u/Academic-Grab-6811

Most of the time in r/ short I find ppl venting on how they HATEE being short and how it’s miserable and all, but in r/ tall it’s js full of memes and optimistic ppl

Edit: I’m sorry if this post triggered some people or has made them sad or upset or in any kind of way, I don’t really mean it in a bad way. I made it with the intention that being short isn’t really that bad for men and for women, but I didn’t rlly expect a lot of the replies but I still have empathy for a lot of ppl here and I wish you all best

So basically I played this game and I was js casually singing and speaking to my friend cause why not and this one girl came up to me and said “shut up,bitch” I told her to mute me and she isn’t obliged to listen to me but she still wanted to argue w me so I muted her and ignored her. Then her eboy came and got mad at me for no reason

Genuinely yall what did I do 😭🙏🏻 I actually hate it when women do shit like that to other women

استاذه فيزياء مره مستقعده لي ي بنات تخيلو اني اقعد احل المعادلات معها صححح تمامًا حتى كل بنات الفصل يحلونها زيي وتجي تقول ي بنات الخطواااااااااتتت يعني أنا المشكله كاتبه كل حاجه صح ومعوضه بالقانون بس هي تبغا حرف حرف وبطريقتها، حتى لما جيت اشرح للاستاذه قالت هدي هدي خليني اشوف 😭 ياخي المشكله اني فاهمه وهي داريهههه اني فاهمه بس تبغا كلشي على كيفها مدري كيف ي ناس
يعني دقيقه بقولكم حاجه

أنا احب احل المعادله بطريقتي وتطلع الاجابه صح
مثلا اول شي لو مثلاً عطاني الكتله وهو طالب الوزن طبعًا راح احول الكتله للوزن عرفتو؟ ف وش راح اسوي، راح أبدا احول بالقانون: fg=mg واحول بسيطه
لكن استاذه تقول لا! لازم تكتبين القانون زي كذا—>
fgx= mg(بدال ال fg) Sin /0 (ثيتا/سيتا)
يعني هو سهل وبعرف لكن طريقتي لساتها صح مافيها اي حاجه غلط؟ وهي عارفه الاستاذه وحتى قايله لي صح بس تهاوشني إذا م كتبته بطريقتها
سالت صاحبتي لي بثاني ثانوي وتكلمت لي عن نفس المعاناه مع نفس الاستاذه هي الاستاذه عسل ياخي بس مشكلتها تعصب عليك لو انتي م كتبتي زي الطريقة لي هي برأسها وبالعكس سويتي الطريقه لي انتي فاهمتها زي م أنا سويت اول شي جبت قانون الوزن يستوي الكتله مضروبه بتسارع جاذبية الارضيه وطلع لي ناتج خلاص اجيب القانون لي هو
Fgx=(-fg)(sin theta)
ويظهر لي الناتج. زيه زيه الحل نفسه أصلا بس ذي طريقتي، وهي تدقق مره ياخي لازم احل خطوه بخطوه 😭أنا م ابي حل طويل ابغا حل سريع وefficient وهو الطريقه لي سويتها

I’m so obsessed with numbers idk why. (Self esteem/eating disorders TW)
I’ve had anorexia at 13-14. It was a hard time for me, I’ve reached a point where I looked like a skeleton. I was obsessed with calories, with everything that includes numbers. Even my weight, to the point that I’ve lost my period for 7months. That’s how bad it got, I started recovering during early 15 or late 14. What really helped with my recovery was that I focused so much on my grades at school, I wanted to do just perfect. I remember I got a 18/20 on a math exam and I started crying to my teacher and she felt bad for me, so she gave me a better mark. I feel like numbers started dictating my worth, if I deserve to live or not. I still have heavy anxiety on numbers, to the point I study for 10hours or 9 in one day, just so I can feel like it’s enough and I will get a full mark because it will satisfy my ego. I exhausted myself, I burnt out so much I swear to god.

I remember during last semesters finals I had a full on panic attack, and my mom was tryna comfort me. I couldn’t focus at all due to my anxiety, at the end I calmed down and started focusing again. I think it’s bc I drank caffeine which made my anxiety even worse? But besides the point. I’m still obsessed with numbers.

I remember during the time I had body dysmorphia, which I still have fyi, although I recovered from anorexia I could say fully because currently I’m 51kg which is really healthy for my age and for me.
When I had bdd I would ask ppl to rate my looks online, or looksmaxxers. Like 5/10 or 6/10 or 7/10 are the ratings I got but I still never felt satisfied, I still keep chasing standards I will never achieve for myself. Yeah maybe I get reassured for just like what once, the next day I’ll return to the same state I was needing the same reassurance over and over.

