u/ragamuffin_77

I had a meeting with my therapist yesterday. I had been restricting/ not eating for several days and this is on a down ward spiral from where I was.

He is worried about me and asked me to commit to eating at least >!500 cal!< a day and I said yes and now I’m freaking out.

I don’t want to. But I don’t want to let him down. Or have to stop seeing him if I can’t commit to recovery. I am not overweight and want to drop significantly more weight to reach being uw.

I want to want to recover but this thing has a hold over me.

I had a meeting with my therapist yesterday. I had been restricting/ not eating for several days and this is on a down ward spiral from where I was.

He is worried about me and asked me to commit to eating at least >!500 cal!< a day and I said yes and now I’m freaking out.

I don’t want to. But I don’t want to let him down. Or have to stop seeing him if I can’t commit to recovery. I am not overweight and want to drop significantly more weight to reach being uw.

I want to want to recover but this thing has a hold over me.

I’ve been fasting for >!4 days!< and my heart rate is down to >!38-39!<. Should I be worried? I’m not experiencing any symptoms like dizziness or chest pain.

I live in Canada and watch on dailymotion. I usually can see the episode the day after it airs. I thought there was an episode June 29 but I’m not finding it. I watched June 30 today but I feel like I missed some stuff.

If there was an episode would anyone be willing to share the highlights of what happened? Thanks

I just inherited a sum of money from my dad. Around 400 000 dollars. I’d like to talk. With someone about what my options are for investing/ saving the money.

My mortgage is up for renewal in sep of 2027 and I’ll owe around 220 000 on it and would like to pay it off. Not sure what to do with the money in the meantime.

I’d like to put some money aside for my three kids and some for retirement. I’d like to continue to put the equivalent of my mortgage aside once it’s paid off as a savings as well.

I bank with Simplii so I can’t just go to a bank to get advice. What kind of professional should I be looking for?

Tia

Ugh I had a staff party Friday night to celebrate the end of the school year. It was a pot luck and I ate so much food. It’s like I couldn’t control myself. I got home and weighed myself and had gained several pounds.

I felt like I couldn’t even enjoy the party because I was so focused on the food.

I hate that this disease has taken the joy away from me. But the thought of recovery is so daunting.

As the title says. I was fine a year ago. Overweight but fine. Then I decided to lose weight. And my ed behaviour came roaring back.

Now I’m back in therapy once a week (was down to once a month) and my therapist is concerned enough that he is writing a letter to my dr. I have a drs appt on Wednesday and he knows I’ve been struggling a bit but over the past few weeks it’s gotten worse.

My therapist and I have been working on curbing the purging but my way of coping with that is to just restrict. I’m so tired of all of this. Why can’t I just get better?

I’m disgusting. I can’t bring myself to shower more than once a week. If that. Worse I work out twice a day so I sweat. I’m a mess. But I just can’t seem to get motivated to get on the shower. It’s like it physically hurts to do it.

Any advice?

I just impulsively took a bunch of laxatives. I can’t call in sick tomorrow and I’m a teacher. What am I going to do? Am I going to be shitting my pants all day? Hopefully they just work over night and I’m better by tomorrow

Thanks for all the tips guys. Last night was rough and I had a close call this morning (got another teacher to watch my class while I ran to the bathroom) but I think I’ll make it through the day.

Went to a psychiatrist today for a brief - like 20/25 min session where he diagnosed me with all kinds of things including my first official diagnosis of an ed. ED-NOS I’m too >!fat - healthy bmi!!< to receive another diagnosis.

Is it messed up that I want to lose so much more weight to get the anorexia diagnosis?