u/whathappenstomenow

Gaming PC . Signature required , guy is never home, doesn't answer phone

Finally got him today. Didn't carry the PC to the house because I figured another no one home

Knocked and wrang doorbell, he came to the door and looked kind of pissed . I said Oh you're home, ok be right back

Went to truck to get PC

There were several packages outside already, Amazon I think

As I'm walking back to the house with the PC he has already picked up the packages and is quickly going back in and closing the door which he kind of slammed

I knocked again immediately, and rang door bell no more than 5 seconds after he closes the door. Waited about 20 seconds, he didn't come back.

I think he thought I delivered the other packages and for whatever reason was knocking/ ringing bell to let him know I dropped them off, hence the annoyance

3rd day no gaming PC for him

You can sleep with anyone you want but they have to take a dump on your chest first. As soon as you decide you want to sleep with them they instantly desire you as well

Once you take the deal you cannot back out for the rest of your life

Or you decline the deal and life goes on as normal

A magical potion sits in front of you!

If you drink it you gain the ability to reverse time by exactly 30 seconds. This power only works once within a 31 second period

Every time you use it, you lose 1 month off of your life

Drink it or not drink it ?

It's been about 3 years for me since the split. I would still drop everything in half a heartbeat to reunite with her.

Every time we have to do something together for our child it is both the most alive I will feel at any point in my next weeks and months, it is also the most pain I will feel when we part and when I'm forced to confront again the understanding that this is all we are now-- coparents who once in a while have to take our child to an appointment or something together . It sounds grim but I die a little more inside every time we spend time together and then part.

Somehow in 3 years she hasn't dated. I feel like trash and selfish for it, but when I do finally hear that she's with someone else , engaged, pregnant, whatever, I don't think I'll be here much longer. I have already sold basically everything non essential and stashed every extra dollar I make so I have something to leave her

It's like, I'm either a piece of shit immature parent that I can't communicate and be around my ex, or I have to throw myself into it and be utterly miserable at having to see her live perfectly happy and content without me

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The worst part is that we still have the best time together. We talk, we joke, we laugh. We actually have good conversations, we have a lot of fun and good times together . But she doesn't want anything, it's still hard for me to understand.

She called me the other day and somehow talking about relationships was brought up and I said something about . I'm old, I've already done everything, I don't want another relationship"

And she asked what do you mean you've done everything, you can still date.

And I said well I already had a family and I ruined it. Why would I start another one

She just looked at me (video messenger) and said something like well you deserve to be happy

But that's it.. it's been years and I literally cannot sever or let go of this bond with her. My therapist says I might have PTSD . When I think about her or our interactions or things that happened it's not in the past it's right then. I see the sights and smell the smells and it's all so absolutely clear in my head it's like I'm reliving it. It is a constant source of pain, regret, longing, loss.

I still actively cry about it sometimes weekly even years later

I am so hopelessly bonded and connected to this woman and I have no idea how to get rid of her in my thoughts and emotions and heart

I barely even talk to anyone anymore. I don't have any energy. When she's around I come alive and neither of us can shut up. There's just no life in my body or spirit anymore. I don't know why I can't just take it as an extremely painful lesson and try to move on. I can't get away from her mentally, spiritually , emotionally

I have no idea how to free myself from a connection that feels like it has transcended space and time. We've probably seen each other on average 5 minutes a week for years. Once in a while there's a phone call or an outing with our child .

Rather than strengthening and healing over time it feels like her absence is an oppressive weight that just keeps crushing me more and more as time goes on and we get older . And I am so tired of struggling as hard as I can just to get a breath as the weight of it on my chest feels heavier and heavier

I don't know how to get free. Does anyone have any thoughts or anything that has been helpful to you.

I lost $1200 in basically consecutive hands playing blackjack betting $25-50 a hand. Was pissed. Think I had about 13 12-16s in a row

Anyway got my last few hundred out

Proceeded to win 7-8 in a row. Lost 1. Won 6-7 in a row. Lost 1. Won 5-6 in a row. Lost 2 and left

By the time I lost 1200 I was annoyed and just wanted my money back, so instead of pressing on a huge heater I was betting 30 then 35 then 40 then 45, etc. got up to like 70. And when I lost I'd go back down to 30 and build up again

My last win was Ace ace split and got 1 more ace and split, dealer had a 6, busted and I won all of them .. had 30 on it

I'm still thinking about it a week later. If I wasn't scared to lose it all again I could have literally won tens of thousands. An aggressive player on that run wouldve won many thousands. Even staying fairly low at a few hundred a hand I couldve won almost 10k

I lost about $750 in basically consecutive hands on BJ

Then thing turned around. I didnt count it but my best estimate is 7-8 hands in a row for me, then the house took a hand, then another 4-5 in a row for me, then a loss, then 3 more in a row. Lost the next one and left . Got all my money back plus like $150 and left the table

Gave $100 back on something else and left

By the time you figure drink and food and the couple hours I was there I broke even

This was several days ago and all I have been thinking about is what a fool I was for not upping my bet. It feels like a loss

I started at $25 and then 30, 35, 40, 45. Got up to about 60 a hand then when I lost 1 I'd go back to $25

I know I had to stop because even a streak of about 15/18 hands I barely took home anything. I was afraid to lose it all again.

