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My fam, they understand my lifelong struggles w food. Typically they ignore it, thankfully. But I know they'll make a big deal out of dinner & snacks.

Truth is, i don't want to miss out spending quality time

But i IF, 2MAD, and finish eating window around 11 or 1 on a crazy day.

I haven't taken after pics, but factually i feel better, more even keeled. I like how i look in most photos- not thin, just healthy & trim tummy etc.

I don't want to make it weird, but don't want to blow this winning streak either!

Frankly i don't like late nights either. i like early. Should i just be brave & be myself? Some of them are early like me- they catch early surf etc

I didn't tell the courts it was a cult. I simply kept records- calendars, screen shots, emails.

The cult had a religious center plus took over a private school.

Thankfully i kept records instead of just crying to the authorities.

This broke up the cult, but they moved into a remote country

-formula fed baby (sugar)

-candy crazed kid

-boozer teen & adult

-binge eating disordered young adult (sugar by the silo)

-smoker (added sugars doncha know 🌸)

-ex smoker but fitness fanatic (sugared power drinks, power bars etc)

I got a book on amazon on how to get real with temp sugar withdrawals & how to stay positive ODAAT (one day at a time 🌸)

not every little workbook works for everyone, but i needed to get realistic. I relied on sugar my entire life. I even incorporated it in binge eating recovery! Problem is i mostly just wanted sugar for fuel, and had to force dense nutrition. My palate was sugar sugar sugar--today i seriously feel sugar has the allure of plastic mixed w a sickeningly sweet oil.

If i can feel this way....AMA!!

THEN put you on 1099 (from employee) and asked you do the same 2hrs, same tasks?

The studio i just quit is a bit casual, I guess?

Still, the drama is the couple who own the shala go on vacation a lot.

a few mos ago they told us we were all bad employees and put us on 1099. Then they hired actual desk staff for what were were "bad" at- computer intake, cleaning etc. Yes mistakes were made, but they told me they needed to save money and wanted a desk staff anyway.

the ppl they hired were 1/2 volunteers & some dad bud of the owner who just started going on vacay, then quit.

I got a promo at my day job around when we became 1099 and had to get to my 9-5 on time vs waiting till students left after class & doing laundry. I made it to my job on time for the few mos we had that dad bud on staff to do intake & ck clients in & out.

THEN the owners told us we had to plan to go back to covering desk/cleaning cuz their friend was moving to the mainland, thus we never knew when we had to arrive early/stay later than class. The desk volunteers were unpredictable, even tho they got class for free

I told the couple (owners) i can't stay late randomly or ever- i needed to stick to the "arrive &leave" as per the 1099 agreement (we signed it too). My job needed me & i committed.

So i was not "renewed" for my contract because i can't cover the old employee tasks for later hours.

What happened? I'm casual too, but was this right of them to let me go because i can't cover the desk and cleaning staff (who dissappeared)

*before you ask if i'm AI, i'm not. YES i asked this before because I feel helpless. I loved that casual place but it got weird and trying to understand if it was ME who is "inflexible"

Now i want to add white halo highlights, crown & money piece to silver/white.

Issue is to tone the bozo red to a light ash brown. I will continue white highlights until past shoulder grow out.

how do i keep the highlights white whilst toning out the bozo?

Any tips?

The 1st 10 ten days of sugar detox, i wasn't "fighting" either. I succumbed to the vulnerable feeling of pain & longing. I followed a workbook that warned detox would be hard, so i just rode it out.

Now that my palate literally transformed, i'm actually relaxed & casual about food/eating. I meal prep so i don't have to face low to no options at my workplace cafeteria or surrounding food courts.

Truly the only time i feel stress around eating is when ppl are critical and pushing food options. One person just told me i was "afraid of calories". Yikes. I've had to weed out some associates because of their issues to get triggered.

I genuinely get bullied on random occasions. However, even this is now something i getting bored of and i just shake my head & move on

So i'm actually more chilled out despite what many view as a hard path in life or whatever

Do you get rando reactions re SF?

This buddy from college days asked to visit for a few days.

During the visit i got to see how far i've come re moderate consumerism.

He admitted to having to move in w his GF - she wanted to help him whilst he pays off his debt.

STILL he

-went to a bar every day- i didn't know this, but a glass of wine is $20 dollars+

-bought a new shirt for $200

-ate out every meal 3meals/day, i don't know the cost, can only imagine

I am on call for my studio musician job, so i didn't join him for meals, i couldn't.

