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Hallo an alle! Ich stehe gerade vor einer ziemlich schwerwiegenden Entscheidung bezüglich meines Werdegangs.

Zurzeit studiere ich im 6. Semester Maschinenbau jedoch sind meine Leistungen aufgrund persönlicher Probleme mehr als nur erbärmlich, sodass ich mit dem Gedanken spiele das Studium abzubrechen und eine Ausbildung zu beginnen. Ich werde vorab noch mit der Studienberatung meiner Uni reden, aber bin mir ziemlich sicher, dass eine Ausbildung (und der damit einhergehende geregelte Tagesablauf) für meine Situation den besseren Weg darstellt.

Nun habe ich aber im gleichen Zug panische Angst davor auf eine Ausbildung umzusteigen, da mir von meinem Vater eingetrichtert wurde, dass man nur mit einem Studium in der Industrie gescheit leben kann (er selbst hat seinen Meister als Elektriker gemacht und sich in einem großen Unternehmen hochgearbeitet, sodass er mittlerweile mit 54 \~120.000€ brutto im Jahr verdient. Wenn ich nun das Gehalt mit den üblichen technischen Ausbildungsgehältern vergleiche lande ich da bei weniger als die Hälfte.

Bin ich wirklich so verblendet, dass ich mir mit weniger als 60.000€ brutto kein angenehmes Leben leisten kann, oder wäre es doch sinnvoller mein Studium auf krampf durchzuziehen? Ich hatte zwar ein okay'isches Abi mit 2,1, befürchte aber im gleichen Zug, dass mein hohes Alter ein Problem darstellen könnte (theoretisch hätte ich eine Ausbildung ja auch schon direkt nach dem Abi anfangen können und habe damit quasi 4Jahre verschwendet).

Hallo an alle! Ich stehe gerade vor einer ziemlich schwerwiegenden Entscheidung bezüglich meines Werdegangs.

Zurzeit studiere ich im 6. Semester Maschinenbau jedoch sind meine Leistungen aufgrund persönlicher Probleme mehr als nur erbärmlich, sodass ich mit dem Gedanken spiele das Studium abzubrechen und eine Ausbildung zu beginnen. Ich werde vorab noch mit der Studienberatung meiner Uni reden, aber bin mir ziemlich sicher, dass eine Ausbildung (und der damit einhergehende geregelte Tagesablauf) für meine Situation den besseren Weg darstellt.

Nun habe ich aber im gleichen Zug panische Angst davor auf eine Ausbildung umzusteigen, da mir von meinem Vater eingetrichtert wurde, dass man nur mit einem Studium in der Industrie gescheit leben kann (er selbst hat seinen Meister als Elektriker gemacht und sich in einem großen Unternehmen hochgearbeitet, sodass er mittlerweile mit 54 ~120.000€ brutto im Jahr verdient. Wenn ich nun das Gehalt mit den üblichen technischen Ausbildungsgehältern vergleiche lande ich da bei weniger als die Hälfte.

Bin ich wirklich so verblendet, dass ich mir mit weniger als 60.000€ brutto kein angenehmes Leben leisten kann, oder wäre es doch sinnvoller mein Studium auf krampf durchzuziehen? Ich hatte zwar ein okay'isches Abi mit 2,1, befürchte aber im gleichen Zug, dass mein hohes Alter ein Problem darstellen könnte (theoretisch hätte ich eine Ausbildung ja auch schon direkt nach dem Abi anfangen können und habe damit quasi 4Jahre verschwendet).

I havent felt this happy in literal years. Ive been working part time in this store for ~3years by now (Im a student) and last month I finally got an opportunity and found my courage to quit.

The whole process went suprisingly smooth. While I hate my job and my manager, Ive been on good terms with pretty much everyone else, so everyone was very understanding why Ill leave.

My manager wasnt pleased, scolding me about how Is screw him and my colleagues over, since were already lacking staff, but I dobviously didnt care about that. Afterall, he wasnt my employer (he owns multiple stores) and with that one Ive been on great terms since the day I started. He said hed loved to keep me, but that hes thankfull for my time and that he will write me a favorable report that I can hand in with my future applications.

Oh, Im also on 35hours overtime, with my contract set on 40h per month, so Ill either get lots of freetime, or a bigger payment. Both are fine for me.

I havent played past the lvl 70 quests, nor did I even meet Alphinaud yet, but after being happy to reunite with Alisaie (shes my favorite Scion afterall), I was super ready to get the band back together and to save Norvrandt. That happiness lasted maybe 5 minutes before the actual reality the people in Amh Araeng live in settled in.

Chosing suicide through their poisoned favorite food is beyond fucked up, but at the same time... I get it. What really broke me though was Tesleens death. The tonal shift compared to Stormblood is almost terrifying. Everything feels way more real, as if they took out the fantasy out of final fantasy.

