u/xxxobird

Like really, daytime or night time life. Preferably nighttime ngl. But I don’t mind being creative and trying new things.

I’ve been bored outa my mind and need a change of my routine

Or even just a good place to get high and vibe?

Desperate lol

I did a spell today, to help me soften my energy (glamour).

I had plans. So I had to sit and wait for it to completely burn. I dipped when it finally burned out.

I had plans with someone I was trying to know. It was really great. I felt great. Until my energy dipped bad. Very unexpectedly. I chalked it up to the weed.

Turns out she was a witch. That’s when I started to be in tuned with her knowing information about me. I did not enjoy the energy. And followed my instincts to removed myself quickly. Got home. And went to grab incense to cleanse my space but when I came back, my glamour spell was relit. Burning again.

Two flames.

I cleansed everything. Took a cleansing shower. Protection spell.

I’m a baby still. So it’s a jolt.

Does anyone have any wisdom on this?

Loner but super chill vibes! Trying to see if anyone would be down to just listen to music and relax w me at Reedley Beach this weekend.

Love horror movies: The Collector (2009).
Current music preference?
Goth, R&B, more idk how to describe

We can color or something🖤✨ just want to enjoy the weekend w someone

I was looking forward to this night. I have been very sexually frustrated and got this date with this incredibly hot guy.

Im not going into detail but when the moment came.. I just closed up. It’s like he couldn’t slip in. It was hard. It was frustrating.

I’ve been looking forward to it for so long and I just fucked it up. I was turned on. I wanted it so bad. And my body wasn’t cooperating.

Why? Was it a mental thing? Jesus Christ closing my legs for me spiritually? lol. But I’m disappointed. Not only with how the night went. But in myself

Shits just UGH when you just wanna fuck x

Anyone have this happen?

Hey! I’m still discovering my journey in all this so I wouldn’t label myself anything rn.

But yesterday, I went to this crystal boutique and was picking up things for myself and my family. While there, my chest started to feel heavy and almost sore?? Had to call it out to my friend just bcs it was that apparent. And it took a while to finally feel back to normal, even after I had already left

Then it reminded me of when I passed it years ago and got a whiff of the incense and other smells and felt a similar hit.

I truly do wonder what that is

I feel my body CONSTANTLY exhausted by the vast amount of information given to me on a daily basis. I partially have an understanding that’s what the government wants. Exhaustion over energy to actually do something. I want to do something. I want to be apart of the change.

How does anyone manage?

I have a growing life outside all this. A big part of that has helped me not feel so stuck. But it’s such a luxury. And all you can think of is how you can lose it all again if you mess up.

I so desperately want to leave. But economically I have nothing in my name.

Is the outside any better?

Hey, idk if it’s allowed here but I just wanted to vent a bit. I'm starting to get so much envy rn. Especially when it comes to the body mods community! I work in childcare work, more because I got stuck in this direction. And with how difficult it is in the job market rn, it feels like l'm going to continue to be stuck and never get any of the mods I want.
I'd be so heavily pierced and tattooed, with this beautiful idea of getting my scleras done.
There's this idea of being so myself when I envision myself with all this work done. To be dramatic.

It feels like idk?? Crushing soul wise l'm not going to be able to do that.

It's a small little vent but does anyone else who lurk here feel the same way?? xx