u/yinyangazov

Hi everyone,

I wanted to share a very profound, realistic vision I experienced a few years ago, which recently led me to a mind-blowing realization about Vedic mythology. I am seeking your perspectives on this.

To give some context without encouraging or romanticizing it: this happened during the comedown of a very powerful LSD trip. The peak had passed hours ago, my mind was settling, and that's when this vision occurred. It lasted for only about 20 seconds, but its impact has stayed with me for years.

Right before the vision appeared, I felt a distinct sensation of a "veil lifting" from my consciousness. It didn't feel like my mind was fabricating an image; rather, it felt as though this cosmic scene is always there, and the lifting of the veil simply allowed me to witness it.
In those 20 seconds, I saw an ancient chariot gliding through the clouds. Inside, there was a god-like figure with white hair and a white beard, radiating a powerful, serene energy, surrounded by numerous angel-like celestial beings.
What struck me the most was the distortion of time. They were moving incredibly slow, embedded in an absolute sense of timelessness. Along with this timelessness, a profound feeling of complete fearlessness and peace washed over me.

For years, this 20-second experience sat in the back of my mind. Recently, I started doing some deep digging into Eastern philosophies and stumbled upon Surya (the Vedic Sun God) and his celestial chariot from the Rigveda.
When I read the texts, I was in complete shock. The description of his chariot, the seven horses representing cosmic rhythm, and the celestial attendants surrounding him perfectly matched what I saw. I had zero prior knowledge of Surya or the Vedas before this.

Particularly, a line from Rigveda 10.170 regarding Surya's journey shook me to my core, as it perfectly articulated what I felt during those 20 seconds:
"The path you trace with your chariot through the sky is in a serenity beyond the comprehension of mortals."
and
Rigveda 1.115, which describes Surya's chariot gliding through the highest paths of heaven, being "the soul of everything that moves and stands still,"
The description of his chariot, the seven horses representing cosmic rhythm, and the celestial attendants (like Usha and Aruna) surrounding him perfectly matched what I saw.

To be clear, I am not a Hindu, and I have always been quite distant from Hinduism. I consider myself spiritual in a broad sense, perhaps leaning a bit towards Buddhist concepts. Because of this, I really don't know how to label or interpret this experience. What does this actually mean? Was it just a massive coincidence, or is there a deeper significance to it? It felt profoundly real, but could it just be my mind tapping into a universal archetype?

How does Hindu philosophy interpret someone "tapping into" this specific Vedic energy or archetype, especially through an altered state of consciousness where the "veil" drops? Has anyone experienced something similar?
Would love to hear your thoughts.

Is it the same for you?

I mean… I’ve always been anxious and I’ve always been skinny, but lately my anxiety has spiked like crazy and I’ve lost a lot of weight

So, I’ve been using Gemini a bit like a therapist lately, and it knows pretty much everything about me, like my bad anxiety and the fact that I’m on medication.

This weekend, I’m planning a little getaway with my girlfriend where we’ll probably drink a bit and, well, maybe do a little more than that. I just wanted to ask Gemini some normal, casual advice about the trip, but because it knows my whole medical history, it just won’t stop lecturing and warning me. Haha.

I literally feel like a teenager trying to hide my "naughty" plans from a strict parent just to get a straight answer. Damnn 😄

Hey everyone.

Like most of you here, I’ve been trying to heal from my trauma for a long time.

Unfortunately, I tend to get pretty hysterical and struggle to act safely or rationally during a crisis. Because of this, I feel like I’ve made a ton of mistakes on my healing journey. I didn't handle my crisis periods well, and I ended up completely wrecking my psychology and nervous system.

I really don't want to dive into the details right now, mostly to avoid triggering myself and not to burden you guys.

But for a long time, because of all this, I’ve been drowning in intense regret, guilt, and loneliness. I’ve fallen into this spiral where it feels like my experiences are “uniquely” messed up, and that I'm not even fighting the same battles as everyone else, and I just can't get out of this loop.

But lately, though, I’ve started wondering: maybe my traumatized brain is just messing with me through severe anxiety?

Could this feeling of 'my struggles are completely unique to me' actually be a common illusion that others experience too?

Knowing if anyone else feels this way would honestly bring me some comfort. It would help me realize that maybe it's just my mind playing tricks on me, and it might lift some of this heavy pessimism.

Dealing with this kind of hopeless mindset on top of the actual healing process is just so exhausting.

If I can gather the courage and energy later on, I might share my story in more detail to get your thoughts. But for now, I think this captures how I feel. Please let me know if any of you have been through or thought about something similar. 🙏🫶

I have depression and anxiety. I haven’t used drugs in a long time, but I’ve started smoking a lot more. Also, for the past 4 nights, I haven’t gone to sleep without getting drunk. I guess everything is really going to shit?

No matter what I do, I just can't stop hoping, even though it hurts.

Because I honestly can't accept the alternative. Sometimes I genuinely believe I’ll get better and I feel happy for a bit, but then I crash even harder.

And when I’m down, I feel like I was just delusional during those good moments. It’s such an exhausting cycle/loop that I can’t seem to get out of.

I’ve been a people pleaser my whole life, and I always felt so much for my close friends who were struggling with their mental health. I’d feel guilty, like I was just being spoiled or failing at life.

