I feel disgusting sick heavy and horrible, ive been eating all day. I want to cry and scream and >!relapse and self harm but im 1 1/2yr clean so i obviously can’t!< i just feel nauseous and want to try >!purging!< but i literally never can and know inshouldnt start. I just feel horrific rn and wanna scream and cey but theres nowhwre to go so im just upset and eating gummy bears but its not evenbhelpinf just making me feel worse
this is old but i think probably the saddest plate i ever had. i was at a friend’s house standing at the kitchen counter picking up and eating pieces of lettuce when someone asked if i wanted a plate and handed me this 😭
i drew a silly littol boykisser thinking abt apex cause ive been playing it SOOOO MUCHHHH!!! i suck really bad tho.
ANDDDD I MADE IT A TEMPLATE SO PEOPLE CAN USE WHATEVER THEY WANT WITH ITTTT :3333 if u use it i’d love to know cuz it’d make me happy
what games are you sillies playing recently?!
Est. for this? Hand is for scale, idk how much it weighs/cant weigh it. internet not being the most helpful. got it from a bakery
posting here because im lost and idk where i can even talk about this on reddit.
ive had i am sober since 2021, used it to track my self harm since 2023. im 11 months clean, finally hitting one year in july.
but suddenly out of nowhere, i was banned yesterday from the social features for being “underage”. i’m 19, which is NOT UNDERAGE ANYWHERE. i don’t even know how this happened or could have, the last things i posted were like “i passed my driving permit test” and “im feel empty when i dont spend time with people” the average normal stuff.
i followed so many people and loved keeping up with them and encouraging them and getting my own support from them. i’ve followed people for 2+ years and kept up with them as i’ve gotten clean and they’ve seen my progress and it been so nice to have community & people who understand me at least a little bit.
luckily my streak isn’t gone, my data isn’t gone, i’m able to use the app for non-social stuff but that was a large part of it to me now that i’m actually clean.
i would’ve relapsed over this if i wasn’t clean this long honestly (also, i need to stay clean for my boyfriend and myself), i got thoughts about it and was so fucking furious to open the app and see this. BECAUSE I’M NOT UNDERAGE, I GENUINELY DONT UNDERSTAND. and even if i get unbanned likely all my posts from years and years are just gone. all my thoughts, i used it like a journal sometimes and i feel so sentimental and like to look back on those old posts to see how i felt in the past, compare it, and see just.. myself in the past. it feels so horrible to lose it all.
idk man. i wish i could relapse over this lmfao. i emailed their support but who tf knows if i’ll get anything back
been trying more of the 300mg c4 recently and this one is very chill. hard to describe the flavour because it’s super light but kinda crisp and icy.
my fav right now is the 300mg fruit punch ultimate one, which i think is similar to pacific punch monster & fruit punch rockstar but without sugar and even more caffeine, which is peak!!
anyway, any more c4 suggestions? i always love trying new flavours
super rare flavour near me, i have to go to microcenter (the computer store) just to buy one but it’s incredible.
i used to hate on it but recently tried it again and love it sooo much so i regret that it’s so rare. it tastes surprisingly like mango for a zero sugar drink so it satisfies my cravings for mango loco
YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY!!!!
it actually was Very Yummy :3 it didn’t look circular it was like a rectangle so i just made it into a dog bone :3 no sauce, just dough and olive oil with mozzarella and pepperoni + oregano
i drew this of the fit
i just was so happy and had such a good time and i actually felt like a boy (im ftm) instead of feeling like i’m pretending because of feminine clothes. i felt like i could dress up and be silly and i wasn’t just a girl :3 im really happy and i love my bf so much
hi! i use this really cute pedometer app i found to track my steps, it takes data from my health app (so i know it isn’t as accurate as a watch would be, but it’s all i have right now).
with this, it also calculates steps -> calories burned and i was wondering how accurate these estimates might be? i’m 5’3 (160cm) and 108lbs (49kg) and so when I google it says that 20k steps would be anywhere from 600-750 calories based on that, but i’m not exactly sure how the app is calculating my calories 🤷
just curious if it’s under or overestimating, because i feel like for 10k and under it overestimates and 20k it underestimates
if anyone might be able to estimate that would help!
meow this slice is so appetizing in this photo… im eeating three slices and already on my second.
i feel like a liar becaus im NOT a transbian i am a tboy and gay so like the OPPOSITE but i was told i could post here so yea :3 hopefully soon i can make my own pizza, this is just some i ordered since im in a dorm and can’t properly cook now :(((
i didn’t really want food today but i was hungey… i think my eating habits are getting pretty bad 3: i never want to eat because then i hate myself. they should take away calories.. i don’t wanna get tooo heavy but yeah i was hungry so i needed this >-<