Anyways, I think I get it now why people like ShB so much. So far it feels denser and more gutwrenching than anything before it.

Only thing that annoys me is that I watched the trailer. Would have prefered not knowing about Minfilias return, but thats on me I guess.

Small edit: the soundtrack is incredible too

Another edit:

I just met Alphinaud and learned two more very important things. 1. Ill burn this godforsaken city down and 2. Sin eaters are hot af.

Hey everyone! Ive been diagnosed with focal epilepsy back in 2021 (23yo now) and honestly? Things have been pretty good for some time. It took a while until we found the right dosage, but since then Ive been seizure free for up to 14months and only relapsed becauee I forgot my meds.

Today was different. When I woke up I felt very sleepy and had an unusual wetness between my legs. At first I thought Ive just sweated alot during sleep or that I spilled water, but when my tounge started hurting a few minutes later I knew that I had a nocturnal seizure (which was fucking scary as Ive never had one before).

Well, nothing to be done about that and after taking like 60min to get up and take a shower I changed my sheets and was ready for a long day of staying in bed. At around 2 I managed to grab something to eat and sat down at my pc to game a little (~2hours I think).

Thats when things got REALLY bad. Out of nowhere I experienced another TC. Usually Im quick enough to lie down or get into bed but not this time. I lost conciousness and when I woke up I was still seizing. I obviously had no idea how long, but it felt LONG. Once that one stopped I returned to bed, now being pretty much a walking corpse, especially my head was killing me. Then I saw my chair lying on it side on my TILE FLOOR.

So yes, I did fall out of my chair and probably hit my head. I considered going to the hospital, but I was home alone and felt so exhausted that I didnt manage to get up, thus continuing playing living dead.

This all changed when without a warning I vomited all over my freshly cleaned sheets. Not just once, but 4 times. I literally cried when it happened, but now I just HAD to go to the hospital. So again, I took a shower, changed my sheets and got dressed, but these two things took me more than 70minutes and I imidiatlly fell back asleep, only to wake up 20min later to have another puke attack thus ruining my sheets again (I placed a buckt next to me but didnt manage to grab it in time.

When I wanted to swap again I noticed that Im out of spare sheets, which is really fucked up. Im now trying to clean the matraze itself as good as possible with baking soda (natron) in hopes they will be clean enough for me to sleep until I can wash my dirty ones tomorrow.

This whole thing felt beyond dehuminizing and the cherry on top is this: my government recently changed law regarding calling in sick. You can no longer hand in a doctors note up to 3 days later AND calling your doctor isn sufficieng enough anymore, so if my employer would be a real dick Id be forced to take the bus to my neurologists office (80min one way) in a state similar to how Im feeling right now.

I hate myself.

Im really confused what changed to be honest, but I cant seem to find any leads apart from csing in most games, though even that became less and less common the higher I got.

My basic gameplan on most champs is: 1.keep the lane even when nothings going on 2. Push if youre stronger and/or need/want to roam with your jgl 3.Swap with bot once the first towers gone and look for roams and depending on the gamestate take enemy camps AND most importantly NEVER GET CAUGHT ON SIDE.

I think Im decent at tracking my own jgl, but struggle with doing the same for the enemy. I also tilt way too fast if my lane is an annoying matchup (Viktor, Xerath, Locke and Veigar are the most annoyong imo)

Hey yall! Ive been maining adc for the last 7 seasons, hitting my peak of e2 this season, but Im honestly exhausted from the gameplay loop and switched to mid. So far I tried out a few control mages and assasins (Aurora, Ori, Ahri, Lb and Akali), with especially the later feeling suprisingly natural to pick up. I usually get a lead through solo kills, or (mostly) roaming.

Now heres the issue: after switching to side laning after 15min my impact drops to literally 0. I maybe manage to get a T2, but if my team doesnt do well in the meantime the game feels uncarriable.

On adc its the opposite leads feel impossible to get early, but the game gets easier as time goes on. What am I missing here? Its super frustrating starving as a i.e. 4/1/3 Akali on sides.

Ive been working part time in the same supermarket for almost 3 years now, started right when I got into university.

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I told myself that Id just do it until I find something better/more fitting with my engineering degree, but ended up staying until now, because I didnt find anything better and my already shaky mental health didnt help with getting out of this job either. Ill be honest, my coworkers in the late shift were super awesome. Most of them were either in training, or students like myself so we did get along very well and Id even call some of them my friends.

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But god damn does everything else SUCK. Our managers exclusively work early so I literally never see them, yet they complain every other day about some bullshit we didnt finish in time, or how lazy the late shift is in general. Meanwhile were usually 3-4 part-timers that get paid exactly minimum wage and have 0 motivation to put in any extra effort as long as the customers are happy, yet we have to deal with MORE customers, while being 2-3workers LESS than the early shift.

