I have evil voices in my head and they've been here since I've been using substances even before then I believe something has been in my life. If I keep using I know I'll be attacked but every time I wait I give in to the drug and it leave me questioning if it's my fault. It's hard to wait but I have it in me. The evil voices are so cruel. It seems like they can stop what they're doing. I want this to be out of my head.
I have evil voices in my head and they've been here since I've been using substances even before then I believe something has been in my life. If I keep using I know I'll be attacked but every time I wait I give in to the drug and it leave me questioning if it's my fault. It's hard to wait but I have it in me. The evil voices are so cruel. It seems like they can stop what they're doing. I want this to be out of my head.
I have evil voices in my head and they've been here since I've been using substances even before then I believe something has been in my life. If I keep using I know I'll be attacked but every time I wait I give in to the drug and it leave me questioning if it's my fault. It's hard to wait but I have it in me. The evil voices are so cruel. It seems like they can stop what they're doing. I want this to be out of my head.
I'm trying to enjoy my life my mental health bothers me at times and I'm still able to function normally. The mental torment I go through doesn't stop me from thinking of how strong I am. The monsters have been wanting to get me for a long time. It gets hard you know. I'm glad I have good voices
I'm trying to enjoy my life my mental health bothers me at times and I'm still able to function normally. The mental torment I go through doesn't stop me from thinking of how strong I am. The monsters have been wanting to get me for a long time. It gets hard you know. I'm glad I have good voices
I have to vent about my mental health I have negative voices that can be mental imagery because I think of my substance use it's probably not I just assumed. They have been in my mind attacking me a lot every time i use and God has been helping me but they still always attack. The substance is hard to put down you know and I tend to use when the evil is still in my mind. The support I have does help me and I keep getting these thoughts that they do want to help me but the criticism I get in my mind (I believe is on accident) makes me think they don't or I've done wrong which they can stop the help. I tend to think negatively Everytime I use when it is in my head but when looking back and reviewing myself I see the answers I say can be true but I can't be sure. It's all to sad because I have this in my mind and all I want to do is enjoy myself. I look at how I have these monsters in my head and there's how I'm suppose to enjoy my life. I tell myself that I need to want a couple of days to get this out of my mind I would wait 1 or 2 days and then I would use with it still in my head and they would attack. It's hard for me to get medicine because of my health it would be hard for me to go to the doctor.
I have this structure in my mind and it seems quite peculiar. I have my good voices and my bad voices I consider my good voices my angels and my negative voices are now evil have always been evil these voices can be mental imagery to and implications in the mind they harass my angels violently they try to destroy my mind, they're very disrespectful, they have a boatload of deceit in there heart, they try to flip me out they also try to destroy my relationship with my guides. I've been going along in my journey spectating this and it's coming to a stand still. I ponder how strong we'll be in the future. This being in my mind is a test to my patients but I have a lot of patience. My good voices are always there and I love how they support me when Im at a low position I love my companions it makes me cry.
How do you get rid of evil located in the mental state. The basic things like mindfulness or observing without engaging really don't work how I want them to and trust me this evil is a tone. It's quite scary having this in the mind I need the most support.
The hardships I face are difficult, I would feel so bad. I would hear my good voices and in those difficult situations my voice would cheer me up, I would be in a difficult situation and I would hear my good voice and it always cheers me up. Can anyone give me motivation
How should I feel when Ive been extremely tormented sexually mentally and I use which makes it worse because I keep hearing that I've done it to myself how should I feel when I'm in an area that's vulnerable and my emotions aren't paid attention to I'm left to feel the most sorrow, I'm left alone at those moments and I can't cry even though I want to. How should I feel when it's to hard to bare. The demons in my mind don't care at all, they keep making fun of me and all they want to do is neglect my inner dialogue until they turn against me. Why isn't there a limit because what I went through was unlimited. Why do I have to be so sad if I don't deserve it, why is it my fault, why does it have to be my fault. All I want to do is yell "How the f*** should I feel".
How should I feel when Ive been extremely tormented sexually mentally and I use which makes it worse because I keep hearing that I've done it to myself how should I feel when I'm in an area that's vulnerable and my emotions aren't paid attention to I'm left to feel the most sorrow, I'm left alone at those moments and I can't cry even though I want to. How should I feel when it's to hard to bare. The demons in my mind don't care at all, they keep making fun of me and all they want to do is neglect my inner dialogue until they turn against me. Why isn't there a limit because what I went through was unlimited. Why do I have to be so sad if I don't deserve it, why is it my fault, why does it have to be my fault. All I want to do is yell "How the f*** should I feel".
How should I feel when Ive been extremely tormented sexually mentally and I use which makes it worse because I keep hearing that I've done it to myself how should I feel when I'm in an area that's vulnerable and my emotions aren't paid attention to I'm left to feel the most sorrow, I'm left alone at those moments and I can't cry even though I want to. How should I feel when it's to hard to bare. The demons in my mind don't care at all, they keep making fun of me and all they want to do is neglect my inner dialogue until they turn against me. Why isn't there a limit because what I went through was unlimited. Why do I have to be so sad if I don't deserve it, why is it my fault, why does it have to be my fault. All I want to do is yell "How the f*** should I feel".
I feel bad I'm a crystal meth user and I have a habit of using while demons are in my mind, I can't help but to feel that I caused to much. I'm really a nice, kind person that turnt his life around but my crystal meth use has brought me to a low position. I feel like I've saddened the spirituality that watches over me, I feel that my voice is way to angry at me, I feel that I put myself in a position that I have to go through because I caused it to myself. I don't feel good at all and one thing that hits me is that I had something in my mind that I thought was brought to me so I can enjoy but my substance use completely topsided the matter, I was repeatedly tormented, I was confused, I didn't know how to save the situation and I was left vulnerable, what was there was left really angry and I felt the hate that was coming from the situation I felt that I was an embarrassment. I'm sad I think I didnt do enough and when I look back I feel that people would say I should've taken my time. you have to understand I was vulnerable and I couldn't do anything to stop the situation. I feel sad...
I feel bad I'm a crystal meth user and I have a habit of using while demons are in my mind, I can't help but to feel that I caused to much. I'm really a nice, kind person that turnt his life around but my crystal meth use has brought me to a low position. I feel like I've saddened the spirituality that watches over me, I feel that my voice is way to angry at me, I feel that I put myself in a position that I have to go through because I caused it to myself. I don't feel good at all and one thing that hits me is that I had something in my mind that I thought was brought to me so I can enjoy but my substance use completely topsided the matter, I was repeatedly tormented, I was confused, I didn't know how to save the situation and I was left vulnerable, what was there was left really angry and I felt the hate that was coming from the situation I felt that I was an embarrassment. I'm sad I think I didnt do enough and when I look back I feel that people would say I should've taken my time. you have to understand I was vulnerable and I couldn't do anything to stop the situation. I feel sad...
If you think about it if they thought correctly they would've said "life is a gift and I notice it lets keep building until we eventually have our dream life" they would've kept building and building and building and eventually to the modern day we would have everything free. Free houses, free food, free cars free everything. Law would look minimized to probably a couple of rules.
If you think about it if they thought correctly they would've said "life is a gift and I notice it lets keep building until we eventually have our dream life" they would've kept building and building and building and eventually to the modern day we would have everything free. Free houses, free food, free cars free everything. Law would look minimized to probably a couple of rules