u/Alarming-Ad7131

How do you do the shading on your artworks?

Same layer or another layer?

Where do you put the layer? On top of all coloring layers or one shadow layer per each coloring layer?

I just took the last exam and my summer just began, I had prepared a list for summer activities that I wanna do, most of them are new skills and stuff, and some been playing games with my friends.

But I can't update my games cause I need a VPN for them and our government in Iran had restricted the internet too much so I can't use regular VPNs.

Next is once I update a game it gives me high ping and latency and I can even play.

Next is my hardware is god damn old cause inflation rises too quickly and I have no saving for anything than food or transportation.

I wanted to learn illustration but I can't even open YouTube to watch videos, why? Cause I need a VPN and again since our government is an asshole and restricted the internet too much regular VPNs won't work.

I just wish I die sooner, I just wish I die.

Nothing else, I am tired of my life, everything in my life even the smallest things are fightings, things that are very basic and easy in western countries in my life are nightmares.

I hate living in Iran, please remove this country from the earth, please remove it, please do not give birth to babies if you live in countries like Iran, every second of my life is cries being hidden underneath a fake smile and me daydreaming in my diary, thinking of immigration 24/7 that gets harder and harder each day to be possible and me wishing for my own death.

Hey J if you are reading this I am jealous too much of your life in USA I wish it was mine, I am nothing less than you and it's unfair that I am destined to be doomed just because of the place I was born in.

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Hey

I have to choose a major within 2 months,

I studied maths and physics in high school which means I can choose different kinds of engineering.

I am planning to immigrate to Canada and I had mechanical engineering and electrical engineering in my mind cause it seems like Canada has good master programs that I can apply for after my bachelor's degree.

I am 19 and living in Iram btw if it helps🤧

Hey, I hope it's the right place to ask it.

I need to give you a background.

I am in year 12, the final year of schooling before university. I live in Iran and to get accepted in universities you need to take final exams and an entrance exam, each of them make up a percentage of your work to become 100%

60% is final exams and 40% is the entrance exam.

You need to take both and I have finished final exams very good for a student my state. But my entrance exam results are not as good, I have taken the previous years exams and I did suck, I took them terrible. My father is a bit too sensitive on my studies and 24/7 I am thinking what he will do and how will he behave towards me once he sees my entrance exam results are 0 and I didn't answer any questions.

So this was the background the problem is I now am under consistent pressure, I can't sleep more than 2 hours and I wake up multiple time during night with headache and in sweats with a sky rocket heart beat, having nightmares and etc.

I am not worried myself of the result but am worried of my father's reaction, the reason is I study maths and physics and in Iran if all the universities have a capacity of like 25000 students the students who are studying it is 20000 so it means everyone will be able to study in universities. (numbers are examples)

Is there any way to control my stress? It is getting worse as we get closer to the exam, the exam is on 20th of August.

Feel free to ask anything you think you need to know

The nearest time I can even plan for moving to US will be around my early 30s, is it actually too late?

Hey thanks for clicking,
The subject is easy to understand I guess, but let me exlpain a bit too.

So whenever I talk to someone who moved to USA they say they won't leave it and they like how it is and say it's the best thing they have ever done, in contrast whenever I talk to an actual American who was born in the USA, they call it a big mess and always are hatful about their country and want to leave it.

I myself had talked to two people one Canadian and the other American and the Canadian guy immigrated to USA and said it's the actual home for him and the American guy immigrated to Canada and said it is the actual home for him. So now I am totally confused how these work

It's an update onnmy last post but if you are new to this just know my friend decided to get fat on purpose and it is the very latest update I got:

Oh, thanks for asking! I was actually waiting for you to ask about it, but I thought it would take forever. 😂

I actually wasn't completely honest with you before because I was a little worried about being judged. I wasn't comfortable telling you that I had gained even more weight. When we first talked, it wasn't just 25kg it ended up being around 30kg. Also, it wasn't over just five months. It actually took a bit longer than that.

Anyway, let me tell you about my experience. 😉

Before I start...

Who told you I'm 172cm? I'm actually 182cm. I'm taller than you. 👀

Okay, let's begin.

As I mentioned before, I've always been attracted to bigger guys, but being fat myself was something completely new. I had never been overweight before, so I was curious about what it actually felt like.

Do I like that I got fatter?

Yes, I really do.

I've enjoyed it more than I expected. I'm eating foods I avoided for years, like regular Coke. Diet Coke feels ridiculous to me now, so I drink the full-sugar version instead. I also eat fast food three or four times a week, usually with dessert, and I don't constantly worry about counting calories anymore.

Did I stop going to the gym?

No, not at all.

I still go to the gym regularly, but I cut my workouts from five days a week to three. I still enjoy exercising, but honestly, after work it's become much harder to convince myself to drive all the way to the gym instead of just ordering fast food and relaxing at home.

Did my appetite increase?

Definitely.

I noticed a huge difference. I used to force myself to eat breakfast because I knew I should, but now I wake up genuinely starving. I also stay hungry even after eating large meals.

For example, I went on a date with a guy. It didn't end very well and we blocked each other the next day. 🥴 We had pizza together, and I ate a lot, but when I got home I still felt like I needed a couple of burgers. So yes, the increased appetite and cravings are very real.

