u/pinkpolkadotunicorn

I was watching a podcast where they mention this app where you pretty much larp buying doordash delivery. Has anyone heard of this or tried it and has it helped? I just downloaded it and fake ordered pizza and tiramisu😭 I have the worst habit of bp doordash so I’m really hoping this helps. I deleted DoorDash like 3x this week just to redownload it lmfao

I’m 18 and have only ever used a tampon once, I hated it so bad and I took it out an hour after (that was 4 years ago). Pads are genuinely hell for me and is the only complaint I have about my periods. My friends suggested me a diva cup but I’m not sure how much different/better it would be compared to a tampon. Please give me ur opinion and what you recommend, I’m preparing for my next period which unfortunately will probably land while I’m in Greece 🖕🥲

I was laying down curled up into a ball on my couch and decided to stand up after 20 mins, and when I did i could barely see anything for a good 20 secs. I was getting up to eat something but when I got that feeling i remembered how good it felt and decided to go to my room instead of eating, now I’m sitting here typing this. I remember always getting this feeling when I was developing ana and was one of the biggest things that would motivate me to keep starving. I just recently started recovering from mia and am on a glp1. It just feels like I was always be stuck with one disorder or another :/

I know it’s wrong but I just want to get back to the point where I pass out again. It feels weirdly euphoric and peaceful whenever I’m dizzy/out of it

The only thing that’s ever on my mind is how bloated my face is and how I can stuff my face. When I’m at work im thinking about my 10 min break and how I can use it to sneak snacks from the back, then after my break I’m thinking about what from my job I’m going to binge on my way home (I work at a bakery). When I’m with my friends I think about the sneaky ways I can binge and what excuse I can use to purge in the bathroom. My face feels like a bullfrog and is a constant reminder of how addicted i am to mia. It’s so fucking uncomfortable to touch my OWN face

Today I started my glp1 again which has tremendously helped me so far. Last time i was on it i was able to stay clean for a while till i kept getting too lazy to inject it so i stopped and relapsed. Today I went to my friends house and was able to not binge even though she has allll my trigger food. Literally have been craving raw cookie dough for the past week and she had it but I was able to resist!!! I just hope I can keep it up

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OK, so there’s this guy who’s kind of obsessed with me and a bit ago I vented to him about my bulimia and he now keeps offering to pay me to watch vids of me throwing up and send me money for food and stuff. I don’t understand what the appeal of this is to people like that. It’s so disturbing. I also remember this one movie, very disturbing and weird, but I watched it when I was drunk and somehow made it through the whole movie. There was absolutely no plot to it other than just some guy making girls throw up. When I sobered up I was like tf was that movie so I researched it and the creator had a bulimia fetish. Ik there’s lots of weird fetishes but the psychology of those kinda make sense, with this I’m just like wat

Edit: the reason I thought of this is because I’m trying to recover right now but this guy is offering me a lot of money so it’s very tempting, especially because of how much I’ve wasted on food recently :/ I feel so stuck rn

Hiii. I really want to start a recovery account on TikTok to help me cope/motivate me with recovery and maybe also help others recover (mia). I’m making it private so I can be careful with who sees it, but if anyone would be interested in following it plz dm me! I think it could be fun and interesting maybe. I do post rants and recovery vids on an account I have with irl close friends, but it seems a little weird because none of them have Mia so it’s just me venting about shit they don’t understand lolll.

Hiii. I really want to start a recovery account on TikTok to help me cope/motivate me with recovery and maybe also help others recover. I’m making it private so I can be careful with who sees it, but if anyone would be interested in following it plz dm me! I think it could be fun and interesting maybe. I do post rants and recovery vids on an account I have with irl close friends, but it seems a little weird because none of them have Mia so it’s just me venting about shit they don’t understand lolll.