I'm 18 and have been trying to find a second job. All jobs require driver's license and SSN. I have my license but she won't give me my SSN.
These texts are making me so mad. I have recordings from the night she took everything from me. College, food/hygiene/meds money, said she's selling my horse (which is the name i crossed out).
I don't have money for gas to go out and see him every day like I used to. I'd love to, but I can't. He's getting turnout and the barn manager says he has fun running around. I want to go out and ride him, but everytime I go he's being taken care of and realistically he doesn't need to be ridden to be happy.
I'm so tired of her selling what I'm going through as something I created and not something I'm doing out of survival after she told me she was going to "make my life really hard."
I have other family members sending me the same stuff and I don't respond.
I'm working several jobs to pay for rent and food. I'm so tired of seeing these messages acting like she's never done anything and I just have issues.
Yeah no shit I stopped going to classes after you threatened to take it away and then didn't respond when payment was due for the next semester. And I needed money for food, etc...
I'm so mad right now. She always made excuses when I'd confront her with something.
"You're on drugs. You're trans. You're insane and I'm calling the psych ward."
I've never drank alcohol or touched a drug. I'm working really hard right now while trying to continue to work on my hobbies despite time/money constraints.
I love that horse. He was the only consistent thing in my life. I want to keep him but I hate that owning him means I have to stay in contact with her.
I'm trying to get a 2yr certification that will get me a job with a base pay of $50/hr. I'm trying to hold out until then but I'm tired of seeing these messages acting like I'm doing this because I'm insane.
Thank god I have those recordings of what she said/did that night.
I'm 18 and have pretty much gone no contact with the only family I had left. I'm so tired all the time. If I'm not working, I'm sleeping. I'll sleep all day and all night if I can.
I live with my friend's family. I pay rent every month to them. I just wish I had my own family that I could go home to right now. I want someone to welcome me in the door and hug me. I want my OWN parents.
First dad was neglectful, arrested and died. Second dad was a danger to me. My mom wasn't great. She never really stood up for me, she threatened me, made me feel unloved and took college and food/hygiene money from me because i was "too quiet" on a trip and she "wasn't getting the attention she deserves".
I feel like I've never experienced having parents. It was never about me and I felt like I was always looking after them. It was always about their feelings and needs. Before I left, I can't remember the last time any of them asked me if I was okay. I was always the one comforting them.
My birthday is coming up and I wish I could just have a family. I would give up so much just to be loved. Even just a mentor. Just someone older than me who doesn't have other kids who loves me and genuinely cares and worries about me.
But I'm turning 19. Every year I age, that wish gets more and more pathetic and unlikely to ever come true. I just want to feel loved and safe for once in my life. I always think about how depressing it'll be if I die before I ever get to feel that. I hope if I die, someone at least holds me for a few minutes while I pass. Or maybe the mortician will be gentle with me and talk to me softly through the process.
I currently work a part-time job with little hours. I have to buy myself food and pay rent with the (not my own) family I'm currently living with. It's $550 a month.
I got a full-time job offer at a call center but I'm already horribly depressed and am worried doing that until 11:30pm every night might push me over the edge.
I'm trying to find another job to make ends meet nicer.
My birthday is at the end of this month but I don't think I can afford to even buy a cake from walmart.
All in all I just want to experience joy and comfort. I always think about how sad it'll be if I die before I experience love or feeling safe at night.
Please leave any advice or tips on how I can improve my life while making minimum wage. Social life, home life, etc... All appreciated. I'm tired of living a depressing life.
I graduated high school last year. I had been this teacher's student from 8th grade up until 12th grade. She inspired me so much that I decided to major in the subject they taught.
At the end of the year I went into their class to help them pack for the summer. It was just me and the teacher. She pulled me into a hug (I'm not a big fan of physical contact so I was already uncomfortable) and then kissed me, but not directly on the lips.
She also invited me to her going away party where it was almost entirely adults and they were all drunk, I was 17 at the time. I've been invited to join the group chat several times but I haven't.
I honestly just shut down and ignored it. Now I'm wondering if that was inappropriate???
