u/pow_nate

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Well, I'm 14 years old, and I've been in therapy for two years because of depression and anxiety. I take the antipsychotic medication Risperidone and the antidepressant Fluoxetine. Last year, I underwent a neuropsychological assessment for ASD, but I left without a diagnosis because, according to the professionals who evaluated me, I was a "normal" child. However, I can't think of any other explanation for my difficulties.

I have sensory issues. When I was a child, I would take several minutes just to put on my socks because I needed to adjust them until they felt comfortable. I would usually go barefoot because I didn't like the feeling of wearing socks, and I avoided tight pants because they felt uncomfortable. Nowadays, I've experienced several meltdowns due to sensory overload, and I use noise-reduction earmuffs to help me cope.

I've also had stims since I was little, such as rubbing my feet together and rocking back and forth. I struggle with cognitive rigidity, literal thinking, and an extremely strong sense of justice. My friends used to call me stupid because I didn't understand sarcasm and was slow to catch on, which hurt me a lot.

I'd also like to mention that my friends who have been diagnosed with autism say that they think I'm autistic too, and they relate to the difficulties I experience.

I also sometimes experience shutdowns due to sensory overload, which leave me unable to speak. I've experienced periods of intense, focused interest as well — my therapist was actually the one who introduced me to the term hyperfocus.

Anyway, that's my experience. My therapist keeps saying that I have autistic traits, but never enough to qualify for a diagnosis. She says I'm neurotypical, but I find it hard to believe that a neurotypical person would experience meltdowns because of noise.

My psychiatrist thinks I might have borderline personality disorder (BPD), but says I'm too young to receive a formal diagnosis. However, as far as I know, people with BPD don't typically experience sensory issues or cognitive rigidity, so I'm really confused.

I need accommodations and a different approach to help me manage my difficulties, but without a formal diagnosis, I can't access the support I need.

(I just ask that he doesn’t die in the end.)

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I feel like sometimes being mentally little affects my daily life and my relationships with the people around me. I don’t know if I’d be able to work in something demanding, and I feel like it’s more than just part of my identity—it’s psychological. Do you feel this way too?

Could someone in this fandom write an age regression (agere?) fic about Neil? I really, really want to read a fic about Neil in little space.

Oh, and could someone write a light short fic about Neil with selective mutism? In this fic, he would use an AAC, and I’d absolutely love to see Neil cursing Aaron out through his AAC LOL.

She says it's not good for me to regress and that I should stop, so I wanted to know what your doctors or therapists think about it.

His special interest in Exy alone already says a lot, but I also feel like Kevin has a strong sense of cognitive rigidity, which is a pretty common trait associated with ASD.

From what I've read, I realized that Neil not only had never experienced sexual attraction, but he also had never experienced romantic attraction. In his own words, he wasn't interested in relationships, and he only feels those things for Andrew.

As someone who's under the aroace umbrella, I really related to that. That's why I genuinely believe Neil might be demiromantic as well.

My regression doesn't feel comforting anymore. Sometimes it actually feels uncomfortable when someone tries to get me into little space. Earlier today, at the end of class, I started regressing and it was honestly scary. I felt like a lost kid in a shopping mall.

I think part of it is because my little age is often under 5, and I don't have a caregiver outside of my phone, so I end up feeling really lost and overwhelmed.

On the other hand, when my age shifted to around 7–8, I felt a lot calmer, so it wasn't completely bad.

Does anyone else get scared during regression?

(I want to say that I no longer agree with the text above, but I am still studying about it.) Sou regressor e só regrido ocasionalmente.

Já que minha regressão é completamente involuntária e ligada à dissociação. Para dar um pouco de contexto, estou começando um relacionamento CG/Little com um dos littles da minha comunidade do WhatsApp, e todas as vezes que converso com ele, ele está no estado de little. Não importa a hora do dia ou onde ele esteja.

Acho que em quase um mês de conversas, só tive uma breve conversa com ele enquanto ele estava em um estado mental "grande".

Simplesmente não consigo entender. Como alguém pode estar nesse estado mental todos os dias? Como eles estudam, lidam com responsabilidades e realizam atividades diárias normais?

Pretendo perguntar a ele sobre isso em nossa próxima conversa, mas queria ouvir a opinião de outras pessoas primeiro. Quando regrido, fico muito dependente e mal consigo me comunicar, então é difícil para mim entender a situação dele ou como a experiência dele pode ser diferente da minha.