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Both male and female siblings. I've been on the receiving end of low/no contact before. There have been years also where I didn't even have some of their socials and even the number at some point.

There's also tension with my father - he actually used to hit me because my natural sort of responses would bruise his ego.

I'm at a phase where I'm building the foundation for the next phase of my life and deciding who I want in it or not.

I have inattentive adhd but I keep getting flooded by a lot of stimuli but also with the same sort of imagery especially the first one - i'm pretty sure I see it by each waking hour.

It's always a chaotic or mysterious figure, a scene, a mix of occult imagery/materialism, the sea, travel, substances, nightlife, some sort distortion visually and well as sonically.

Is all of this north node in 12h?

I feel a strong pull into creative direction to try and monetize a tendency to get sucked in, that I don't feel is going to go away

I usually laugh when I see the tower now like 'bro I've done this a thousand times already - you think I'm scared?' 😂

But seriously what are some of the best things about this combination?

Im reading a book called 'The Tools' and there's something about gratitude to a higher power thats helping me a lot with peace of mind.

So im interested in looking at my chart through a lense of gratitude

I'm interested in the context that you are:

- just around this person

- work with this person

- dating this person if you want to

I'm totally sober and vice free but I used to take acid, edibles and I really like adhd meds to the point I ignored advice and burnt out because I loved the feeling of being able to study day and night and have full executive function

I also feel like a cool breeze if I think about opioids even though I've never taken them

And I just feel everything intensely like absorbing even other people's emotions

- I can just enter in a trance state listening to music and writing, drawing or just working

I really like places like Barcelona, Dubai, especially around the Palm or Jesolo so there's something about water but I don't know why there's some attraction to Berlin in my head.

I'll visit anyway but I'm wondering if I would do well to build a brand and live here.

Not the best time right now, kind of skint, but I actually want to see things from a more positive angle and practice some gratitude

Its page of swords rx,

Bottom of deck magician

Personally I genuinely believe I could become a millionaire purely off talent, self-mastery and patient compounding alone.

I dont feel the need or urge to play games or patronize people or sabotage others to feel better. Or cheat my way to success.

Like for example if someone tries to steal an idea I'll just think you're actually shit - i can move up with 5 better ones in the next 2 hours 😂

I wonder why I'm kind of like this.

I dont want to share my face too openly - i'm deleting this account soon 😂

But I'm looking for insights into why I'm actually annoyed. I did some self reading but it doesnt point to something concrete.

Q: I need to figure out how to relocate and make some money. How?

I kind of need to get my shit together not going to lie - otherwise I'm going to be fucked soon but I want to leave my current environment too

6 of swords

Bottom of deck: knight of wands

I feel like right now I need to make a transition but theres definitely a cue to get moving soon

I don't want to talk too much about ideas but basically I want to create a fashion brand where the branding is centred around a utopia - it's big on transformation, dissolving boundaries, and mystery, with a heavy connection to nightlife and music.

I wanted to design a new collection exploring themes around euphoria, altered states, and escapism through clothes.

I think this placement is important for the overall branding so I wanted to explore it in more detail (msg me) -

and also if its a good idea to build anything remotely related to this rahu placement. I feel like this placement is bad and would just lead to chaos - I still want to build something so I can get rich 😂

I had to do a self read because some readers kept bringing up processing old wounds or unwanted feelings but I feel like I've done this over and over again 😂

I'm at rock bottom - the only way is up and out of the pit with learning and ACTION. How the fuck else do you get out the pit? 😂

I'm looking to clarify please.

Interpretation: overall i think its closer towards a more calm and stoic sort of movement or period of rebuilding - not explosive but methodical and measured but 9 of swords reversed is tricky.

(Note: knight of swords is typically my significator card)

I have been here for like 15 years - I genuinely feel this city has stolen all those years 😂