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So I'm looking to get a diagnosis for depression and maybe an anxiety disorder. However, I've never been to a KK before. I need to know, like step by step..how would it go? Like after I go in, I would give them my IC and then register I suppose? What would happen after that? Like can someone explain exactly what happens until I get to meet the general doctor? Also what do I say?

All I know is that the process won't be straightforward as private clinics, where I could just register and wait for name to be called to see th doctor. I need to know what would happen throughout being at the KK.

It's part of my anxious condition that even 'figuring it out' when I go there tmr makes me excessively worry rn. Someone, pls help me out :(

P.S. I already made an appointment through MySejahtera

An Update from ‘im scared i will stab myself’ post: here

Hi. Im still struggling financially.

Im scared of professional help..

I wont go today.

But just in case i am ready to let it out.

I want to talk to a therapist. I think i really do need help.

Can anyone suggest me any therapist (website or face to face) that I can book later?

Asking early to survey and manage finances.

Also isnt it crazy that mental health for us is part of a surviving subscription too? Like I would cut down my food budget to rm50 and low just to accommodate for therapist session. (If im ready)

Thanks

I would really like to get myself diagnosed with a psychiatrist and get medicated. Ive been reading up but I got really confused with all of the information on how to do it here. I dont mind private if they are not that expensive. Anyone can help me guide or share their experience?

M22 i don't really post much but i feel like i'm at such a low point right now, just wondering if anybody else had to take a year off due to mental illness? i'm on pristiq, lorazepam and xanax rn and i don't really know what to do during this year... i still live with my parents and am kind of worried i'm being such a burden on them. i health comes first but for me despite having seen a psychiatrist since standard 3 i'm still in denial of my mental health condition. anyway, hope you are well whoever is reading this <3

I have been wondering lately if I need professional help or therapy for myself. Honestly i am in a pretty good place mentally right now ( I think ) but I decided that its about time I addressed my issues. After talking with a friend I realised that I may have been born with them.

One thing that I was born with was that I was always curious and day dreamed a lot even as kid. Also since I was kid I have been kind and I never held onto grudges and I usually forgive after falling asleep, my brain is just coded that way. I'm also very aware of my emotions and rarely let me anger sad or any emotions to show through my actions or face. When I was a kid I used to cry a lot but after being told boys shouldn't cry I lost the ability to cry.

My life has always been pretty traumatic. I was hated by my grandmother even before I was born and she held onto that grudge all the way until now. She abused physically and verbally all my life until I turned 16. After 16 she kind of realised I she couldn't that anymore. It was bad enough she did all that but she would also lie to family members about me and spread rumours. Honestly I can't tell if that affected my mental because I genuinely don't feel much from it. These days I still treat her well as I can't find it in me to hate her.

Besides that I used to go to an international school and lived abroad so I when i moved to malaysia and went to an all malay school I was bullied relentlessly for bot being able to speak malay and my skin colour and so much more. I know this affected my mental because I went from being a curious and active kid to a quiet kid.

Move to highschool I went to MRSM so it was also malay dominated and a boarding school I was bullied relentlessly and when i cried I was bullied even more so i just stopped crying. The bullying was so bad I genuinely wonder how I survived. I was Beat up, Outcasted, verbally abused, SA'd, and so much more. It was honestly the worst 5 years of my life.

After graduating I went to collage and uni and slowly I was starting to be able to socialise again. Though im kinda weird I would say but I have a circle of friends. Im slowly getting better as I work on myself. I did find out that I inherited anxiety from my dad and Im 100% sure I have ADHD and autism to an extent too.

Im thinking of going to therapy about all this. Though im still a student and have no money. It doesnt help that I think that getting diagnosed will end up me having a permanent record and not being able to get a job once i graduate.

Sorry I didnt even realise how long this is and if its too long just read the last paragraph 😅. Any tips would be much appreciated.

M29, just wondering how would therapy benefit me, what can a therapist tell me which I don't already know?

