u/sinichvas

tw internalised fatphobia I guess

for context im an anorexic guy who was obese for most of his life and only 5 years ago my lifelong BED decided to make a backflip and shifted completely into insane restriction and eventually anorexia. ever since then i lost a lot of weight to the point of severe malnourishment and then was sectioned into forced recovery, gained most of if back, then relapsed and lost weight again, and after that relapsed even harder completely into my old self and became underweight once again. After going though my family tormenting me about my weight (before AN) I became kind of obsessed with being perceived as very thin and even sick. I admit I use others to prove myself I'm actually skinny because i can't even trust my own two eyes, all i ever see in the mirror is fat.

The point is, despite being so fixated on thinness myself I actually never found it good-looking on women. When me and my friends discussed dating preferences a few times it's always a surprise to them that I find skinny girls unattractive (not trying to body shame or bring anyone down). In contrast of that, I find overweight men repulsive and often catch myself judging and looking down on other fat males in my head. I'm not the type to judge based on weight/appearances and certainly not actually fatphobic to anyone in general. It's probably disordered thinking that AN has installed in me, but I can't help but feel extremely guilty for those kind of thoughts randomly occuring in my head.

TLDR I'm a male anorexic and often catch myself being fatphobic towards men/attracted to non-skinny women. Does anyone else also has big double standards towards weight?

спрашиваю тут ибо уже хз где. на работе заставляют скачивать макс, прям без вариантов. у меня сейчас нет средств излишних ещё и раскошеливаться на второй телефон, из других устройств только старый айпад. есть ли какой-то вариант утилиты или еще чего на ios? или возможно ли вообще его там сейчас установить в целом, не ебу. ситуация мягко говоря безвыходная, начальство мозги ебет. если кто-то еще был в моем положении, какой выход в итоге нашли?

I can't seem to find any info on it, so asking here. Has anyone tried taking anti estrogens/SERMS while on T to shrink your chest further? I'm intersex so I already have close to zero breast tissue and was wondering would it work for an AFAB person the same way cis men use it to reverse gyno?

sadly the day has come and after 10+ cartilage piercings those damn annoying bumps finally got me. my daith has titanium in it and i try not to touch/sleep on it. what can i do to make the bumps go away quicker besides cleaning with saline?

перед началом гт чекал свои уровни теста в lab4u и испугавшись написал там деднейм. теперь боюсь сдавать там же под тем же именем, есть еще какие-то независимые лаборатории где не требуют паспорт/не сливают результаты в медкарту или куда-то ещё? может быть я паранойю но хз насколько подозрительно это может выглядеть когда человек регулярно сдает один и тот же анализ, помогите братья и сестрички на diy

this might be a stupid question but i heard that in order to do subq injections you need to have enough abdomen fat? im very skinny but still able to pinch my stomach to do subq but would it absorb properly though? i did my first shot last week with a 27g 12 mm/half inch needle and have been worrying about this since then. apologies again if this is stupid, i plan to try to do im in glutes this time but i wish i could do subq