u/vayne7

I have severe audhd meaning I didn’t realize how bad other people treated me compared to normal people. Growing up I’ve always been overweight and had severe acne issues from young age. If u guys watched the kdrama my id is kangnam beauty - the main character is bullied from young age because she is ugly and is called kang orc. I really related with her because all throughout middle to high school kids at school called me big headed planet - because proportionally i hd cubby cheeks and small shoulder i guess. Or do u remember the trend where ugly girls would be called potatoes on facebook? That was my nickname as well.

Ever since graduating high school I completely fell in love w a guy and I began to obsess over my looks. Like i finally realized at 19 how weights and looks matter lol and I lost like 30kg in 2 months. And I was astonished to learn people would actually look me in the eyes or even listen to what I was saying. I genuinely detested my old self and wished to never live like that.

But even after I lost weight I still didn’t look quiet right on camera - you know the asymmetrical face, weird manly eyelids, fat nose etc.

But then I realized that the guy I really liked was stringing me along just to make me do his final dissertation and after that he ghosted me. He did just enough to make me think he liked me so that I would do his school work for him omg. Just after his dissertation he told me that he had a gf and he cant be a w girl who likes him :((.

After that I slowly gained all the weight back and I can seem only yoyo lose my weight. And because now I am much more overweight and very AWARE that I am overweight, I can’t seem to meet with anyone.

I wear mask, sunglsses and cap with a hoodie everytime I go out to the point tht one taxi driver asked me if i was a celebrity lol. I genuinely cant bear the thought of accidentally meeting someone unless i lose at least 30kg and become acne free. Even those arent enough.

I actually havent met anyone for the last 3 years ever since losing the weight and the guy. Not even my best friends, I occasionally video time them once or twice a year if i feel like fuck it.

Does anyone else hide themselves until idk you can be better? I plan on going to korea to get my everything done after I lose the weight. Up until that I dont plan on meeting anyone.

Actually I havent even worn a nice cloth ever since i realized i looked ugly because of the weight gain and my face. It’s like every time i put on a foundation or wear a nice t shirt the phrase “lipstick on a pig” comes to my mind hahaha

or am i the only one.

I apologize if this is not the space, i just wanted a safe space to vent

I was wondering how many of u guys received one from the funding team requesting proof of income.

GUYS PLEASE HELP ME FIND THIS MOVIE I WATCHED WHEN I WAS VERY YOUNG.

It's probably older than 10 years could older than 20 as well.

It was like one of this japanese 3D animated style movie I think. Genre is I think martial arts definitely. It was translated so I dont know the language.

But I remember there was this pixie haired? girl and this guy who were so in love with each other.

But the guy was fighting an enemy and the enemy stabs his back with a sword and lets an evil larva? crawl into his body turning him into this whole different person? demon I think.

And some other guy and the pixie haired girl had to fight him at the end I think.

I felt super sad as a kid because you know the love story.

The girl was left blinded at the end of the movie I think.

PLEASE DO U KNOW THIS MOVIE. I'm sorry if my descriptions are wrong but those are only thing i remember. I probably watched it when I was 5-6 so.

I was playing 2v2 deathmatch with my younger brother and I was sliding upwards on the left side of the map to help him upstairs.

Then I just fell from the map between the museum’s stairs and instantly died.😭😀

Literally it didn’t even warn that I was out of the map for 2 seconds.

I was sliding upwards and fell - saw a sky and died☹️.

So yeah I guess this is a new bug.

Someone tell the devs to fix it.

We lost the match btw because my bro is 8 year old ipad kid😭