I know I'm depressed

I know the reason for my depression

I know what I'm supposed to do to fix my depression

I probably need meds to stay sane

so in this case, what does a 1hr therapy session per week for a month bring to the table? what is a typical therapy session like, besides being an interview and picking my brain out for solutions for me to fix my issues?

I am not willing to commit such a large sum of money for something which might not be that beneficial for me.

😂Therapy is expensive so welcome to my Ted talk. So I never thought I’d want to yap but I need to get it off my chest. Have y’all ever tried everything but nothing seems to work? I’m in college/uni I have been looking for a job almost every single day and no job seems to be needing me. I’m at a point where I don’t know how I’ll pay my fees, mom’s bills and everything including groceries and toiletries!!!!!!!!!! I even started a business but nothinggggggg😭 I don’t even know if I give up trying what will happen maybe I’ll just go and rest up stairs (iykyk), starting social media too omg everything needs a miracle.What should I do I’m at a breaking point. Thanks for coming to my Ted Talk.

Hello! I am a long time sufferer of anxiety and recently it has gotten worse due to shit happening in my personal life. I am usually able to hide it well but the physical symptoms of it show up in my daily life especially when I am about to do a presentation at work where I am the centre of attention.

I work a corporate job and want to do well, however, when I need to give a presentation, I get heart palpitations and am clearly out of breath as though I just ran a marathon, eventhough I am just standing still or seated down. I can’t breathe.

I have a presentation in a 3 weeks and although it is a small one with practically zero stakes, I am so nervous just thinking about it. This clearly affects my performance at work.

I am seeing a therapist however, I am looking for something that can help calm the physical symptoms and I heard that the off label use of beta blockers might help.

Have any of you used beta blockers for anxiety and where can I get it prescribed? Do I go to my local GP or do I need to see a psychiatrist?

Thank you in advance from a very anxious soul.

Hi, im 20+ and i live in Cyberjaya. I have very very severe contamination OCD (i haven’t been diagnosed yet) but i am 100% sure i have it, cos it’s not normal at all.

I have been going thru this mental illness for about two years now and im so fucking sick of it. I can’t live my normal life without having to think of ocd. My hands are super bad, it’s ugly and so red cos i have been washing my hands excessively till it gets bleed. Now im insecure whenever i want to go out with someone cus ofc they will ask about my hands every single time. I spend more than one hour in the toilet, when i shower + pooping cus i wash the whole toilet repeatedly and wash my hair + body till im satisfied that it’s clean. I cant go out with my friends anymore like i used to. I cant go to public toilets anymore. I cant go to crowded places. I am sick of it!!! I always need to spend money to buy hand wash, body wash and etc.

Some days i just say fuck this, and I will less thinking about it. But some days are just freaking hard. I cant stop thinking that i will get contaminated every second of the day, and it’s so exhausting. I realised that ever since im aware of this illness, i feel like my mind always occupied with negative thoughts and i cant remember the old things in the past. My mind and body just shuts down. And with all the chemicals and stress i put onto my body, i think im gonna get cancer one day huhu

I did go to free therapy sessions but only 3X (online). And now i need to seek a Dr, cus i dont want to live my life like this forever.

PLEASE HELP ME.

I want to learn more about autism/adhd by speaking with people directly.

All this information online is neat but I would like to interact with others offline who understand neurodivergence.

I’m sorry for simple post. I feel like life has let me down so much.

I only rely on fantasies to keep me going. Fictional worlds are the only reason I am able to be happy and to move forward. If someone were to take my ability to fantasise I will crumble.

The abuse has been since I was 10.
And now I am 21 it’s still ongoing, not as worst as when i was a minor that the adults think they can hurt me physically.
Now at 21 they dont respect whatever I did. I cleaned the house, but they will always think i’m the lazy one. They will always think im wrong.

My family is like the worst roommate you could ever live. They disregard cleanliness and will keep insulting how I look and what I do and never acknowledge me.

