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I just saw my friend's status go from being offline to instantly switch to idle. Is this possible without manually changing it? It went back to offline about 3 minutes later, and was never marked as online during that time. Maybe 5 mins after this they were online on their phone.

My boyfriend said that he would go to therapy for his porn addiction when i first found it about two months ago. Now he is telling me that he wont call the office to progress his request for a primary care appointment to get a therapy referral. He just scheduled the appointment about two weeks ago and now i asked him today to call them to remind them and check on his position in the waitlist for his primary care and he said "no i wont call them." i tried explaining to him that this will make me feel better and not be as anxious, not crying as much, and he said he doesnt need to rush the process unless they dont call him back for another week or two then he will call. I asked him why he cant make a 2 minute phone call to remind them and get a check-in and he said that his brother told him he doesnt think the therapy is necessary. When i started bringing this up he also told me that he had issues with my behavior that he wanted to discuss later but then he said he had to leave and ended the call. i feel miserable.

Trigger warning tag and nsfw marker for a detailed description of an assault i went through.

I was assaulted multiple times in the past year, but the one that affects me more happened in October. I had been drinking and my friend was pouring me more alcohol continuously, and I kind of didnt understand or process why my glass kept staying full so i kept drinking it, until i essentially couldnt move. I could barely see, either because my brain could not create very many memories due to being inebriated, or because of physical effects of the alcohol, so I do not have a memory of many visuals or things I was seeing, but remember everything i physically felt in great detail. He asked to kiss me and I said yes, due to being on the verge of blacking out, and thinking it would be a peck on my cheek, because he was my good friend and I was very drunk to the point where I was in fact getting alcohol poisoning, i had barely any understanding of what was happening. He also made it very clear at the time that he believed me to be in relationship, monogamous, and already taken (though I wasnt in a relationship, I just hadnt explained to anyone that I was single since my relationship had ended).

He proceeded to hold my shoulders in place and make out with me while i sat completely still and was on my knees on the floor (due to being unable to stand due to alcohol), sticking his tongue very far into my mouth and towards into my throat, and he had never ever displayed any type of attraction towards me beforehand, no previous reason for me to be suspicious he would do this or get any type of "vibe" from him or anything. He had actually told me previously that he had been fed alcohol by women as their attempt to get him drunk to sexually assault him. He told me this multiple times and i had listened to him wholeheartedly in the past. I began to throw up and somehow got myself into the bathroom and locked the door, and proceeded to continue vomiting. I couldnt barely move, i couldnt stand without collapsing to floor and had essentially crawled to the bathroom, or a series of standing up and stumbling forward over and over. He was knocking on the door asking me to open it for a while, and after that I only remember vomiting a lot and then waking up in my bed.

The next day he had not left. He proceeded to mention to me, my roommate, and my friend who also stayed over how I was in a relationship, casually mentioning it in conversations, and would not leave the next morning. He would keep saying "oh well (my name) cant do x y and z because shes in a relationship" while smiling and laughing and joking.

I now suffer from physical reactions when I remember the feeling of his tongue. My head jerks and i feel a chill up my spine and neck and sometimes the head jerking and chills are so severe that my neck cracks. I feel really awkward experiencing this in public, and it would always happen to me in my college classes as well which was embarrassing and uncomfortable. And I dont want to be thinking about it but the thought of it always pops into my head at random times even at times when I am not doing anything that should remind me of it, but I still think of the physical sensation of his tongue a lot out of no where. I hate it, and it makes me cry. I have experienced hundreds of other assaults at varying capacity and severity but for some reason since october, this has been bothering me particularly with the physical reactions, and was added into my PTSD diagnosis.

I guess i mainly posted this because I wanted to hear about other people's experiences with physical reactions and symptoms or i guess compulsive bodily motions resulting from sexual assault. So if anyone has any insight or personal experiences to share, I would like to hear about it and i think it might be helpful for me.

I have seen a lot of apps where you can submit a picture of your food and it will calculate the calories and macros and such. Are any of these apps actually very reliable or accurate? I was thinking of trying something like this because at times it is hard for me to trust i am counting properly on my own.

While breaking up with my most previous boyfriend a few days ago i was freaking out and crying about how he is more attracted to women in porn than me and how he likes looking at them because they are more attractive. They never looked like me in his history and the videos he saved, they were blonde and tan and skinny with big boobs or basic looking. He said its never the way they look that turns him on but the actions happening instead. For some reason hearing that sentence and even typing it activates my fight or flight and makes my stomach drop because it feels like such a lie. Is there any way that there is any truth to that statement when they all look NOTHING like me? And why even look at porn if youre not attracted to them? I just genuinely dont even know what to do with myself, I feel like vomiting constantly. I keep hearing him say that over and over. Is there any way that statement could be true at all? I dont even know why i need answers so badly because i instantly broke up with him when i found it all.

I thought there was a chance this relationship would be different. I told him of my past six relationships and my trauma, that im not okay with porn usage in the relationship in the very beginning, he said i had absolutely nothing to worry about. He would reassure me when I got worried about it on occasion. But today I just had an urge to look through his phone and he had porn saved on his twitter, and each video had dates from when he had saved them, during our relationship. I immediately confronted him and kicked him out of my apartment because he was visiting me. I feel so defeated, hopeless, disgusting, and sick to my stomach. And the videos showed how far he got through them and I only got to see the dates he saved them, but he might have gone back and looked at them over and over. I just hate myself so much right now, I feel like vomiting. I was so happy with him I gained about 5 pounds, I was eating food like normal, I was feeling good, like I was forgetting all the other bad relationships. But now im afraid ill never be the same person.

