u/2station

By “life” I mean topics like luck, money, friendship, relationships, good things happening to you… basically anything that’s not just about physical appearance.

I need change in my life. Have you ever got like, extremely dramatic super fast results from any of them? To be clear, I don’t even which sub gave you the “best” results, just the fastest. A 180.

this is not a shifting success post nothing exciting happened i basically just had a weird dream and felt weird about it and wanted to share

now that that's out of the way: one thing about me is i'm weirdly self-aware during my dreams. like, while my dream is happening i seem to also... have an internal dialogue going just like when i'm awake with thoughts and reactions to things. like, i'll see some shoes and think "oh i need to buy some shoes like that once i'm awake" type of thoughts. i can also read, do math, read a clock etc in my dreams and other apparently impossible things. sometimes i even start doing dream analysis on myself while the dream is still ongoing. my point is that i'm pretty aware of what is going on.

tonight i had a dream that i was trying to track down my ex...therapist? i'm not sure how to describe it. he wasn't a licensed therapist. he was basically just known for giving really good advice and being a helpful guy. he was a guy in his 70s, volunteered, still healthy, used to be/still was some kind of mathematician maybe? (i remember seeing something about geometry on his desk, maybe a book or paper he authored, advanced, i couldn't understand it) + was a tarot reader and psychic.

now, there's nothing wrong with that dream. it was just a dream. i am very aware of my dreams and i can confirm it wasn't even a lucid dream, it was just a regular old dream with no internal logic. i was trying to find him on facebook and boom i'm transported to where he is, no car, nothing, that type of magical dream sequence.

the issue is, my background awareness during dreams. because while this dream was going on i wasn't thinking "oh, crazy, i wonder who this guy is", i actually remembered seeing him a few times, just... not in this reality...? and i kept trying to figure out how it was possible that i actually knew him.. and yet i couldn't possibly know him because the timeline doesn't make sense.

i have memories of like, how i found him, when we first saw each other (last fall), texting him to set our appointments, about what his house looked like, what we talked about, why i stopped seeing him, that weren't part of the dream. they feel like actual memories. idk, totally possible that it's just my brain playing tricks of me but these memories in my internal clock of When Stuff Happened feel very much like something that happened last year and not like something that happened tonight.

sometimes i have dreams that are sequels to other dreams and i'm able to recognize it and go "oh shit that was part 2 of the dream I had in april 2021" but this doesn't feel like a dream it feels like some other me's memories being put into my brain... it's very odd... has this ever happened to you, you're just chilling and you get memories from another life?

i have other instances like this, not-dream related, like i remember being told about michael jackson's death by my childhood friend in elementary school, but that's impossible because we didn't go to elementary school together and actually met in middle school. so to make it make sense he either died a few years later in a different timeline, or my friend did go to elementary school with me, but that was a long time ago and i was a kid so it's 100% possible i got confused. this is happening now so... idk. it's weird.

There are some aspects of it that seem confusing or upsetting to me and I’d like to hear what it was like for people who succeeded in it.

The reasons why I’m attracted to the idea are easy to understand; regret, missed opportunities, feeling that I didn’t enjoy some times in my life correctly, stupid mistakes that fucked up my life and I’d gladly cancel from my life, wanting to see people who are now dead or out of my life again

On the other hand, so many little logistical issues, right?

For example, my internal age vs body age.

- if I shift back to age 1 or 2 with an adult mindset, won’t I be bored as fuck for like, 10-15 years of my life? I can’t really enjoy the freedom that I’m used to and honestly I don’t find the idea of playing with toys very appealing unfortunately lmao

- Say I shift back to my teen years, somewhat similar lifestyle to now so I could get used to it more easily, but still, won’t I feel very lonely having to interact with 14 year olds all day?

- if my maturity also changes to allow me to live my life as myself, am I really even me? Idk, I perceive “myself” as the current me- I can’t imagine suddenly seeing the world like a 5 year old, that would turn me into a totally different person and it wouldn’t be much different from dying and being replaced by someone else

- also: if I want to shift to fix mistakes in my past, don’t I need my current adult intelligence and brain?? I don’t trust a 5yo to do that shit

How did y’all even script the whole thing, idk if its my brain but psychological time travel feels like a logic nightmare. Unironically shifting to have superpowers & stuff like that seems less complicated.

one of the most common problems I see here is people don't actually know what they want. i see lots of posts asking strangers to pick a desired person's face for them, choose which subs to use, or decide whether they should manifest their ex back or move on. those are not decisions you should outsource to other people

the problem is, manifesting is HARD as fuck if your whole self (logically, physically, emotionally) isn't aligned with the outcome. that's true in every aspect of life: think about how hard it would be irl to become an elite runner if you weren't sure whether you wanted to run, model, play basketball, or start a business. then realize it's the exact same concept when it comes to subs and manifestation.

my advice:

you need time to focus. set aside a few uninterrupted hours, ideally somewhere quiet. if you don't live alone, nighttime works well. turn off devices and avoid social media or anything overstimulating for a few hours beforehand, it fucks up your ability to focus. i prefer to clean my space, shower, put on clean clothes since it helps me think better, but you don't have to do it.

