How to deal with wanting the friend who ghosted you know that theyve hurt you?
i had this online friend for 3 years. she kept ghosting me, so i wrote her an embarrassingly long text, about how i dont want to make any effort anymore, because it shouldnt take 30 seconds to shortly explain yourself when youre talking to others and constantly online. at the end i wrote that its fine if she isnt interested in talking to me anymore, since she probably doesnt need me, friendships drift apart and she has other friends, and that ill forever love her and said the reasons why i admire her blablabla, and then i blocked her. i then unblocked her, said sorry for doing that, and that i regret it and feel bad and that she doesnt have to forgive me, but then she blocked me. her ghosting me weighed on me, and i really wish she knew that. but i kept saying its fine, that shes not interesting in talking to me, which it is, but i dont want her to think that her ghosting me didnt hurt. i really want her to know, even though i know she may not care at all.
after she had blocked me i her on her other account, saying that it shows she didnt care to even text me at least a short message in a matter of months, and then i wrote its fine have a great life and blocked her since i got a bit upset and devestated.
i blocked and deleted her chat everywhere, so im not fully sure if i can ever text her again. i could also make a new account just to text her, which i would like to do but that all seems too desperate.