I’m 26 not that young and yet I’m facing rude and disrespectful people who were once nice to me due to me being young and single. It started with a someone finding out my medical chart and told the rest of staff. And now some of them are being rude to me.
My grandmother and aunt cut me off too.
People are being rude. Idk why. The nurse gave a patient I was talking to a dirty look about me bc I didn’t hear her knocking to get my attention. Then the guy I was talking to gave me eye movements walk away and I was like okay? Then when I left I heard him say I don’t like you behind my back.
Then I was having a convo with a nurse and some patients and I left as the convo went on and then the nurse knocked on my door later being like what was that? She said We talked about you after and that was the main topic of the convo bc we all thought it was weird. And I was like that’s what people do?
I have trouble getting though to the doctors about my needs and parents won’t pick up the phone.
I am not spelling right and my speech is g
Stuttering.
Went back on seroquel and gained a bunch of weight around my face. Hard taking showers and being pregnant makes it difficult to eat and drink well. Trying to stay well but voices are trying to take over and manage my life and make up excuses why I can’t. I keep calling them stupid because this suffering they put us through is stupid.
Anyways have a good day people.
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Voices are taking away my ability to feel
They want to pick on me and push me down until my self worth is nothing. How do you get them to stop? They keep threatening me to bully me.pretending to be friends and pulling my consciousness around and away from my body. They want to bully the shit out of me
She’s super toxic.
Anyways she leeches off of my energy and is scapegoating me
She’s allowing me to be schizophrenic which makes no sense
She’s trying to overpower me and take over. She has taken over and is now trying to take the power I have over my body, mind and life.
I can feel her looking through my eyes and feeding me my own thoughts. She just sits there and watches then makes faces in my face to act. She pretends she’s me. Then when I push back she latches onto my stomach and presses me down and causes pain.
She’s like a literal leech in my body.
I can barely think for myself have convinced me I don’t have schizophrenia. They say they’re other versions of me and this is purely spiritual and I have to find a spiritual way to get a ex. Friend who is possessing me out of my body.
I truly believe the girl is in my energy but the voices are convincing me that they are real. The belief that I no longer have schizophrenia is becoming less and less true even though I know they’re not real?
I feel bad saying that because they beg me to help them as they scream as other people I used to know torture them and are convincing me they are real too even though they’re all just voices.
Instead of them pulling me into their reality they are coming into my reality.
If I don’t have schizophrenia then why do they go away when I’m on medication? Because they are tricking me by going quiet when I’m on meds and act up when the meds wear off to prove they’re always there?
They say reality is when I’m off medication therefore when I’m on medication that’s when reality isn’t real.
They’re really messing with what’s real and what’s not.
I said no, I said no I don’t offer my energy to you but then I felt a pinch and he kept taking it.
How do I get him out of my energy?
I feel like I’m completely unaware that someone else has taken control and is giving me my thoughts and is moving me around and ‘allowing’ me to do things. It’s full possession. How do I shake her off? I fucking hate that another person is controlling me. Now she’s switching me around like I’m controlling her.
I can see what she’s doing.
How did you get out of this?
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Voices tell me I don’t have schizophrenia, the truth is that there are multiple versions of me being tortured by my ex drug dealer in spirit and I’m being forced to listen to them begging for relief while I am ‘delusional’ and that is actually happening and they are watching me be taken further from the truth.
I have tactile hallucinations of being raped and masterbate to get the feeling away. There’s a version of me being tortured in my body while I watch myself being raped spiritually.
The voices are asking you to listen to them. I am sick of them. The ones crying for help and being tortured, the girl who uses my body for sexual pleasure and causes the torture and the ex drug dealer who is raping me spiritually and also causing the torture.
They seem to get away with it. But the voices keep convincing me I am not schizophrenic. And are begging me to believe that I am not schizophrenic.
I don’t know what they want me to do bc if I am non compliant I go into the government’s garbage. So idk man I’m just trying to have a good life.
Go away voices.
Will be living on my own soon. I feel a weight in my chest when I’m alone. What can I do to relieve loneliness when living alone?
I ask why don’t people care about me or love me or use a caring tone with me when everyone has hardened up and is curt with me.
I’m going through a lot, single mom and pregnant. I am asking for emotional support and my dad called me entitled and my mom said she’s busy and hung up on me. I got into a fight with both of them. They make me seem selfish for needing emotional support while that is part of parenting. Then my dad said emotional support is ‘part’ of parenting. Ridiculous.
Why are people close their doors to offering emotional support now that I’m a single mother? How can I prepare emotionally when everyone in my family is hardening up with me for some reason? Why does this happen? Why are people closing the door on me?
This is his solution because he’s just yelling at me for being schizophrenic at this point.
Stuck in a reincarnation trap: spiritual people made a deal with me since then I have felt their vibe in my energetic space influencing my thoughts actions and especially negative emotions to feed off my negative energy for harvesting and farming. They are spiritually rich by taking on spiritual aspects and stealing from other cultures and people. I feel energetic pressure on me and negativity from no where. I have resolved my trauma and yet they attack me and harvest my suffering for spiritual gain. They are generating my negative energy to sustain themselves and their high vibration and being sensation junkies
How do I get out of this cycle?
I received the sun for my child then got the seven of swords and the sun with myself being held in the hanged man in her energy (Pisces). How do I get out of her energy and stop her (seven of swords) from taking my child in spirit?