The difference between us is

-I meal prep. No drama

-IF, intermittent fast, so i only eat 2meals/day that i prep at home

-I detox'd from sugar/junk food so i'm not "ravenous" between meals. I don't "need" to buy on the fly due to raging hunger. My nutrition is solid & satisfying

-no booze. I joined him at a restaurant after a gig and. i got a fancy fizzy water at night. Treat for me for about 3bux. HE mentioned a fav cocktail at this swanky place and i offered to get it for him. He was just hangry and I wanted him to feel better.

The thing I bought him was a frozen wine that cost about 20dollars. Maybe 6oz if that, mostly ice.

My entertainment is dawn jog on the beach which he joined me for. He could barely jog because he said his digestion was off. He needed to eat sugar packages to keep up- kind of fancy runner's snacks that cost 10 bux each.

I just don't spend like that- i'm health focused, i have a job i love, and my mortgage is paid off due to this "frugal" lifestyle. I forgot how i used to normalise that life (before i owned a home)

Do you have buddies from the past who are stuck in debt/spend cycle?

we get pd less than min wage. HEre on the Island it's even low comp w resort yoga. This is a privately owned studio by a couple who live here & on the mainland.

anyway, we were all employees, then the owner said we all sucked at the cleaning/computer ck in/ chores. So we were all made 1099 & then were taken off all other duties except teaching.

Then new desk staff got flakey & they got volunteers for a 2hr commitment. That fell thru fast. MOst of these just called out sick or whatever. Sometimes around, sometimes not. I never knew when i'd have to be there longer for computer/chores.

So then we were told (yes told) to support the owners healing excursion (they left the island) and to start working the desk again & doing chores. I have another job, as do many of us, and we asked that we have for that promised desk coverage to leave on time.

Anyway, i was taken off all my future class commitments because I had another teacher swap w me ( i cover HER desk duties so she can leave to her job & vice versa). the swap was seen as me "not supporting my students". ( I left after class and i had my yoga buddy close up)

My friend who quit thinks it's a cult because they ask us for "support the community" w such low wages.

Is it a cult? I keep asking, esp now that i'm basically fired for swapping.

*the couple have a ton of celeb clients & we get their dregs. Like privates that pay huge but are not reliable. So they 'refer' us out to island events. They're a poplular couple. Ppl have no idea how us regulars run the studio for pennies to the dollar. I'm afraid to leave as i'll be labeled badly by them :(

yes i have one low glycemic fruit per day (one serving, not a silo full ) but i eat it w a protein vs daily as unbridled snack.

I quit sugar cold turkey & at the same time followed dense nutritional meals w zero snacking.

I needed to reset my cravings away from jolting and towards calm rational nutrition.

I got a workbook/guidebook/journal & followed it to a T.

Do you binge? I did. I had to get real & get focused on Life vs food noise - i feel free today🥰

for confidentiality i won't name the island or studio- but i know things get casual around here!

Instructors always worked the desk- opening studio, laundry, computer intake. Waiting till clients left, closing & cleaning. Often a 2hr commitment for less than min wage.

We had a meeting & mgmnt said we were all doing such a sub par job that desk staff was hired like a Real Big Kid studio.

Instructors were made 1099 and not employees anymore. Job description chaged to arrive 20m early to greet & teach. That's it. BTW we signed contractor agreements stating exact new job description

So the ONE desk person hired started going on vacay & announcing he wouldn't be on the desk at rando times. Mgmnt didn't fill in. We were just expected to cover.

Then the studio hired volunteers for 2hr classtime shifts for everything other than teaching of course.
THEN that one desk person first gave notice to vacate job, and THEN got violently sick, broke both legs etc.

ISSUE IS. When one of us 1099 instructors say we can't work a shift without a desk person (we all went out and got office jobs etc due to low pay of course)- when we say we can't stay after our class we are told we are not supporting the Dream of the studio.

We are now dressed down on the regular for low community love.

Ya. Island time. It gets casual around here. So pay is less, but now treated really badly if we don't stay the full hrs.

neither mgmnt nor owners are willing to cover the desk. volunteers are unpredictable. One of them just up & left to go surfing after 15m

Is this normal? I love my studio, and i'd miss the island time clientele, but this feels exploitative. Am i right??

