cry.

hi all,

Granted, I'm still new to all this, so maybe people have knowledge I don't have but I always find it super weird when people then make weird claims about what is causing what and then wanting to offer things so you can "heal yourself".

I had it a couple times already that people started telling me the problems would have soemthing to do wiht fungal infection or something with the microbiome or mcas or whatever and it always feels like they are about to try to sell me something.

Then all those "there is a doctor/ person that had mecs and they healed themselves with coconut oil (or something like that)".

When I learned about mecfs I checked if there is a local support group and there in fact is, on their website they say stuff like you should not wash your cloth with washing powder when going to one of their meetings and should turn off mobile phones to ...and apparently they are looking for a new room for their meetings that is free of electro smog....and generally they seem to claim mecfs would be caused by environmental causes?

Like, not that I would not be thankful for actual advice, but I just get very weird vibes from such people...like, it kind of feels like the gaslighting I get from docs, just in the completely different direction.

hi all,

basically: title.

Think about it.

Would the lower ranks/ casuals complain about melee if the melee players they had to play against would belong to their own skill range? Imho, most likely not.

Melee IS harder to play, you need more gamesense, awareness, map and equipment knowledge etc.

The problem with melee is not melee itself, it is that the vast majority of the players, the casual, semi casual and/ or low ranked players constantly have to deal with smurfs and/ or bad matchmaking WAY too often....

...and those people most likely play melee on smurf accounts because in their own skill range people actually know how to properly defend against them. Personally, while I think that melee NEEDS a buff to be mroe viable in the higher skill ranges, I don't expect people to stop smurfing but making melee even more of a pain and frustrating to play against in the lower ranks.

So when you are a casual/ lower ranked player, you most likely constantly have someone in your face that also easily would dominate you with guns most likely, but getting dominated with melee just adds insult to injury.

I only can speak for myself, but whenever I get killed by melee in bronze, it hardly ever is an account that would be higher than lvl 50, it always are those low level accounts with hardly any cosmetics but most likely some "funny" edgy nickname and a lot of ego to get toxic towards their teammates because they not play up to their standards.

For the lower ranked/ casual players there also is hardly any learning potential to get better in those situations either. They just are canonfodder for smurfs to enjoy themselves.

All they experience is getting completely destroyed by an actually weaker weapon type and then have to sit 30-60 seconds and watch killcams and their teammates play, wait for the revive or teamwipe.

OF COURSE people are frustrated with that and not find it fun.

TL;DR: I dunno, I feel like IF smurfs would cease to exist now, in e.g. bronze there only would be bronze players and we overall would have better/ more balanced matchmaking we most likely would not even have so many complaints about melee being so unfun to play against in the first place.

Hi all,

I think I read about that the other day, but haven't seen it mentioned since so I wonder if this was confirmed info or just a rumor.

If this is true, have they given any concrete info how that gonna work since there is tons of things you can do in this game that are not really "counted" at all but could be worth 10 times more than the stuff that actually is counted.

For example healing beam vs demat...I potentially could be glued to a teammate with the beam and jsut "spam" heals (as far as possible in this game) despite knowing he gonna die anyways. I then get "good performance" for the healing, but in the end I did not actually really change the course/ direction of the ongoing match...at the same time I could make it possible for a teammate to stealth steal the cashout with demat, teammate then gets the performance points for the steal and I will get ...nothing...the same way I already am not getting any points for it.

Also, if this comes I'm kind of scared people gonna stat pad rather than play for the team....

hi all,

basically title. I play cashout only and I rarely ever see someone with 10 or more kills per round...

It's not like there is plenty teamfights and there also is 2 teammates you "compete" with to get kills.

...and getting 10+ kills over the full tournament doesn't seem to count.

Is there a gamemode that is better suited to get this done?

TLDR: just would love to hear from you how long it takes for PEM to start and end again from people that have more experience with this.

hi all,

not diagnosed and I'm just trying to figure stuff out since docs so far have not been really helpful.

That being said: basically title.

Just had it happen again today, had to get to the city center by bus, was feeling fairly well when I left home around 9 am, went to the doc to give them some paperwork and went home again, where I arrived around 11. Temperature wasn't even that high anymore (20-23°C outside) but I've been sweating like a pig whole time despite mostly just sitting in the bus, wating room etc.

At around noon the (potential) "PEM" starts, I feel like poisoned, like having the flu and having a massive hangover at the same time, my joints and muscles hurt, massive brainfog, I'm freezing, my feet are ice cold, I cannot focus my eyes on anything, just having them open kind of hurts my brain...

I've been lying on the couch for a bit over 3hrs, too exhausted to stay away, but not able to fall asleep either. I expect this to go on for around 3-4hrs and then be over again.

Still having my hot water bottle next to me due to feeling cold (25°C room temperature here still due to the heatwave last week, mind you) and in pain, but brainfog at least is getting a little better already already.

I jsut don't know how to make sense of those symptoms.

Sometimes the "crash" happens the day after but other times it feels like IF I crash, it will start within a couple hours after the activity. Sometimes it lasts for a couple days, other times like today (hopefully) it will be over after 6-8 hours again.

Docs so far basically tell me "psychosomatic" because of depression, but I don't feel depressed at all.

Also: I just feel that getting depression after being active doesn't make much sense to me, especially when I get those crashes also from activities I very much enjoy doing.

This kind of "nonsense" has been going on for 4+ years by now, starting after I had a naughty bladder infection with a resistent germ and having gotten fluorchinolon antibiotics.

Would love to hear some experiences from you guys what PEM feels like (maybe it's not PEM what I experience but something else), how long it takes to start after the activity and how long it takes for it to end again.