call me my love, call me babe, be patient with me, and just being kind as you are
as a friend
i don’t care that im delusional anymore. im just going to enjoy it while it last even if your actions are platonic.
but i like him a lot. Im so conflicted, i like him a ton but gods im so uncomfortable yet i want him so bad.
But i’ll never be happy with him.
I’m convinced I feel like for now I love him and accept who he is since we are friends. And some stuffs are acceptable when you are friends.
But when I think about the future, I’m not sure if my insecurities will be able to handle it. If my own mental health can. I am sure he cares about me, but I am not sure how much of that care will extend if we go further, would he be able to reassure me? To accept and adjust? But I don’t want to change anyone. I don’t want to ‘fix’ anyone if we’re in a relationship. That should be something I need to work on for myself.
And for that I don’t want to expect him to change, but also know I can truly feel comfortable with those traits if we were to be dating. So I don’t think I can actually be happy with him, and I don’t want to risk being unhappy with my dear friend.
Affection, affirmation, support, i just want to show them. But then sooner or later I’ll feel like im being annoying.
I feel like I’m a freak. Does anyone even want to hear them? I feel like even my friends would feel like “ugh… why is she saying that?” “I just want to vent,i don’t want to hear you yap.”
I try to keep pushing those thoughts away, convince myself it was just my depression/anxiety talking, but I feel like they are true. No one wants to hear them. No one wants to read those stuff. I’m just being an extra weight.
I don’t know much spells and one I could find are for using it on myself. I want a spell to help a friend out, clearing his path and makes his life easier. Thing is it kinda non consent, he doesn’t know I want to do it for him? Does it count as a dark magic? i don’t want to do dark magic. Sorry for asking.
He will smiles at me, laughs with me, chat with me and everything. I know he will. He’s a good man.
It stopped being “would he reciprocate my feelings”, and become “would he take it well.”
Because he’s a good friend. I know he wouldn’t like me back. But because he such a good friend so I stop wondering if he would like me back, and wonder if that smile will stop if I tell him there’s more in our friendship — that I read too deep into our interactions.
I stop wondered if his actions, his words, his every mean anything, because I know for sure he cares and love me.
as friend.
He smiles at me because we’re friends. Standing too close because he’s comfortable being with me. Able to held my hands because we cares. Treat me meals because that’s how he shows his kindness towards his close ones.
I don’t want to risk losing him because I also love him as a friend. And that love is so much more than the romantic love I have.
Do I want to confess? Of course I want to. It burns thinking I could not tell him I feel this much. What if he get scared? uncomfortable? awkward being with me?
I’d hate to lose everything and his trust. I want him to still able to remain the same even if he says no.
Please don’t leave me even if you don’t feel the same. I can’t lose you.
but as a friend. he cares, a lot, he does everything that i thought maybe are signs. because we are friends for years. but actually we just getting passed from good friends as close friends. im sorry, buddy.
i’ve been thinking about confessing to the friend im crushing on. It has been months since i have feelings for him, and i think it’ll end badly, or affect our friend group.
So i think, just to make it fair and for the feeling to go away as soon as possible, i’ll tell him. Just to get it out of my chest, let him know someone appreciates him, and finally move on so we can back to be 100% friends with no feelings involved.
i just hope he’ll take it in a good way, and we can still be the same without him needing to feels uncomfortable or awkward. he’s very dear to me, good friend, i don’t want to hurt him.
I’m sure a few people are gonna get mad or find this funny, because I am both mad and losing my mind about how the situation is. I’m a feminist/equalist who friends refer to as the ‘woke’ bisexual girl (their words, not mine.)
I don’t like how most female characters in media are constantly presenting one idealized body type, big breasts, baby face, and put on sexy clothes, i don’t enjoy how most media especially video games and anime put women in that way. BUT before you get to me, I’m not gonna scream at anyone to stop them from enjoying stuff.
I understand that people are all different, and we all have our own opinions and preferences. I enjoy those characters myself once in a while, too. And I am in the artist community, I come across those stuff every day. My friends and people around me like them, it’s fine, people preference doesn’t define who they are and I still hangout with them.
It just that my ideal future partner would maybe not be one of the people who mainly favored those hourglass body characters.