I have a friend group with one adjacent who is naturally tall & skinny. Prolly sez it all, as typically this type typically fits body standards in modernity. He's never had to watch his food intake. Ever.

So let's call him TS & can't believe i don't east sugar. He kept asking why every different way, like "veggies have sugar, don't u eat those" . Etc.

Finally he asked if i eat dates, and i said, no too much sugar for me.

So he brought them to our meetup and gave them to me, asking if i'd try one. HE rolled them in cacao powder and said, "you can eat these, no sugar".

I've been SF for awhile, and this for me isn't tempting...I just don't care. But when i refused, he announced to our friend group, "this isn't a sugar issue, this guy just has calorie phobia".

I think it was some, "thing"? for him? I'm confused.

I literally ignored it and moved on. But yesterday, he was at my house and i offered around zero calorie fizzy drinks. He went ON & ON about the garbage in those and why don't i just eat sugar etc.

Last fIng straw. Fired. I'll never see that scareActer again. Don't come for my fizzy drink.

Of course it failed....prolly no ad revenue 😆. I can't find a footprint online. Just an invisible movement?

But i LOVED this fashion aesthetic. As a young cutie, i could jump into a dumpster & pop out w enviable gear. VINTAGE y'all!

My boomer mom turned me on to army surplus. My how i loved vintage actual wool sailor pants & peacoats...bonding time i treasure 💖

I still love bucking the trend & wearing somesuch nonsense. Today i'm wearing rocker messed up Joan Jett black jeans w authentic wear/tear paint splashes. And it's SUNDAY in Canada🤣

YES they're skinny jeans from thrift, and NO they're not "on trend". and YES i'm old AF & might look on the edge of "unhoused" w slightly crooked bod.

STILL

I raised "thrift teens" who took me to a garment garbage dump, headed for that foul floating island of trash in our ocean.

We took a giant bag home, threw in machine, cleaned & fixed. All of us got sick AF 'fits (their cool phrase) plus i sold some pretty French sweaters online.

I love f'ing the fashion system & will till i die! Does anyone remember the thread of this sacred not-trend?

Of course it failed....prolly no ad revenue 😆. I can't find a footprint online. Just an invisible movement?

But i LOVED this fashion aesthetic. As a young cutie, i could jump into a dumpster & pop out w enviable gear. VINTAGE y'all!

My boomer mom turned me on to army surplus. My how i loved vintage actual wool sailor pants & peacoats...bonding time i treasure 💖

I still love bucking the trend & wearing somesuch nonsense. Today i'm wearing rocker messed up Joan Jett black jeans w authentic wear/tear paint splashes. And it's SUNDAY in Canada🤣

YES they're skinny jeans from thrift, and NO they're not "on trend". and YES i'm old AF & might look on the edge of "unhoused" w slightly crooked bod.

STILL

I raised "thrift teens" who took me to a garment garbage dump, headed for that foul floating island of trash in our ocean.

We took a giant bag home, threw in machine, cleaned & fixed. All of us got sick AF 'fits (their cool phrase) plus i sold some pretty French sweaters online.

I love f'ing the fashion system & will till i die! Does anyone remember the thread of this sacred not-trend?

-core power in the states starts teachers at 15 dollars a class. Re read. REad again.

-i started at 90 dollars per class in the 90s. core power starts at 15 dollars per class IN 2026. The price of eggs in the 90s about a buck fifty--NOw average about 4dollars+. Re read. Read again

Teacher trainings are more exspensive

Music platforms are no longer free. Try 15bux/mo for spotify

Don't get me started on how expensive it is to live NEAR a yoga studio population. (rent, driving to several studios for work, driving back to core actual paying job, food, therapy)

ENOUGH FREE LABOR FOR A BILLION DOLLAR INDUSTRY.

PLEASE WEIGH IN.

Was your teacher training free? Free 200hr? BILLION DOLLAR INDUSTRY because we now fuel it, for FREE

First post called me "mentally unstable". Read how crappy ppl treat you when you ask for dignity.

*edit

All i'm getting are hardcore troll responses. I'm gonna leave this up for a few days and see if actual teachers who want actual dignity will bother to respond.

Question, is it rich w period piece escapism? 🤣. Yes i can watch info docs etc, but after finishing a degree

i need to go back in time etc

I've only found one regency era period piece, and mostly subtitled films. I used to watch nothing but subtitled beauties, but i have to move around house so reading isn't it right now

I thought i'd find the best period pieces.