Now I’m in my 30s, and looking back, I’ve checked almost every box for mental illness. Depression, anxiety, PTSD, OCD, Borderline, dissociation, and much more…

My point isn't to turn this into a competition. I'm sure everyone is going through incredibly hard things in their own way. In fact, despite everything, I still think it's important to be grateful for what I have…

But honestly, CPTSD is like a cocktail of every mental illness out there. It’s just sooooo exhausting…

Beyler biliyonuz alkol fiyatları aldı başını gitti. Sevdiğim ucuz yollu şaraplar var ama sürekli içiyorum ve artık onlar bile pahalı geliyor. Şu 1,5lt en ucuz şarapların en iyisi hangisidir? Biricik, küp, cümbüş vs.? Başka varsa onu da önerebilirsiniz. Şuan biricik içiyorum bok gibi mk midem yandı. Ne diyonuz var mıdır daha iyisi?

Not: kırmızı şarap

I’m curious about your perspective on the "Fine-Tuning" of the cosmos. When we look at the specific constants required for stars to produce carbon and for life to evolve, where do you stand?

To be clear, when I speak of "necessity," I’m not referring to mysticism or a conscious creator. I’m talking about directionality.

Think of the options as a reflection of the Anthropic Principle:

• Option 1 (Physical Necessity): Aligned with the Strong Anthropic Principle. It suggests that the universe is "wired" to eventually produce observers. Life is an inherent "drive" of the system, much like entropy has a direction.

• Option 2 (Cosmic Coincidence): Aligned with the Weak Anthropic Principle. It suggests that we only observe these "fine-tuned" constants because we happen to exist in a universe that allows it. Life is a rare, accidental occurrence in an indifferent vacuum.

Is the universe "meant" to produce consciousness as a physical necessity, or are we just a happy accident?

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My anxiety is generally very high, but I've noticed something, even when it subsides, I find myself making myself anxious again because of the physical tightness, various somatic sensations, and depressive feelings in my body. It’s almost as if I’m choosing to be anxious. Like I can’t accept any other state, and anxiety is the only thing I can do. Yet, knowing this doesn't help, it makes me more upset. Anyone relate?

Honestly, when I look back at my entire healing process and all these crises, it feels like a dream. I’m struggling so much that my sense of reality is getting blurred. Wtf are we truly living? What is this life even?😓
Sending love and much luck to everyone…..🫶✌️🙏

Bi belgesel izlemek istiyorum ama uzay ya da havan/doğa belgeselleri sıktı. Suç belgeselleri de çok dark oluyo. Survivor tarzı şeyleri seviyorum dağcılık filan ama hepsini izledim sanırım. Kafa dağıtcak güzel belgesel (seri de olabilir) önerileri var mı. Çok seçiciyim ama belki ilginç bişeyler çıkar merak ettim önerileri

Is there a definitive end to enlightenment? Does the process of awakening conclude once one reaches Nirvana, or is it an ongoing deepening?

I won't give specific examples because I want to avoid debates and speculation about names, but for instance, some enlightened people seem to be at a different stage than others. If someone isn't a fraud, are they expected to be as enlightened as the Buddha? Some spiritual teachers also claim that this process is infinite. I'm confused. Toughts?

Hi everyone.

I posted yesterday about how my anxiety has skyrocketed as my system started to 'thaw' from a long-term freeze state. First of all, I hope I’m not bothering the community by asking similar things again; but this place is truly helpful and I don't have any other resources to consult. I ask for your understanding and patience🙏

I'm now becoming more concerned about the physical side of this process. Along with the anxiety, my long-term sciatica and nerve pains have intensified significantly. Specifically, I've had a small area of numbness (about two fingers wide) under my foot for 4 days straight that hasn't gone away. My neck and back also feel extremely tight and constricted.

I interpret this as my body resisting a level of release it isn't used to, but the persistence of the numbness is making me quite anxious. Since I don't have an SE practitioner and I'm working through this on my own using Yoga Nidra and body-based awareness, I wanted to ask:

Is it normal for specific physical symptoms and numbness to last this long during the 'renegotiation' process?Or is this a sign that I’m doing something wrong? I’m afraid I might be mishandling the process? Especially this persistent numbness under my foot makes me worry if I might have caused some kind of permanent nerve damage. Any insights or similar experiences would be very helpful.

Thank you once again for your interest and your answers. 🙏

Hi everyone,

Can the somatic healing process or nervous system regulation actually make you feel more anxious in the beginning? I feel like as I work on healing, I’m becoming even more anxious. Could this be related to my nervous system becoming more active and sensitive as it starts to "thaw" or wake up? I'd love to hear if anyone else has experienced this. Thanks!

Hi everyone,

here’s a quick summary: My nervous system is stuck on "high alert" mode, and I’m dealing with persistent anxiety. Physically, this manifests as intense stiffness in my neck, chest and back, along with occasional numbness in my feet and legs. Has anyone tried acupuncture for similar issues? Did it actually work for you?

My main concern is whether it could potentially overwhelm or worsen a nervous system that is already completely burnt out. I’d love to hear your thoughts and personal experiences.

Thanks!

Can somatic experiencing or healing the nervous system make you feel depressed at the beginning?