18, recently moved into a friend's room (he moved out which is why there's an open room). I share a house with his mom and sister now and pay rent. I'm incredibly grateful, his mom has always been and is being super nice. I usually have trouble sleeping at 4am but passed out at 10pm and genuinely felt safe and comfortable. That said, it's really hard to listen to a normal family. It hurts to hear her walk into the daughter's room and call her "my love", it hurts to listen to them do game night. It's just kind of hard because I'm trying to accept that I'll never get normal parents or a real childhood now that I'm grown up. I also hate feeling like the odd one out. It's awkward when they talk to me or say "hi" because they're this perfect family and I'm the troubled kid with pretty much no family. I used to sleep over at another family's house when things were dangerous at home, and this reminds me a lot of that.
Idk.
18, recently moved into a friend's room (he moved out which is why there's an open room). I share a house with his mom and sister now and pay rent.
I'm incredibly grateful, his mom has always been and is being super nice. I usually have trouble sleeping at 4am but passed out at 10pm and genuinely felt safe and comfortable.
That said, it's really hard to listen to a normal family. It hurts to hear her walk into the daughter's room and call her "my love", it hurts to listen to them do game night. It's just kind of hard because I'm trying to accept that I'll never get normal parents or a real childhood now that I'm grown up.
I also hate feeling like the odd one out. It's awkward when they talk to me or say "hi" because they're this perfect family and I'm the troubled kid with pretty much no family. I used to sleep over at another family's house when things were dangerous at home, and this reminds me a lot of that.
Idk.
crazy part is i wouldn't even be able to get this job.
I currently wear the SheGlam Twilight Lip Tint in "Wolfpack". I bought it ironically but actually love the color.
The issue is the formula sucks. It comes off really easily. Even if I don't eat/drink, it'll rub off in the center just from talking.
It's a warm blood red. Sometimes it usually darkens a little as it dries. I haven't been able to find anything like it.
I would definitely prefer a darker color than a brighter one.
Products:
SheGlam Twilight Lip Tint in "Wolfpack"
Biore sheer sunscreen
I'm currently deciding between working at a call center or a store that i genuinely like.
call center pays $17/hr with a $1000 sign on bonus.
store pays $15.45
part of me feels like i'm better off working at the store because i'll enjoy work. i currently work in retail and actually enjoy it a decent amount.
IT WAS THE STUPID MIRACLEGRO.
it got so much worse after i took this video. started moving stuff around and giant clumps of them the size of my palm started falling to the floor. i'm horrified and disgusted.
ALL of those tiny dots and squiggles are fungus gnats. I'm horrified.
I couldn't figure out which plant brought the infestation or where the gnats went to sleep at night. After repotting all my plants (my vft twice) and not figuring out where they were coming from, i figured they must be hiding somewhere else in my room. Which is when I found this horror.
The stupid bag of miraclegro is what brought the gnats in and where they've been breeding and hiding.
Learned my lesson.
UPDATE: MILLIONS OF THEM CAME FROM AND HAVE BEEN BREEDING AND LIVING IN THE MIRACLEGRO BAG. NASTY. BUT SOLVED.
There are an insane amount of gnats in my tiny room. I've tried everything. Mosquito dunks, perlite on top, even vacuuming them by hand and nothing has helped. I've been fighting these things for a whole month now and it's only been getting worse.
I already have stress issues and these guys have made it so much worse. I cannot be in my room without them crawling on me or getting in my eye or up my nose.
I'm devastated and incredibly frustrated.
If I wait for them to hide in the pots, and get rid of the plants, will that fix the issue???
Pretty much everything is locked up at our store and we're usually very busy. A lot of times I'm the person both running the registers/self-checkout and running across the store to unlock stuff for people.
A lot of them have been doing this thing where they press the customer service button, so I run over there and they spent the whole time waiting on their phones so they don't know what they want and they want me to stand their for five minutes while they decide instead of deciding before. Meanwhile there's five customers at the register and all the self-checkouts need help.
It drives me insaneee.
All my plants only get mosquito dunk water.
I just sprayed super saturated mosquito dunk water on the vft because it was crawling with bugs, so that's why it's wet. I only bottom water otherwise.
HELP ME 😭😭😭