I have purchased 4 different cards from ebay and all of them either dont deliver or are marked as delivered but dont actually arrive. I was wondering if this is a common issue that others have experienced or if I should buy from somewhere else thats more popular or reliable. For context, i dont have an unusual address that is hard to find and my mailbox is right outside my door and labeled with my name.

I recently bought a Pudaier faux freckle applicator but the product arrived dried out, so I was wondering if anyone may have also bought this or if anyone has advice on reactivating dried out products.

I was working a research job for a while about 3 years ago, about 2 full semesters. Then, I quit that and got a different job which is on my resume. I then returned this that first job this semester, but only for one semester. Im not sure exactly how to indicate this on my resume. Could i change the date that i worked to add multiple time ranges? or should I just put down my most recent time working there despite it being for a shorter amount of time?

Apologies, this is long and explained with great detail because of the large amount of trauma I have sustained, I want to give as much information as possible to make everything clear and unbiased as possible.

I have been in six relationships with extremely sexually volatile men. all but one of them were severe porn/sex addicts which led to the end and painful destruction of each relationship. The only one that wasnt addicted to porn was physically harmful towards me if I didnt want to have sex with him. Ive been with men who pay for sexual favors from women online, send camgirls money, produce music for exclusively pornstars, sext other women, lie about porn usage and addiction continuously, send female streamers gifts, download almost a terabyte of porn and organize it by the names of the actresses, compared my body and face to pornstars/actresses/models/anime and game characters, could only exclusively get off to hentai, admitted being attracted to my friends, found thousands of girls that were too young that they were following on socials, and much much more, but thats just a minute amount of background for context.

I am now entering a new relationship with another man after not being in any relationship for half a year. We have been together for about a month and I cant tell if im acting crazy or if he is actually showing signs of PA like my brain is telling me. I initially found myself feeling attracted to him because he had a demeanor that felt very respectful, polite, and timid, and I was attracted to the fact that I could not picture someone like him being hurtful towards other people. I am attracted to him for many other reasons however that was sort of the kicker for me. He seems to be very conscious of the issues that women face, he seems to be very feministic as well.

A week or two ago, we were watching an animated series with my friends and he kept talking about how hot the female characters are and how he was waiting for some fanservice to get animated. Then, my male friend said something about a girl who was into him (the friend), and my boyfriend said "yeah i'd be intimidated if I were you," which gave me the impression that he had found that girl attractive. he also followed up with something that triggered me on a personal level by saying he's "afraid of women." I understand this is supposed to be a joke, but ive never met a man that said those words and wasnt a massive womanizer and sexualizer, so I was just progressively getting more nervous because I had never heard him talking like this before and it was different than any other time we had been together. I told him that it made me feel uncomfortable and he said it wouldnt happen again and apologized. I told him I was not okay with being in a relationship with someone looking at porn and he hugged me and told me I had nothing to worry about and was being apologetic. After this day I decided to go back to my habit of looking at social media followings, because I have previously found horrifying things in these places with other men. I found that he follows several hundreds of women who dont follow him back, however they all seem to possibly be people from our college or his friends colleges. he was also following about 10 (out of 800 of his total accounts followed) only fans accounts, mostly naked cosplayers, pornstars, women posting in their underwear and lingerie, gym accounts, etc. His twitter looked the same. I asked him to unfollow the problematic ones and he said he would, but he said he knew some of them personally. i asked him to remove the ones he knows personally because they all had thousands of followers and dont follow him back and post content of themselves in lingerie and underwear, showing their ass, etc, and I just said it was making me feel uncomfortable. He didnt a couple times but eventually unfollowed them and apologized to me and said he was just afraid that he would be burning bridges for old friendships but that he was in the wrong and should have initially removed them. 10 accounts isnt that much and I could possibly understand why they might appear in an account with 800 accounts followed, but its obviously still very triggering for me due to the things I have been through. personally I have never been compelled to put anything inappropriate on any accounts where my friends and family can possibly see it (or any account anywhere) and I also think that its problematic to be scrolling through softcore porn and that type of content of women on social media and way too normalized, so this was causing me a lot of anxiety. now a couple days ago, I had dressed up very nicely for a convention with me and him and my friends to go to. he complimented me once in private, but complimented my two friends maybe 5 or more times. he also kept asking one of them about her necklace over and over, which was resting in her cleavage and she is a very busty woman and was wearing revealing clothing this day. This just made me feel like he was staring at her tits because he didnt ask my other friend about her necklaces even though she was wearing many of them, but she just had a tshirt on. my friend with the tshirt was also talking about my other friend's revealing outfit in a friend-flirting way and was staring at her tits and making a joke of it, and my boyfriend made a "what color is the dress" joke. I told him later that I was getting upset over him giving my friends more of this attention and complimenting more than me and rarely complimenting me in general and how I was feeling inadequate and he initially just told me that he does compliment me all the time, and i started crying a bit because he wasnt listening to me, and I know that he does not compliment me often because I pay attention to how im treated. I didnt mention the necklace thing or the dress color joke but I kind of wish that I had, because it was bothering me a lot. He paused for a minute and then apologized and was telling me very wholeheartedly that he would do better and that he was very sorry and wanted me to tell him these things because he wants me to feel happy and safe. I genuinely cannot tell if my anxieties here are even remotely justified and if he may be showing signs of PA or if im just too traumatized from my past relationships and have a mental fixation on this. Any advice or outside perspective would be appreciated