your goal is to trace your desire back to its root. think the whole thing through. your desire, where it comes from, its possible outcomes and consequences. what do you actually want? push past the surface-level desire and reach the need underneath it. what i mean in practice: you might think you want to be lose weight, but maybe you just want people to love you and give you attention and think being skinny will get you there. you think you want money, but actually you just want to stop being anxious about the future. keep asking why until you hit something that feels foundational. that root need is what you're actually working with. now, what consequences will this have? think through the full implications of the outcome you're seeking. what happens when you get what you want? who else is affected? how will your life change? thinking this through has several benefits: helps you visualize what your future will actually look like, reveals any hesitation you might have about getting your desire, and builds conviction. once you have an idea of what your manifestation actually entails you'll have less subconscious anxiety of it and you will be more strongly motivated to actually get it.

generally, after doing this you will notice results come a lot faster. that's what happened to me.

Does it feel like nothing, just open your eyes and you’re somewhere else? Is it an internal shift, like you feel your “other self” and personality and memories fading away and a “new self” replacing that? Weird somatic/physical experiences? I am curious!

Edit: I also wanted to ask this but it’s not worth making another post: is there something you always add to your script no matter the context? Because I always script for a functioning metro system lmao I don’t like car-centric cities and I don’t like the current state of public transport in my country. It sounds so silly among other goals like fame and money and love to be worrying about public transport but you truly cannot do anything if the trains don’t run on time…. I’m not crazy it’s really important…..

I don’t want to read about their heterosexual problems or how much they struggle with basic things or how much they hate everyone and everything sucks. Life’s not so bad. Can everyone cheer up a little

For good or bad, I always manifested outcomes when I was very intensely emotionally involved… intense fear, intense anger, intense hope, intense self-confidence, intense happiness.

Unfortunately I’m very… emotionally numb? Most of the time… or emotionally stable if you wanna put it positively. I feel very dissociated from my feelings most of the time.

Anyone else kinda agree with me + also struggles with feeling their emotions? For example, lots of people in manifestation communities suggest to “feel as if your desire is already yours” but that’s really hard when you can’t feel happy or excited in general hahah

I had a dream I’d decided to kill myself and started throwing away everything I had in my bag. I was walking around the streets of my city at night and I tossed a pack of cigarettes, my wallet, a lighter (aggressively, but I was happy).

Then, still in the dream, I wake up the next day and go through my phone and see lots of pictures of me in a playground with one of my friends that I had no memory of, apparently I didn’t go through with the suicide thing and instead got drunk with my friend and we went to a playground together to fuck around.

Good or bad sign? On one hand seems bad that suicidal thoughts are in my subconscious but also it should be good that I didn’t do it? I never had suicide dreams before.

Or in some cultures worse than death. But modern #society wants me to go live in an apartment alone for 12+ hrs a day and see my friends once a week (people are #busy with #work) and my family once a month (don’t you wanna be #independent) and they expect people to somehow not go insane. No wonder everyone’s going insane. God granted me impulse control and intelligence, if not you’d see me in a Netflix documentary. Unsure what kind. At least I have my cat to sleep with me. I’ve had her since I was 12. I hope they figure out how to make them immortal once she goes I go it’ll be my last straw

I usually can’t even tell whether someone is male or female from their writing, so it’s not that these people have a masculine voice in any obvious sense, it’s something else. A specific tone. A specific kind of *** that only exists here.

They tend to show up under girls’ vents and requests for advice, but the replies have this bizarrely paternalistic tone with almost none of the actual empathy that you’d expect when someone’s venting to you. I wish I could recreate it for you but I can’t. I just read it and my pattern recognition goes off and I feel irritated.

Spiritually it reminds me of those *** who say they want a goth woman to ruin their life? There’s an underlying fetishization of the instability that they project onto the person they’re replying to. Seeing themselves as an animal tamer: uniquely understanding, uniquely patient, uniquely capable of “handling” you. Superior to you, they become special through proximity to someone they perceive as damaged.

The replies are always always always self-centered, someone will post “I hate being ugly a guy made fun of me for having this feature” and instead of comforting them like a normal person, they’re in the comments talking about what they prefer (or if they’re trying to be subtle, talking about what “men prefer”). You could say “a guy stabbed me 19 times and threw me off a building and called me a fat whale” and their only concern would be letting you know that, actually, plenty of guys think chubby girls are super hot. They never actually comfort anyone or empathize with anyone. Never “holy shit that’s horrible”, never “wow he sucks”, never “hope you feel better”.

I guess superiority and lack of empathy are the main vibes that I’m catching on to. Beyond that, they’re boring. They never have anything original or funny to say. It’s always the most milquetoast boring coworker coded opinion you’ve ever heard in your life.

Another thing they do but I see less often is they seem to have no concern for women’s safety, like if a woman’s asking for advice the replies will fully encourage her to do the dumbest shit you’ve ever heard of in your life especially if it benefits a man. Fuck 100 guys in one day, fuck your therapist, fuck your dad’s friend, fuck your ex, fuck the guy who sort of likes you because you’re depressed and wanna feel something, go to random strangers’ houses at night, do porn, quit your job and become a stay at home girlfriend to the guy you’ve been dating for 2 weeks, drop out, it’s always some dumb shit that actually has the potential to ruin her life and men telling her to go for it