u/Aliltyrantbot

I think the total value of everything in there was around 170 or so (some warmie stuffed animals, temu stuffed animal, temu stickers, comic books and a heated blanket which was most expensive at 50 bucks. I ended up not shipping it cus I had exactly 1100 or so to my name, college student stuff (huge bummer tho cus was in love with this person and was tryna grab em lol), but im trying again and i want to know how exactly those tariffs worked? Im not sending the heated blanket anymore but i still have the stuffed animals (this was like.. in january). I saw that there are no taxes for things under 60, is that true? I really dont want to happily go to the office again only to find i cant afford to ship the gift.

As title says, I'm looking for a podcast that i can listen to during my wind down whilst i color. Currently i listen to my work podcast "Real Housewives of Dungeons and Dragons" but its too funny and chaotic to actually wind me down 😭. I used to listen to Camp Here and There (which i finished), The Magnus Archives (also finished) and Welcome to Nightvale (can't listen cus Cecil is the name of the ex im not over, and who introduced me to it lol). But yea, smth in those realms which is entertaining but also relatively chill. I tried malevolent but i didnt like the demons voice, threw me off too hard.

Im trying to get more consistent with working out and one way is utilizing supplements. So far i do creatine and glutamine everyday in my protein shake. i have two other supplements though and i dont know which to use. I alr have an amino blend that i got from Edge Fitness and then i just grabbed Xtend 7g BCAA today since its was on clearance for 7 bucks at work. So i just want some suggestions or advice on which of these i should actually use and would be more beneficial or if i should trial and error it (like do one for 2 weeks then try the other).

I very rarely see any queer books with poc, I asked for queer poc books before and a majority of them were gay men in a romance setting, and that's usually the only poc rep I see. That or black studs or drag queens. I've never seen a black transmasc, we're often forgot about I feel like in the communtiy so it'd be really cool if anyone could recommend some book that feature trans poc

I'm writing an essay that is, long story short, exploring the themes and history of horror and each subgenre and what it all says about humanity. i need a book for body horror but I don't want just something that'd make me "hurl," I need something with meaning. I need something with social commentary, I was thinking of The Vegetarian but I'll be honest....... that book was kind of hard:') Also thinking of "Tell me I'm Worthless" but I want to hear other recommendations, especially because Tell Me I'm Worthless isn't all that unknown. I also refuse to do You weren't meant to be Human because I'm rather upset at AJW for his major lack of poc rep, it's a whole thing.

The older movie (i do a book, 1 older movie and 1 modern) will be The Fly and modern will be The Substance (feel thats too obvious though idk..) if that helps anyone with their recommendations!

So this is my first time using a credit card, i cant post a screenshot but right now my minimum payment due is 0, due date is July 9th and current balance is 71 currently. I dont fully know what this means

Its the discover card for students, i only got it currently cus i rlly want to build a good score by January (is this possible btw?) to get a loan to pay for college. plus i need to pay for the bus and such.

do i have to pay the full current balance by july 9th or do i wait till the minimum payment comes up?

i never expected the "i want my own army. i want my own planet. i want it now!" to be from steven universe. i always thought it was from willy wonka. omg

what am i but a desperate dog for your love? waiting by that door staring day in and day out day in and day out day in and day out relentless and unforgiving

pathetic dog he'll take whatever he can get he'll take these crumbs of food and affection that comes through the door every blue moon eternally grateful

starving dog won't you feed this starving dog? this meager animal who looks at you like a God for the sheer attention you graciously bestow upon him

dumb dog why are you such a dumb dog? cant you see your owner done up and went? as you continue to sit here and wait and wait and wait you dumb stupid fucking dog

ugly, miserable dog with his ribs protruding as he sits as he sits and as he waits no food no water only desperation for you and your acknowledgement of his existence how could he exist like this? put that dog out put that dog out of his misery can't you do me that one tiny favor? just a small, tiny favor for your desperate desperate dog

Okay this is also kinda vent cus im SOOOOO SICK. Okay long story i can NOT stop daydreaming about my ex / fp (borderline personality disorder). which makes sense, he's the center of everything but i recently had to leave cus it was healthy and blah blah blah.

i need to get over him so i cant be daydreaming about him THIS much and this VIVIDLY. im esp sick tho because for some reason, ever since i could remember, my brain LOVES adding trauma "for the plot." probably a branch off my own but okay wtv. The issue is tho is that because if how immersive and vivid they are i end up getting legit anxiety attacks and/or crying over it. And when i say trauma i mean like, straight up assault. and its not towards me anymore its always my fp so i end up having to fight my own mind off from having me watch a way too vivid scene of yk what and im like why ???

its like i have to pry my brain apart to stop it but it keeps coming back like in the background of my mind like a tv that wont turn off. i cant find the remote and the tv is too high up for me to smash it if that makes sense.

Anyone have any advice on how to more easily control or stop these daydreams??

Ive mainly read C.G drews and andrew joseph white but then realized they both (mainly AJW) has the same autistic white trans gay boy and absolutely no POC. I want to see a black trans guys for once, or a black gay guy even.. bonus if their race has an affect (racism, discrimination, a specific cultural detail)