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Im usually our main cashier, since customers actually gave me positive feedback back when I was still new, so I should be able to literally shut my brain off and focus on nothing but scaning while repeating the same 3 phrases over and over again. Well, this doesnt work when you have only one extra cashier whos usually busy with other tasks, like taking care of our 'bottle-return-system', or searching for packages customers sent to our store.

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Both of these things are obviously great services, but its too much work for 1 person to manage all at once when his primary task should be to assist me at check-out. We do have one more coworker with us, but hes busy with taking care of more administrative tasks, so hes usually not an option (this guy is a part-timer too).

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Well, and today on this GLORIOUS SUNDAY our manager dared to complain about how everyone should take this job more seriously and how we shouldnt always call for the 'shift-leader' whenever theres an issue. I have a private chat with my friends from the late shift and we laught our asses off after reading this, like FUCK YOU were trying to keep this show running and you want us to not call the one out of 3 persons with a hint of authority (again, none of us are qualified by any means)?

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Its such a common occurance that a customers cards declined, or they want to return something, which are both tasks that ONLY management is allowed to handle and I have 8 customers in line complaining why I cant continue or call for the second cashier, whos busy serving other customers. This has become such a common thing that our regulars feel pity for me and joke about how fucked this place is.

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Damn, this turned out wayyyy longer than expected, especially since Ive got some positive news: Im moving and found a better place where I can work less and essentially make the same amount of money as I do right now!!! 3 more months and I can say Adios, byebye, Ciao and especially Auf Nimmerwiedersehen!

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I will finally escape retail hell...

So far I have only watched up until owari s2 and read the kizu and bake novels, so I didnt dig deeper into the new anime releases.

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With the series being this old I thought that he would have wrapped up the story years ago, but Ill be damned this madlad is still on it.

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Ill probably be 40 until everythings animated, but I hope that there will be translations of the novels sooner.

Its insane really. People just seem to hate me to a point where the enemy teams doing nothing but focusing me down even if this means my team will clean up the fight afterwards. My overall k/d suffers so fucking much, yet we usually win most of those games.

Its just so frustrating. I can still go somewhat even in lane (same cs, but obviously bleeding xp) and win most 2v2s, but end up 0/2 or worse at 14min. Dont get me wrong, there obviously are times where I simply overstay (>50% hp), but I have no idea what to do when the enemy Vi/J4/Naafiri/etc. decides to give up topside just to make my life a living hell. I had way to many games where Im having 40% of our team deaths while still dealing lots of damage.

Jungle tracking is by far my biggest weakness atm and I already noticed improvements (was 1 game from e1, sadly Im now back in e4), but genuinely, whats the point when Im getting fucked 24/7.

I do enjoy playing in emerald, since most games are challenging, yet managable, but 'braindead' stuff like this tilts me way more than anything Ive encountered in gold or plat.

Small edit: Id also appreciate any advice you have for the Ashe matchup. Right now Im banning Brand, but she seems ridiculous OP, even more so than Jinx.

I have been asking myself this for a while now. I dont watch a lot of LPL except for BLG and TES matches, but Ive watched pretty much every LCK game of the last 2years through Sally.

Both of them are on average the best midlaners and with Knight arguably even the best player of their region, but the way they carry their games feel completly different to me. Personally, while definetly impressive, Im not a fan of Chovys playstyle and think Knight regularly giga-gapping lanes is way more entertaining to watch, but if they would face off in their current form I dont think I could pick a clear winner.

I do believe that if they meet in a 1v1 environment Knight should win 8/10times, but in a regular match its very likely that Chovy would enable his mates way more to a point, where a 5v5 late game teamfight would always end up in GenGs favor (mostly because I think GenGs individual ceiling is way higher than BLGs).

Ive been living with moderate depression for 4years now and FINALLY opened up to my parents about it a week ago. As a result we did get me an appointment at my family doctor and now afterwards I somehow feel worse than before.

I explained my situation to him and he agreed that Im most likely depressed and that its important to treat it, but... all he did was giving me a refereal to a psychiatrist.

Well heres the thing. I did already looked for therapy in the past, but got rejected every single time, despite each and every one of them telling me that Im most likely moderatly depressed.

Whats the point of all of this then? That referal feels like its nothing but a waste paper, if it wont help me find a therapist. He did recommend me an alternative treatment through Ketamine, though this would be very fucking expensive and I refuse to believe that a few sessions of Keta would free me from my addiction.

Hey yall! I know this is a controvertial topic, but I want to add a mage to my botlane champ pool and Im considering a few different options right now, those being: Sera, Hwei and Annie.