If I wasn't afraid and had been raising my bet even a little aggressively I could've won 10k + for a 700 buy in

I live like 12 min from casino. Normally go about every day. I haven't in 4 days now. If I can't win in a situation like that what is the point . I'm already more likely to lose and even on great streaks Im not making money

I had to drive a couple hours today and this happened to me 4 times. I cannot understand it for the life of me

In fast lane going 12 over.

Person comes in hot riding clear up my ass

I get over

Within 10 seconds the person gets back over and is now in the slow lane again after I got in the slow lane because 77 in a 65 wasn't fast enough for them

I'm in a PICkle because for whatever reason I cannot eat carbs without horrific heartburn more and more as I age.

Even sweet potatoes, white rice, fruit. Carbs I'd assume are as gentle as I'm going to get. I've tried beans and corn and other grains.

My gut just can't handle it, I get 24/7 heartburn

When I cut carbs my heartburn goes away 95%

Problem is.. I've been through this many times now of low/no carb for up to 6 months

And my anxiety goes through the roof about a day after I cut carbs and stays that way. When I'm not eating carbs I feel like I can't ever calm down and relax. Like regardless of what I'm doing.. even if I just worked out after a long day and I'm tired, my body is still in a constant state of vigilance and "on edge"

Anyone had this ?

I need to 4 X my $500 quick.

What is my best shot

I'm thinking 2 hands of blackjack

I need a sure thing, I need to get my kid out of prison

I was having serious car issues about 6 months ago. I ended up using triple A 3 times within about 2 weeks

Since then my insurance has skyrocketed.

I had a 2017 Chevy Sonic I was paying $133 for

I got a 2017 Ford escape and the insurance is $295 a month for full coverage

My 91 Chevy truck is $200 for full coverage

Why in the hell does using triple a to have my car jump started 3 times within 2 weeks forever curse me with DOUBLE the price of car insurance . It's fucking absurd.

I use state farm. I'm wondering if I go somewhere else will the triple a thing follow me?

I have no wrecks. There is no reason my insurance should be this high. When I talked to the lady she said it was because of triple a

I had no idea using that would do this. I thought it was a perk of my insurance

I notice most of the non name brand random bars have terrible knurling, almost non existent and smooth

Most of the name brand bars are $300 ish

Anyone know of a cheaper bar with decent knurling

I know that shortening the ROM is easier to recover from and I really like how my back feels when deadlifting. I feel it helps my posture a lot and I just feel more stable/healthy in my body and better put together if I've been deadlifting regularly

Deadlifts really tax me so I can't do them as often as I'd like.

My plan is to use more block pulls/pull from higher off the floor so that I still get the back benefits but it's easier to recover from

My question is.. does shortening the ROM still work your back just the same ? It's clear your hamstrings and posterior chain are used less the higher you pull from. What about your spinal erectors, upper back, traps, etc. It seems to me since you sort of lock your back and torso in place they'd still be getting pretty much the same amount of work, you'd just be locking them in place for slightly less time since you're pulling from higher ?

You have been dating someone for several months

It's time to meet the parents

The situation is that you are all out to dinner at a restaurant and those present include:

You and your partner

Your partner's mother and father

Your partner's brother and sister

Your partner's brother's wife, your partner's sister's husband

If you are a male and it is your girlfriend's parents you must directly reference her mother's private area and the word vagina must be used

If you are a female and it is your boyfriend's parents you must directly reference his father's private area and the word penis must be used

If it is a gay/lesbian relationship you can choose either the father's or the mother's to mention and the relevant word must be used

Assume you cannot mention the challenge in any way or the money you receive, if you do at any point (to anyone, ever) you lose the money. What you say has to be at a time where everyone is focused on and paying attention to you and it has to be clear and audible. They must understand you

If you do it you get $10,000 deposited into your bank account immediately following dinner, tax free no questions asked

Are you doing it and what do you say

I've had very limited relationships.

I didn't have my first serious one until just before 30. I was with a woman for about 3 years. Ended up moving in and planned to get married.

It didn't work out and we parted.

I met another woman and we were together about 5 years. We had a child with severe physical and intellectual disabilities. We also lived together and had planned to get married

That one ended too.

Both times they left me.

When the first one left I spent a long time blaming myself and suffering under memories of my failures, how I could've done better, the part I played.

I was determined to do better if I met someone else. When I did and it also ended up not working out, I lived and still live in what feels like a prison where the bars are my inadequacies, shortcomings, failures, limitations, and self-blame/criticism. Even things I clearly know are/were not my fault, I imagine if only I was smarter, or tried harder, or put just a little more effort even though I was already giving it all I had, things could have been different for my relationships

I can still see so vividly arguments, conflicts, coldness where only warmth and love was needed. Where we went and started to go off course. All the memories haunt me.

It has been about 3 years since my child's mom left. I don't feel like the fog has lifted and I don't know how to get rid of it.

I miss her and I'd like to reunite. I know that is not possible

I've been in therapy for multiple years now, and have tried medications on and off.

I think ultimately I had my shot(s) and I wasn't whatever it is I needed to be to make them work. And as I get older I look back with even more regret and shame for the past, because I see how clearly how I could have handled situations better. And, obviously, time is running out for me.

I think I probably do want love and someone to share my life with, but I can't bear to lose anyone else. I think this is normal for some of the things that have happened, but it has been nearly 3 years since my child's mother and I separated and I still cannot get out of this hole of loss and regret and shame.

I am not in a place to meet someone else. I've spent the last few years just trying to find a stable place for myself, which is proving more difficult than I would have expected. I know at some point in some way I am going to have to forgive myself. I feel a bit helpless on how to make that happen