I feel that I'm abnormally obsessed with leftism. Please hear me out.
Before, you call me insane I want you to hear me out. So, from a young age I came to know about leftism (an ideology which is based on equality and equal wealth distribution). I loved the concept and became a follower of leftism. Naturally, I supported left-wing parties. But, later I came to realize that left-wing parties are not synonymous with leftism. I've studied that the left had committed atrocities and brutalities. I don't support left-wing parties. But, still I'm a follower of democratic socialism. I love the ideology.
However, I feel that I'm quite obsessed with it. See, I receive hate for being a socialist. Though, I strongly condemn the wrongdoings of the left and I don't care about politics much but some people around me know that I'm a socialist and a left-winger. They hate me unnecessarily.
The problem is that I don't want adhere to any particular ideology. I support what's in the best interest of India and its people. That must be goal of all Indians. I support equality and equitable economic distribution at the same time giving way for democracy.
However, I feel a strange obligation to support leftism. It's completely internal. None forces me but myself. I feel ashamed of myself when someone speaks ill of the ideology. I acknowledge there is fault with leftism and also with rightism. I don't want to support any ideology blindly and evaluate critically. Yet, I feel a psychological pressure. I often hate those who speak ill of leftism. Whenever someone negatively describes me, I feel that person is against leftism. I often hate society as a whole for hating leftism.
Please help me out. I don't wanna risk myself because of this. I love all people. I don't support anyone blindly, Yet, I feel this pressure. Please Please help.