Did people comment on my weight gain?

Yes, and it was a little embarrassing.

My coworkers noticed that I'd gotten wider and joked about my belly sticking out of my clothes after I had to buy larger sizes. My gym buddy also keeps asking if I need help with my diet. He even offered to stay with me for a while to help me lose weight and get healthy again.

How did it affect dating and my sex life?

I definitely get less attention on Grindr now. Some people stop talking to me as soon as they realize I'm about 30 kg heavier than my profile says.

On the other hand, I've gotten much more attention on Grommr. People there have been incredibly kind. Some have even sponsored food for me or asked me to eat for them, which I actually found fun. I've also met a few local guys, and being fed by someone else was honestly one of the most exciting experiences I've ever had. I loved the feeling of someone touching me, complimenting my body, and playfully teasing me about my weight gain while feeding me.

What about the health risks?

I talked honestly with my doctor about everything. He told me I'm not unhealthy YET, but if I continue this lifestyle for much longer, developing diabetes is a real possibility. He recommended that I keep exercising, walk more, and consider therapy or sex therapy. He also mentioned that he's had other patients in similar situations.

Where am I now?

I've been dating a guy I met on Grommr for a while now. He's much more caring and emotional than I expected. He's very supportive of my weight gain, but he doesn't have extreme goals like wanting me to become immobile or anything like that. He simply enjoys supporting me. He buys me food almost every day and always asks if I'm craving anything. Knowing that someone cares about me that much is a huge turn on.

I mainly wanted to learn more about myself through this experience tho.

I'm very close to the 120kg goal I originally told you about. I think I'll reach it in two or three weeks if I keep going. The only thing I'm unsure about now is if I should raise my goal just a little maybe another 10kg and then stop or not.

I'm honestly confused about what I really want, so now I'm even more unsure about how I feel.

But thanks for asking. It actually felt nice to talk about my experience.

I tried to convince him to stop since he jad a very nice jacked body but now I see he has gone to the other way and as it seems I can't do anything fir him anymore. If you got any ideas or advices or thoughts of any kind just drop it below and let's talk

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It's an update on my last post but if you are new to this just know my friend decided to get fat on purpose and it is the very latest update I got:

Oh, thanks for asking! I was actually waiting for you to ask about it, but I thought it would take forever. 😂

I actually wasn't completely honest with you before because I was a little worried about being judged. I wasn't comfortable telling you that I had gained even more weight. When we first talked, it wasn't just 25kg it ended up being around 30kg. Also, it wasn't over just five months. It actually took a bit longer than that.

Anyway, let me tell you about my experience. 😉

Before I start...

Who told you I'm 172cm? I'm actually 182cm. I'm taller than you. 👀

Okay, let's begin.

As I mentioned before, I've always been attracted to bigger guys, but being fat myself was something completely new. I had never been overweight before, so I was curious about what it actually felt like.

Do I like that I got fatter?

Yes, I really do.

I've enjoyed it more than I expected. I'm eating foods I avoided for years, like regular Coke. Diet Coke feels ridiculous to me now, so I drink the full-sugar version instead. I also eat fast food three or four times a week, usually with dessert, and I don't constantly worry about counting calories anymore.

Did I stop going to the gym?

No, not at all.

I still go to the gym regularly, but I cut my workouts from five days a week to three. I still enjoy exercising, but honestly, after work it's become much harder to convince myself to drive all the way to the gym instead of just ordering fast food and relaxing at home.

Did my appetite increase?

Definitely.

I noticed a huge difference. I used to force myself to eat breakfast because I knew I should, but now I wake up genuinely starving. I also stay hungry even after eating large meals.

For example, I went on a date with a guy. It didn't end very well and we blocked each other the next day. 🥴 We had pizza together, and I ate a lot, but when I got home I still felt like I needed a couple of burgers. So yes, the increased appetite and cravings are very real.

Did people comment on my weight gain?

Yes, and it was a little embarrassing.

My coworkers noticed that I'd gotten wider and joked about my belly sticking out of my clothes after I had to buy larger sizes. My gym buddy also keeps asking if I need help with my diet. He even offered to stay with me for a while to help me lose weight and get healthy again.

How did it affect dating and my sex life?

I definitely get less attention on Grindr now. Some people stop talking to me as soon as they realize I'm about 30 kg heavier than my profile says.

On the other hand, I've gotten much more attention on Grommr. People there have been incredibly kind. Some have even sponsored food for me or asked me to eat for them, which I actually found fun. I've also met a few local guys, and being fed by someone else was honestly one of the most exciting experiences I've ever had. I loved the feeling of someone touching me, complimenting my body, and playfully teasing me about my weight gain while feeding me.

What about the health risks?

I talked honestly with my doctor about everything. He told me I'm not unhealthy YET, but if I continue this lifestyle for much longer, developing diabetes is a real possibility. He recommended that I keep exercising, walk more, and consider therapy or sex therapy. He also mentioned that he's had other patients in similar situations.

Where am I now?