If I crash out about how I am tired of cleaning their messes all they do is yell back and say that I should clean genuinely. And if im not, i should not clean at all. They said no one forces me too.

If I didnt clean at all the house will be hazardous. Maggots everywhere. Im so tired of dealing with maggots if i gone for four days not cleaning their mess.

And now.

Everytime i clean, i feel like at any point i will stab myself.

I feel like im going to stab myself over and over if I saw them making mess and yell at me if I tell them not to do it.

This is just one of those little things in my life that i hate.

And I hate that theres also the bigger thing.

I have completely gave up on life.

I dont feel human.

I feel like humans are far more superior than I am. I feel like im worst. I dont belong anywhere. No one understands me and i am not exaggerating.

I hate that I still can function outside i still can laugh and enjoy myself because of my dependency on fictional reality. That makes people think whatever I feel isnt worse enough.

But its always a matter that I am my own therapist. I am my own motivation. I never talk abt my problem to anyone. I just let myself depressed and when I can think clearly i will soothe myself.

But when I am in shutdown mode that i cannot perform. I cannot make jokes or even say hi, why do people withdraw from me? Were they only friends with me because of how good I have performed?

When I am not on stage, is it the reason to leave my show?

I only have less than 10 acquaintances. Yes i called them acquaintances. They are not I would call a friend. They would leave if I stop performing

But im so tired sometimes and i dont have a choice.

And I am so ugly. I feel like i am not human at all.

It feels like my skin is a suit. I dont know whats inside me truly.

I believe in God’s plan. And I always will think good of what He gave me. Suffering or happiness. God is one of the reason i can move forward too. Knowing heaven exist.

But i dont even know if I am clean enough for Heaven and I know im a person of Hell.

And i wonder why God let me live like this. Do He hates me so much?

I want to stab myself to death.
I want to not be with humans.
Humans are cruel.
I hate humans. The contradiction of whatever they claim they are.

Doctors never really care about you they just try to make a living.

Psychiatrists are tired dealing with you.

Therapist charges you absurdly.

Friends would go once you’re too hard to understand.

I do not want to be a human.
Please God.

Make me something else.
Turn me into animals,
Even an abused one.

I just need to stop being a human.

Hi everyone! I'm supporting a student who's been struggling with social anxiety that's significantly affecting their school attendance. They've been missing a lot of school and I really want to help them keep up with their education while they work through this.

I'm looking for tutors who:

- Can do online sessions or home visits (in-person school isn't currently manageable for them
- Are affordable or flexible with pricing - the family is facing financial difficulties
- Are based in or can cover the Selangor area

Any recommendations would be really appreciated - whether that's individual tutors, tutoring centres with sliding scale fees, NGOs, or any other resources you know of.

Thank you so much!

For context, I did get diagnosed with ADHD much later in life (in my 30s) but prior to that I had spent over a decade being treated for bipolar disorder by government hospitals thanks to a self-diagnosis as a teenager with limited knowledge on the internet.

Recently, I had sought out further understanding about my mental health as autism is very prominent in both sides of my family, across the spectrum.

Eventually, the clinical psychologists concluded that I might have complex PTSD or CPTSD, however, they were not confident in confirming the diagnosis definitively.

Ever since then, it feels like a lot of repressed memories of my childhood have started coming back up. It has been taking quite a toll on me.

I do feel some level of distrust with most psychiatrists that I can access affordably because they seem a lot more keen on treating me for mood disorders than with anything more than that.

Unfortunately, I still encounter a lot of pushback on ADHD treatment at my regular place because I was not "diagnosed as a child" and that my "parents would have noticed". They don't consider that my parents may have also been experiencing their own undiagnosed conditions and the added factor of limited medical attention due to financial difficulties.

I do feel at a loss. I'd love to be able to work with professionals who care to look into matters holistically or fully, it just does not feel like something possible for me at the moment.

This post is mainly a rant, I'm not holding up much hope on possible solutions but I'm open to shared experiences and discussions.