Out of those 3, Annie is by far my highest mastery champ with ~100k mp and Sera the decond highest with ~30k. Ive never played Hwei before.

Now, as far as I know Annie isnt one of the usual mages you see on bot and Im not sure if shes a troll pick or not.

Would love to know if any of you have had experiences, or even success with her!

A few days ago I posted about how I messed up and took twice the dose of my prescripted meds (lamictal). Back then I experienced blurry vision and slight loss of balance. In the end the symptoms went away and the doctor at the ER said I have nothing to worry about.

Well, that was until I took my regular dose last night and the symptoms returned. They were less intense, but I didnt think much of it as I thought it could just be the aftermath of my previous nights double dose.

Then, this morning they returned once more and the effects were just as bad as the first time when I actually overdosed. I had to switch my assingment at my job today as Im usually our stores main cashier, but there was no way I could continue working with customers whith only one functioning eye. It went away ~3-4hours after I took my meds.

This time it obviously cant be the lamictal causing this as it surely returned to its usual level, the one Ive been on for more than 2 years now, which leads me to my new theory:

Lamictal isnt the only drug Im taking, as I also take 150mgs of lacosamid with it. But heres the difference: the lacosamid is a somewhat new med (Ive been on it just 5months so far) AND just last week we increased my previous 100mgs to 150mg. All my symptoms also fit as side effects of lacosamid and now I think the 50% increase might have caused this.

Ill track my reaction for another few days, but if the symptoms wont go away, Ill obviously talk to my neurologist.

Hey there! Yesterday I posted about Kalista and in the end my support and I agreed to focus on playing hypercarry enchanter comps like Zeri Lulu, Sivir Milio and especially Yunara Lulu.

The last pairing is by far our best duo and after winning our tournament match yesterday (yaay), we reflected on why certain comps worked better than others and came to a pretty simple conclusion: Im a mechanical freak (or at least above average in our elo) and can put out tons of damage even in tricky teamfights, (We often manage to get quadrakills even if the rest of our team isnt doint great.), but heres my main issue. I often take too risky plays, because Im overconfident and even with his peel usually end up dying in teamfights, though our team can usually clean up afterwards.

We work around this by picking enchanters, so I can get away with way more than I actually should. My mate is also a great support player in general and doesnt care to play aggresive in lane too. Making our eventual lvl6 all in way easier.

But as soon as I enter soloqueue, the lack of communication and his shotcalling in general just makes me play 10times worse. Im way too focused on dealing damage and end up missing stuff like obvious ganks, or not noticing that my teams is retreating while I literally solo engage.

Do you have any tipps on how to work around this? I know all of this sounds like a silly question, but Im really struggling to work around my hyperfocus and I do think that if I improve that part of my gameplay, I can finally make the jump from emerald to diamond.

Hey yall! My friends and I are playing in an amateur league and were currently trying out different team comps. Im by far our highest ranked being emerald 4, with our jgl being the second heighest at gold 2, so we usually win through bot.

Now, I really like Kalista and are confident in my micro on her, though I literally never play her in soloq.Right now my pool consists of Xayah, Yunara and Tristana.

Do you think theres a point in investing time in her, or is she still too gutted by Riot even when youre playing as a 5stack?

Tldr: I like the idea that healers are less of a medic and more like a lifeline, mostly relying on ogcd heals, though a simple damage rotation would definetly make the role more engaging.

Hey there! As I was looking up some guides to improve my knowledge of AST I stumbled upon a lot of videos complaining about the games healer design and how it has become unengaging/boring/braindead. Ill be honest this suprised me alot, because a lot of the aspects people seem to dislike about the role are the ones that made me love playing healer in the first place.

Right now Im at the start of Stormblood so yes, I didnt play most content just yet so take this with a grain of salt. I didnt do any synced extreme, or savage content either, apart of one df Ramuh clear.

Personally, I like the idea of a healer being more of a reliable lifeline than a true 'medic' and aslong as my party and I manage to clear whatever content we queue up for I know that I did my job. I dont mind the fact that most of the time I dont have to use gcd heals if my mates play well, so I can focus on dealing as much damage as possible, but if something goes wrong and I manage to safe the run I knew that I infact did fullfill my task as our partys healer.

I actually started out as a WAR and BLM player, but switched to healer as I didnt like the long queue times from BLM and first timing dungeons my mates have probably played a billion times already as a tank just feels akward.

Honestly the only thing I dislike about the job is that there is no damage rotation. Even if its just a simple 3step one it would make clearing dungeons more engaging, especially since most healers can get the job done by using ogcd heals.

Well, thanks for reading through this! Id love to hear your opinions ln this, do you agree, or am I wrong about the current state of healers? I also appreciate any general advice you may have for someone as new to the game (and healing) as I am.