I've been dating a guy I met on Grommr for a while now. He's much more caring and emotional than I expected. He's very supportive of my weight gain, but he doesn't have extreme goals like wanting me to become immobile or anything like that. He simply enjoys supporting me. He buys me food almost every day and always asks if I'm craving anything. Knowing that someone cares about me that much is a huge turn on.

I mainly wanted to learn more about myself through this experience tho.

I'm very close to the 120kg goal I originally told you about. I think I'll reach it in two or three weeks if I keep going. The only thing I'm unsure about now is if I should raise my goal just a little maybe another 10kg and then stop or not.

I'm honestly confused about what I really want, so now I'm even more unsure about how I feel.

But thanks for asking. It actually felt nice to talk about my experience.

I tried to convince him to stop since he jad a very nice jacked body but now I see he has gone to the other way and as it seems I can't do anything fir him anymore. If you got any ideas or advices or thoughts of any kind just drop it below and let's talk

Hi, thanks for clicking.

I don't know how to even start, I don't even know if it's the true place to write these or not.

I live in Iran 🇮🇷, the country I hate from the deepest part of my heart and I did hate it since I was 5 years old. I feel downgraded and just wished if I could leave Iran as soon as possible, everyday in here is shit, inflation is too hugh, currency is the least valuable, every day we hear about war, economy is just a crisis.

For those who don't know inflation for food is above 110% and on average it is 88%

And just by owning 6 American Dollars you can say you have 1 million of our currency.

I also am a gay man living in Iran every second of my life I have to wear a mask and double check and edit my behavior in real time. Have to act homophobic or talk I really love to marry a woman.

I always wanted to leave Iran but the future is too dark, immigration needs too much money and my budget is just shrinking cause the economy is dog shit, also with the Iran's place in world I think no country loves to get Iranian immigrants. Not only what I said above but also the chance is too low to even find a way out.

According to the law in Iran every boy above 18+ has to go to mandatory military service or they can't marry, borrow money from bank, work, leave country, request a passport.

I seriously need positive messages... Internet and my online friends are the only things I have that give me a bit sanity but every time a war may happen or such a thing government disconnects it, like 1 month ago we got connected again and before that we didn't have internet for 90 days (it is documented ans you can check it)

I can't get therapy cause I have to reveal too much things that I seriously don't want anyone know in Iran, I don't want it, I also do notn

have money for that.

Plz give me some positive energy I need it, if you had any questions feel free to ask😞

Hi

Thanks for clicking, I was talking to a friend, we met 1 month ago and we agreed to not show faces if we are uncomfortable, but today he said he wants to reveal if I want to reveal too and I said it's okay. Then we showed face and I got the reply:

“Mannn you give so much husky vibes! Grow a beard and never shave your body again!”

Tbh I don't know what are the differences between them, I got called an otter once which was weird to hear that time and the other time I asked another friend if they know where to find furry references for a wolf/husky furry character and he replied back

“Just use your facial features”

The thing is none of them actually know what they are saying 😭 when I ask what does it mean they say, it's just the vibes.

I know I could search on tge web vut highly prefer to contact some guys online and know their opinions too so go on and teach me what are these cute animal tags👀

Hi thanks for clicking!

I have been going to the gym for 3 years and made some progress not much but still, I love the lifting and going to gym and whatever comes with it and love the looks, but I sometimes wonder how would getting fat and being fat will feel like, specially that I have an interest in fat men who have a bit of a belly to grab and play with.

It has been 24/7 in my mind recently.

Help me to choose between these :(

Btw I am afraid of getting a food addiction or stretch marks that will last forever or get a loose skin if I gain weight and lose weight after that.

Btw I am 19 58kg and 179cm (classified underweight but muscles are helping me I gained a bit weight since going to gym, just waiting till I can work on my gym progress on my owb to not pressure my family for it)

Hi, thanks for clicking.

I havr a friend of mine whom I met on a game named Genshin Impact and we got each other's Discord ID and been talking for 6 years I think.

We got so close together tho it is a virtual/online friendship, and we are so distant, but he still shares a lot with me.

He always used to send me pics going to gym or preparing meals, going out, partying in the club.

Recently he said he has discovered a new sexual side of himself, he says he gets sexual pleasure seeing other men gain weight and always been interested in fat men (he loves the belly and softness he said) I knew he likes guys with a bigger frame but he revealed he signed up to Grommr and is trying to gain weight intentionally to get really big cause it looks cool.

I asked him why, cause he has semi visible abs and a good amount of muscles. He replied back he has never been fat in his life and is curious to know how does it feel, he also mentioned guys who gain weight and are fat seem to be really happy with it and they are looking for more and seeing others do it made him curious to see how it all starts and feel, he even said he has talked to a twink who kinda forced him to get a fast food addiction and even sent me pics of that guy from Grommr.

I tried to explain getting fat can cause permanent effects but he says it all are too exaggerated and I am just BOLLING it. He is 172cm and has gained 15kg in the last 5 months as he says and he said he has a goal to reach 120kg for now ans see how the rest will feel.

I am too worried for him cause I think it can make him too unhealthy specially if he becomes a food addict, I think it is mentally ill... But am not sure how can I help him, plz gimme ideas😢