No topic in particular, I've just been having a lot more of sleepless nights since a recent loss so my hormones are still all out of wack.
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about writing letters and the lost art of it. I wonder if romance and yearning found its decline around the same time we stopped sending letters to each other.
and biohacking and if it's real and can work with sleeping...
For some reason, it really gets me off to give him head but I’m always left wondering at the end why i did it if he doesn't do the same to me. He has done it maybe twice in 4 years of being together and recently said it makes him uncomfortable to do it on me but doesn't feel that way if I do it for him
For reference, I am 28F and my libido has been high my entire life. The "ebb and flow" people talk about having is different with me in the sense that my drive is never fully gone or at a point low enough that I don't notice it. Prior to getting married, I would masturbate almost every day, sometimes a couple times in a day. This isn't a porn problem as I do not watch it or need to for that matter (not a fan of it personally). My husband (30M) on the other hand is okay with 1-2x a week of having sex. Before you tell me 1-2x times a week is normal, it's not to me considering how high my libido is and I honestly have friends who have expressed that they too would want to be doing it more than just "the average 1-2x a week".
Sometimes I wonder if that 1-2x a week average was founded upon a study group of men's libido alone, and not considering the vast varieties of womens' (not to even to mention the consideration of our cycles and how it can intensify in some weeks). I've only just hit a year of marriage and that alone has built up so much sexual frustration in me that I've started to just become angry and sad towards my husband for not matching me. Honestly speaking, it also slips into how undesired I feel from him and it just makes a mess in my head when I think about it. Of course, rationally, I know it's not his fault, and I could just do it myself everyday without him, but it makes me feel almost disgusting stepping out of the room to go somewhere else and do that. Especially when it's almost every day that I'd be doing that.
So quite frankly, I’m at a point where I just want to inhibit this libido of mine as much as I can, or at least to the point where I don't feel it in the background every single day. It's affecting me emotionally with my husband, and how I view my own sexual self, and I’m tired of having conversations (we've had a handful by now) on how to go around this or tackle it.
Anyone have any suggestions?
I've felt this before with my periods because of endometriosis and I’m still bleeding from a subchrionic hematoma. Wondering if anyone has ever experienced this? Is there anything to do for relief?
Had excision surgery in Feb for my endo, before i got pregnant