My current obsession is with my height, I feel like I’m not worth it at all if I’m not 5’6 (167cm) which is like my dream height, idk why I can never get over this. idk why I keep crying about it, and I just don’t know why I can’t stop thinking about myself or about numbers. I’m so obsessed it’s genuinely ruining my mental health, ruining everything in my life. I just want to stop obsessing so much over numbers, yeah maybe I’ll stop obsessing about height now but the next day I’ll find something else to obsess about.
I genuinely wish I was taller and honestly I’d sell my soul for that. Idk what to say anymore

If I don’t get a full mark? I’m not worth living
If I don’t have my perfect weight? Yeah I’m not worth living either
If I don’t have my perfect height? I’m also not worth living.

idk what to do. Numbers r having control of my life and I can’t do anything about it, I’ve tried to. Maybe i helped with my anorexia yeah, since I could say I don’t really have a lot of anorexic thoughts now. but I’m saying, even if I get rid of a problem another one will get in my way. It’s like, I can’t be happy for 1 millisecond. I have to hyper fixtate on something. That’s how my brain works and it’s killing me

I constantly feel like I’m chasing nothing, I’m so lost idfk what to do. Idk why I have to suffer so much since I was 11years old up to 16, i also used to have cleaning ocd but I took medications for it so I assume it’s in some type of remission mode now? Cause I don’t have any symptoms from cleaning ocd. Perhaps my ocd shaped itself to this, idfk. I just know I still have my anxiety that I was diagnosed with at 11 and I’ve been suffering with for five years.

And one more thing, I’m also obsessed with not getting sexualized. I’m still obseseed with it somehow. Back then when I had anorexia, I tried to lose All my curves. I was disgusted of myself, bc I don’t want to get sexualized. I don’t want to, I still want to change myself and I want to get taller, perhaps just to look more intimidating. That’s what I like, is to look intimidating. I don’t wanna look childish. I wanna look more “womanly” does that make sense?
I wanna be tall because I like it. I want to please myself, not anyone else. Even if the beauty standard is quote on quote short for women, in my own rules or my own beauty standards tall is the beauty standard. I have to achieve it for myself or else, I’m not worth anything. I don’t deserve anything, at all. it might seem like a small problem to anyone reading this, but it’s genuinely taking over my life. And even if I somehow got rid of being obsessed with height, trust me, I’ll find something else to focus on EVEN WORSE. I’m just exhausted, maybe if I was tall all my problems will be solved? Maybe if I was skinny all my problems will be solved too? maybe if I was pretty?

Why am I so obsessed with numbers? Whats wrong w me.
I’ve had anorexia at 13-14. It was a hard time for me, I’ve reached a point where I looked like a skeleton. I was obsessed with calories, with everything that includes numbers. Even my weight, to the point that I’ve lost my period for 7months. That’s how bad it got, I started recovering during early 15 or late 14. What really helped with my recovery was that I focused so much on my grades at school, I wanted to do just perfect. I remember I got a 18/20 on a math exam and I started crying to my teacher and she felt bad for me, so she gave me a better mark. I feel like numbers started dictating my worth, if I deserve to live or not. I still have heavy anxiety on numbers, to the point I study for 10hours or 9 in one day, just so I can feel like it’s enough and I will get a full mark because it will satisfy my ego. I exhausted myself, I burnt out so much I swear to god.

I remember during last semesters finals I had a full on panic attack, and my mom was tryna comfort me. I couldn’t focus at all due to my anxiety, at the end I calmed down and started focusing again. I think it’s bc I drank caffeine which made my anxiety even worse? But besides the point. I’m still obsessed with numbers.

I remember during the time I had body dysmorphia, which I still have fyi, although I recovered from anorexia I could say fully because currently I’m 51kg which is really healthy for my age and for me.
When I had bdd I would ask ppl to rate my looks online, or looksmaxxers. Like 5/10 or 6/10 or 7/10 are the ratings I got but I still never felt satisfied, I still keep chasing standards I will never achieve for myself. Yeah maybe I get reassured for just like what once, the next day I’ll return to the same state I was needing the same reassurance over and over.