But thing is, I am crushing hard on my close friends who people would refer as a fat chud gooner. Though he is respectful of women in real life and surprisingly a gentleman, he is a DLsite and pixiv main visitor, often shares art of anime girls with G+ cup breasts and stuff. I am completely fine with being friends with people like these, but as a romantic partner???
I am super conflicted with myself, I have many debates in my head about this, pros and cons list, headache. I don’t know what to do. Like I love him for who he is, and try to tell myself everyone has their own separate life, he can enjoy anything as long as it doesn’t affect/harm anyone in real life, but this shit is bugging me so damn much. I want to stop liking him in romantic way so I can just go back being 100% friends full time, but I just can’t. My value is conflicted with a person I have feelings for, and he doesn’t even know about it so this is all on ME!! I have no one else to blame, and I caused this on myself.
and what if other people know? I acknowledge this might sound full of myself and selfish, but what would they think?? The woke alt girl is crushing hard on the community meme gooner???
Thank you for reading, I have to get this out of my chest because my friends are also his friends, and my other group of friends probably gonna look down on him so I have no one else but reddit. I probably will delete this soon.
dear friend, i think i’m not in love with you anymore. i feel relieved, then numb, then.. empty.
i still think of you, excited when you text me, seeing your name in the notifications — but i don’t feel the sparks now. to be honest, i’m a little disappointed that it’s finally over. 2 days ago i was planning to confess to you, but then since last night i don’t feel joyful about the thought of being with you as lovers now.
it’s weird, because you are still here, but i am grieving the version of us that never exist. the future i planned in my head, the date i want to ask you out on, the idea of holding your hand. we are still close friends and i still feel tight with you… but now something is missing. and the missing part doesn’t even exist until just a few months ago but i still wish i could’ve last longer..?
maybe i am addicted to the wrenching sensation, the pain, crying at 2 am and replaying heartbreaking playlists while remembering all the little moments i romanticized. or maybe it was those that make me feel tired and finally let go.
i’m glad it’s over, though. because since i had those romantic feelings, i’ve seen new aspects of you and loved your flaws. now i still love them, but not in the same way.
i still going to confess to you one day, but it will be all in past tense. because i want you to know you are still loved and appreciated, and you are lack of self esteem in your dating life, you probably gonna need to hear it to know that you aren’t as ugly or unloveable as much as you think.
who knows, maybe the feelings will come back in the few days, next week, or next time i see you again. but for now i feel peace and happy, a little sad but happy.
close friend to be specific. I don’t know how to make it different from usually platonic stuff. What do I do when most stuff written are what we already did as friends? I already dress up nicely whenever I hang out with him. We often choose to sit next to each other or across from each other. We hug before going home. I think he’s okay with physical touch with me, I don’t see him touch anyone or our other friends much but he seems fine and grabs or touches me first. I help him do stuff.
I don’t know how to make a move on someone that is a friend. Like subtly and don’t scare him away. I don’t want to scream in his face that I like him more than friends, but I want it to be obvious enough that if he was looking for signs, he’d see them.
please help.
yeah, he going to be the person you don’t expect to do anything nice, bullying you and shit, but then again he going the sweetest guy you ever met.
Oh, he wouldn’t even realize it. Motherfucker be doing gentlemen stuff and respectful, suddenly does something nice out of nowhere and his excuse will be “I have a little sister.” “I have a lot of female friends.”
Then you wondered for weeks that if he does all these stuff with other girl friends of his. And then he’ll admit that you’re actually one of the closest girl friends. The one he hang out with most actually.
Mixed signals. Or not at all but you romanticize it because now you wondered if that means you are the only one who he treats you meals, held hands, and leave his house despite the fact that he doesn’t like to go out much.
Maybe you’re just important friend to him. He is to you, beside how much you like him, too. Your friendship with him is too important that you too afraid to risk telling him you have feelings for him. You are friends for years, you don’t want your months old feelings to ruin it.
So now you wondered each time you smoke if he misses you like you do, even though you talk everyday.
Hey.
I hope I’m the exception.
it wasn’t much, i know, but there’s this one friend of mine. She was talking about how my sleeves were too long and reached over to roll them up to my elbow. I feel so dumb.
If a close female friend makes a move or initiate that she likes you, would you give her a chance?
