u/pastadudde

Most days I just ignore it, i push it aside, keeping my mind busy with other things and activities.

But sometimes bouts of self loathing and self hatred come and go especially when I just had a bad wave of itching and scratching. It just makes me feel like I’m useless for having no self control or sense of self preservation.

I don’t know how much of this has effect, but I suppose being a closeted gay man doesn’t necessarily help, I feel like the thoughts sometimes overlap.