My current obsession is with my height, I feel like I’m not worth it at all if I’m not 5’6 (167cm) which is like my dream height, idk why I can never get over this. idk why I keep crying about it, and I just don’t know why I can’t stop thinking about myself or about numbers. I’m so obsessed it’s genuinely ruining my mental health, ruining everything in my life. I just want to stop obsessing so much over numbers, yeah maybe I’ll stop obsessing about height now but the next day I’ll find something else to obsess about.
I genuinely wish I was taller and honestly I’d sell my soul for that. Idk what to say anymore

If I don’t get a full mark? I’m not worth living
If I don’t have my perfect weight? Yeah I’m not worth living either
If I don’t have my perfect height? I’m also not worth living.

idk what to do. Numbers r having control of my life and I can’t do anything about it, I’ve tried to. Maybe i helped with my anorexia yeah, since I could say I don’t really have a lot of anorexic thoughts now. but I’m saying, even if I get rid of a problem another one will get in my way. It’s like, I can’t be happy for 1 millisecond. I have to hyper fixtate on something. That’s how my brain works and it’s killing me

I constantly feel like I’m chasing nothing, I’m so lost idfk what to do. Idk why I have to suffer so much since I was 11years old up to 16, i also used to have cleaning ocd but I took medications for it so I assume it’s in some type of remission mode now? Cause I don’t have any symptoms from cleaning ocd. Perhaps my ocd shaped itself to this, idfk. I just know I still have my anxiety that I was diagnosed with at 11 and I’ve been suffering with for five years.

And one more thing, I’m also obsessed with not getting sexualized. I’m still obseseed with it somehow. Back then when I had anorexia, I tried to lose All my curves. I was disgusted of myself, bc I don’t want to get sexualized. I don’t want to, I still want to change myself and I want to get taller, perhaps just to look more intimidating. That’s what I like, is to look intimidating. I don’t wanna look childish. I wanna look more “womanly” does that make sense?
I wanna be tall because I like it. I want to please myself, not anyone else. Even if the beauty standard is quote on quote short for women, in my own rules or my own beauty standards tall is the beauty standard. I have to achieve it for myself or else, I’m not worth anything. I don’t deserve anything, at all. it might seem like a small problem to anyone reading this, but it’s genuinely taking over my life. And even if I somehow got rid of being obsessed with height, trust me, I’ll find something else to focus on EVEN WORSE. I’m just exhausted, maybe if I was tall all my problems will be solved? Maybe if I was skinny all my problems will be solved too? maybe if I was pretty?

قطتي عمرها شهرين وكنت دايم اعطيها طعام قطط لصغيره اكل رطب وكان من شركه purina دجاج مع مرق، الي لونه وردي. أمورها كانت تمام بس صار يطلع حاجه بنيه على خشمها وهي بيضاء وصار يتساقط شعرها بعد ف وديتها بيطري قال انه بسبب خشمها قاعد يلمس المرق وهي تاكل ف صار عندها هذا شي وسبب الفطريات لها

أنا والله بكيت وانا في طريقي بسياره لاني خايفه عليها و م كنت ادري ذا الاكل لي اعطيها ياها الرطب الوحيد كان فيه مرق، الحين قاعده احاول ابحث عن براند كويس اقدر اشتري لها اكل فيه مافيه سكريات ولا أشياء مضره لها. والمشكله حسبت ذا الاكل صحي لها وهي حبته لانه صار عندها نشاططط مو طبيعي بعده لكن برضو لاحظت انها تعطس بعده كثير من خشمها، وخشمها بارد مره.
تكفون بالله عليكم ساعدوني الي عنده قطط صغيره وش البراندات لي تقترحونها اقدر اشتريه من هنقرستيشن لي راح يناسب قطوتي؟ قاعده ابحث الحين م لقيت اي حاجه بدون مرق ولا سكريات.

الي يقولون اسالي بيطري الكشفيه بخمسه وخمسين وفوقها فترتها كنت خايفه عليها م عرفت وش اقول له بس قلت له كل حاجه وهو صرفني لانه ماهو فاضي لي عنده زباين غيري ، وبنفس الوقت اهلي كانو معي كانو يتكلمون واجد م قدرت اني اتكلم مع البيطري م كان في فرصه

في مكافأة شفتها بهنقر حق creamy lickable treats royal zoo لقطط صغيره وشفت المكونات من ضمنها حليب وحسيت امممم هل ذا حليب بقر ولا حليب ماعز او بط والى اخره… احتمال يكون حليب بط بس مرات اخاف اني اعطي قطتي صغيره ثلاث licks وتطرش او حاجه ف عطوني نصايح بليز

I’ve had a habit as a child. Which is thumb sucking, I only ever stopped at 13. I was a weird kid guys please don’t judge me. I literally stopped permanently sucking my thumb but I find myself unconsciously sucking my thumb while I’m asleep. I DONT KNOW WHYYY, I wake up every time with me just returning to my old habits unconsciously.

I also scratch myself constantly, I still have this scarring from like 7 months ago where I scratched myself during my sleep.

I also snore, sometimes I just wanna sleep peacefully. Sometimes I also lose some sleep due to school stress.

But I genuinely need help on improving my sleep quality. Help me guys please! How do I stop my unconscious self from doing stupid shit

PLEASW GUYS I NEEDDD ITTT I want to talk with people or a community and see results or ask for recommendations etc…