I think I finally made peace. I realized the close friend I have crush on might care and love me platonically, but he probably is not emotionally available for any relationship or something romantic.
Sure, I wouldn’t really understand what’s going on in his head. Only he knows. But for now my best guess is that.
For now to not give him ick, I think I’ll try to repress my romantic feelings when around him and not tell him how i feel yet. Just keep it friendly, as friend, as we are. I still like him, but I care about him as a friend so I don’t want to make him uncomfortable even if I just want to let him know how much I appreciate him.
Like, it’d be great if he did reciprocate my feelings, but I am fine with what we have now.
Of course I want more, but it’s not like I am not grateful with what going on now. I like it. He’s important to me, and I like how I’m 80% sure I might be to him, too. if he is comfortable with our friendship now, then I’m cool. We’re friends first, I’m not gonna let my few months old accidental romantic feelings ruin it.
i have this one friend who i always ask to read for me, he’s really good and always accurate. Thing is, in past few months i asked few readers including him about my crush, others says it’s looking positive, but my friend says otherwise. I don’t know who to trust, everyone else has this similar positive interpretation, but my friend’s clocked what happened which i didn’t mention but was thinking about. I don’t know what to do or who to follow. His reading was much more deeper than the rest also.
edit: i want to add that my friend doesn’t know who the crush is, i feel like people think me and the reader are very close but not really, we are just friends who talk like once 1-4 months. they are from different groups. he only have birthdate and current status of me and him.
I’m currently having a crush on my hb. We have been friends for years, we in the same friend group. I have a crush on him for a few months now, and tbh I didn’t want it to happen.
But lately we have become closer, we hung out more, chat more, play video games almost every night and gain few inside jokes, suddenly jokingly called me darling, babe, shawty. I don’t know if our friends would like the idea of me crushing on him/us dating (if he reciprocates) or not, but one of the friends once joked me and him look like we’re dating from strangers point of view (alt girl + normal guy stereotype).
Should I go for it? At least let him know I appreciate him more than friends and as a person. I want him to know even if it won’t be reciprocated, but I don’t want to ruin the friendship.
dear friend, i am sorry i cant seem to get you out of my mind. days ago i have accepted that all the signs mean nothing, i felt numb, then happy that i finally accepted it, then i spiraled back in again. you know i used to think you must hate me, but then we grew closer. i missed holding your hand btw, i miss seeing you in person despite we called almost everyday and we just saw each other last week. i know its pathetic.
i still look at my hand sometimes when i miss you. i wonder how could you treat me food almost always, smile while watching me eat. you must love taking care of people. it means a lot to me when it was just us hanging out when our friends already went home, or the fact that we play games late into the night.
i want to tell you one day, at least to let you know how much i appreciate you not as a friend but as the only person i could see myself with. but who knows.
do you miss me, too? do you think im boring? i think i am. but im grateful you’re still here as my friend.
im sorry i lied not remembering what i said when i was drunk. i dont want to admit im jealous of her.
can we hang out again soon? i know i’ll never text you that i want to hang just us, i hope you’ll be the one to initiate first when it comes to that.
it’s raining over here. don’t catch a cold, my love.
i really like you. im sorry.
I replay each moment we held hands every day. Every morning I wake up, i miss it. I know it meant nothing to you. I know you’re just a good friend. I know we held hands just because the waves are strong — and I have to admit, I ran back into the water every time to able to held yours again.
People say interlocking fingers is intimate, but I know it wasn’t for you. Because you are you.
You wouldn’t get it. How much they mean to me. Every time our hand brushed and our knees grazed and you didn’t move away. I wish you could know how important you are to me, but I also wish you would never know. It would ruin everything.
I genuinely thought that maybe you were giving me mixed signals. But then I realized that you are just being a good friend.
I do love you as a friend, but I also want you as more.
The eyes contact means nothing, walking with me to the convenience store at night was a bare minimum friends do for each others, noticing I was walking far behind and slowed down to chat with me instead of keeping up with the group was just considerate, and apparently holding hands + interlocking fingers meant nothing when you were just playing around.
You just a good and caring friend. I’m sorry I read your good intentions as maybe you are feeling the same, when the signs were clear you feel nothing but platonic to me.