Does anyone have Kanopy and can you recommend some gems? if any??

Us instructors used to earn a certain amount, then put on 1099s all of a sudden.

Owners got a desk staff for the 1st time ever. Kind of a good thing, but we were told the reason is we didn't clean the studio or check people in with enough care, too many mistakes.

so okay, less pay, but less time/chores at studio, we come and go as instructors vs checking ppl in and opening/closing/chores.

The desk staff ended up being one pd person, and a bunch of "trades" meaning ppl who did 2hr shifts and got discount class passes.

One day desk person started "going on vacation" and didn't do shifts. Just a no show, and we all had to do all the intake& chores again. Then the "trade" ppl would only show up randomly.

I have other commitments since we got desk staff. I plan to come and go as if we have that desk staff. Read: i have other paying jobs to compensate for how little i earn as a teacher

Management (a couple) take vacations and get more yoga certs, like island type yoga certs.

We have desk "trade" ppl only randomly, instructors never know if we're supposed to cover their job, hence stay longer at the studio before and after class

We got a group email saying it's time to just support mgmnt who are getting training and we need to do laundry, work the desk and clean to "support mgmnt". It said our community needs us to be supportive.

I get a dressing down all the time that I need to just stay longer if desk support is busy. I'm supposed to "support the community".

Is this a cult?? I'm not giving "free labor' for the cause. WTH

but a buddy led a "quit sugar Spring Fling" at our company. Mostly guys so not much drama around body dysmorphia or diet culture.

The issue w most was "are we eating enough calories". It didn't promo any way of eating- simply like a DRy january, but a SF April.

One Coworker said he does marathons every year, tho he's not a runner per se. He said he'd never give up sugar because he just eats a ton of sugar on these events.

He shared how w/out sugar he'd not be an athlete & how ppl tease him that he eats like a diabetic but he kept telling everyone how processed sugar is important if your active.

He didn't join the SF program, wasn't mandatory at all. In fact ppl had to pay to be in it, so more like a side event for optional team bonding.

ANYWAY

Last week this runner guy had a stroke. He is only 35 and sure, super active.

YES there are innumerable variables- genetic etc.

But the biggest sugar defender in our cohort group. Stroke at 35

CAn hyper sugar consumption lead to strokes in younger active ppl?

Don't take this the wrong way, i'm just exploring.

I got a workbook intended for sugar free lifestyle. HEck i only wanted to do a month, but followed it anyway. ODAAT i told myself! Book suggested i prepare for detox and to expect pain.

I wrote 100 things i procrastinated on. (dust/finish degree) from big to small. I got the good food i like to have it on hand. I laid on the couch in a state of depression and cotton mouth. Only got off that couch to do one manageable thing on the list, get to work, tend fam, then back on the suffer couch.

i posted on here eryday asking for help.

i had cotton mouth after 3 days & felt like i had gotten over the flu. I felt awkward like a newborn baby giraffe. 🤣

I took it ODAAT, then up to a week, month, year...it started HAAAARD but got easier.

Like breaking up w an arseHat who embarrassed in public & unpredictable at home.

New me, palate changed i swear. Actual nutrient dense food is Perfection vs obsession

Free i tell ya🤣

It dawned on me why ppl are afraid of "diet culture" or "food restriction", and connect it w quitting sugar.

I used to be a binge eater, and it was Hell. Debilitating at times.

Finally i made a choice just to stop the diet/fall off wagon/binge/purge/diet again cycle. I made all food neutral, no "good vs bad" food.

It did stop those insane post hunger binges, thankfully.

However, sugar is a sneaky inclusion, and I ended up w a pref for sugary food. Salads were covered in sugary "dressing" for example. I had to force down whole actual foods.

I became pre-diabetic.

After i did the "quit sugar challenge" for a month, i really did get a palate change.

Shockingly, i didn't miss sugar and started to crave vs force all that quality nutrition.

I get why ppl are scart of going "no sugar" as they feel it will preclude a binge or loss of nutrition due to restriction.

I'm not restricting dense nutrition, and i don't need "spikes" for work outs. I just work out. Sure i have coffee in the am tho, but i don't need "a hit" like when i ate sugar.

Does this ring a bell for anyone afraid to quit sugar, cuz it sounds like scary diet culture?