u/puppyporridge

to carry a baby to term THREE times.. to GROW a person inside of you for almost a year only to literally not give a shit if you neglect them to the point of hospitalization.. i cannot understand WHY narcissists like acacia even have children.
the unfortunate truth is she isn’t the first person like this to have kids and won’t be the last. but i cannot understand why

outside of my pattern of attaching myself to terrible (like, clinically psychopathic) people to feel protected (romantic and platonic relationships alike) only for it to backfire on me horribly, my name also starts with a V (people that don’t know me well sometimes mistakenly call me veronica and i always get a kick out of that lol) and growing up my school uniform looked just like veronica’s musical outfit, same shade of blue and everything. i was also the weird quirky kid that turned pretty in high school and didn’t know what to do with all the new attention.
just wanted to share!! i kin veronica!

hopefully will learn to keep on the straight and narrow and become more like end of film/musical veronica

i need to go to the doctor but i have so many symptoms i don’t even know where to start and feel like i will overwhelm them assuming they even listen to me 🥰🥰 my body is failing me

life feels like a cruel punishment

i’ll do anything to be loved except for letting healthy people get close to me

so for nearly 3 years i was “besties” with a narcissistic pathological liar that constantly faked crises, health crises, mental health crises you name it for attention. she’d play the victim and be inconsolable constantly over every little thing. for some reason i put up with this and completely exhausted my energy and empathy reserves trying to console this girl constantly for years straight. now that ive been no contact since last november i feel like my empathy is broken and i can’t bring myself to show up for people emotionally like before.. i feel broken. when will this endddd