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My partner and I just received our contract with seed scout and we are having major second thoughts. After doing the research and math, it looks like we can expect to spend at least 19k with them. We are both self employed, don’t have fertility benefits or paid leave. Zero. We don’t know how we are going to do this.

For those of you who have gone the known donor route, not via a third party matching company, do you mind sharing what you spent all in all? Also, how was the timeline for you?

Thanks in advance.

Hi folks I want to bring more ritual into my daily life and routines and I’m wondering if anyone has any suggestions for journals or books that may help as a sort of guide. I just need something to look at and explore while at while I tune into what feels right for me. Thanks in advance.

I’ve found and started to listen to several podcasts that explore consciousness, spirituality, non-dualism, etc.. I’m very interested in this at this point in my life, but I cannot for the life of me find something that can keep my attention. The material itself is fascinating, but for some reason, the people who are relaying it are monotone and without personality. A very interesting book plot is useless to me without good writing. Same deal here. I have been listening to telepathy tapes, which I enjoy. Any other suggestions?

I’ve found and started to listen to several podcasts that explore consciousness, spirituality, non-dualism, etc.. I’m very interested in this at this point in my life, but I cannot for the life of me find something that can keep my attention. The material itself is fascinating, but for some reason, the people who are relaying it are monotone and without personality. A very interesting book plot is useless to me without good writing. Same deal here. I have been listening to telepathy tapes, which I enjoy. Any other suggestions?

Looking into micro dosing mushrooms, micro dosing ketamine, or trying the esketamine nasal spray. I’m interested in all 3 and not sure which to pursue. Curious about your experiences.

I have a super specific question that is coming from sheer curiosity.

Does anyone here have pulsatile tinnitus and if so, do you notice it triggered by distress ?

I have had it my whole life. I have done some research on it but not a ton. I am noticing that it tends to happen in therapy, or in moments where I am activated, talking about hard things, etc.. it also happens sometimes when I am very tired.

Just curious if and how it may be related to the ANS. Also I would love it if it went away.

Our dog has been licking excessively for about 15 minutes. mostly the floor but at times my legs. Her tail is tucked and the hair on her lower back is raised. She is shaking on and off. She stops occasionally and pants and then continues.

Edit: she eventually vomited a ton. It’s white and foamy, and it looks like her evening treat is indigested.

A week or two ago she was excessively eating grass, and I mean non stop, wouldn’t walk, wouldn’t stop to breathe. Same kind of energy and behavior.

Hey folks. I have been reading about TRE here and elsewhere. I read through the TRE for sensitive systems wiki. I am just wondering where to start, Where do these videos live? Is there a step by step all encompassing website? I am feeling a bit scattered with this.

Forgive me if it is right in front of my nose.

I have looked into certified practitioners. I have reached out to a few professionals, but I likely will not be able to afford it amongst my weekly therapy and other routine mental health services.

TIA

I’m 35. I have been in therapy since I was 9. I learned of my CPtSD and sought out the appropriate therapists about 6 years ago. I have had a few therapists since then, all who are certified in and primarily use somatic experiencing and IFS. A couple of these therapists are also EMDR trained, in a couple different variations. EMDR has been too much for me. Sometimes helpful, rarely insightful, and mostly push me deeper into a freeze state. My system is incredibly sensitive and my window of tolerance in very narrow.

I think it is worth mentioning that I was an emergency c section baby. My twin and I were 4 or 6 weeks premature.. can’t remember exactly how many weeks. We had twin transfusion syndrome and I was unresponsive and shutting down.

My mother lives in deep freeze and at the time of my birth, she lost her mother very suddenly. I believe she was catatonic.

I have been in therapy 3x a week for nearly 2 years now. I want to get married and have kids. I don’t want to be stuck in freeze as a new father. I’m doing everything I can. I understand this takes time, but in all honesty, I’m not much better than I was 6 years ago. I am in a different place than I was. I was very addicted to alcohol and lived in loneliness and misery in a way I do not anymore. I have learned so much, and have absolutely had progress and growth, but my nervous system is still jacked. I am still weighted down, disconnected, numb or despairing. My system is very dorsal. I just operate this way. I’m stuck. I have been unable to meet the very deep and vulnerable wounds that I carry because my system is so shut down.

I am realizing that what I’m doing isn’t going to take me to where I want to be. Which is alive, awake, connected to love, to others, my partner, my family.

I am considering a psilocybin assisted journey. I’m also interested in intensives. I’m not sure what modality. But I don’t have money. Like, anything at all. So I don’t know how I will do this. But at this point I’m ready to add it to my credit card debt if I know it will help. I need a jolt, activation, something to open up for me so that movement can happen.

Open to thoughts and personal experiences.

I’m 35. I have been in therapy since I was 9. I learned of my CPtSD and sought out competent therapists about 6 years ago. I have had a few therapists since then, all who are certified in and primarily use somatic experiencing and IFS. A couple of these therapists are also EMDR trained, in a couple different variations. EMDR has been too much for me.

I have been in therapy 3x a week for nearly 2 years now. I want to get married and have kids. I don’t want to be stuck in freeze as a new father. I’m doing everything I can. I understand this takes time, but in all honesty, I’m not much better than I was 6 years ago. I am in a different place than I was. I was very addicted to alcohol and lived in a loneliness and misery in a way I do not anymore. I have learned so much, and have absolutely had progress and growth, but my nervous system is still jacked. I am still weighted down, disconnected, numb or despairing. My system is very dorsal. I just operate this way. I have been unable to meet the very deep and vulnerable wounds that I carry because my system is so shut down.

I am realizing that what I’m doing isn’t going to take me to where I want to be. Which is alive, awake, connected to love, to others, my partner, my family.

I am considering a psilocybin assisted journey. I’m also interested in intensives. I’m not sure what modality. But I don’t have money. Like, anything at all. So I don’t know how I will do this. But at this point I’m ready to add it to my credit card debt if I know it will help. I need a jolt, activation, something to open up for me so that movement can happen.

Open to thoughts and personal experiences.

I’m new to handling any kind of equipment so forgive me if this is a no brainer.

My handheld blower stopped working this evening after using it for a while in the afternoon. The primer bulb wouldn’t fill. I took the air filter cover off and poked around. the fuel lines looked fine. The bulb itself didn’t seem to have any cracks. After inspecting for several minutes, the primer bulb was suddenly filled with gas. I had tried to pump it a few times while I was looking at the fuel lines, but it did not fill while I was doing that.

So the blower is working now, but I don’t want to run into this issue again. Thoughts?