u/AsparagusEither5927

I am autism (17)M and when ı was early 17 before realizination ı roleplay as different characters detective and depression guy from sad musics

I saw some exposed roblox youtubers gets exposed and ı wanted to be expose some creep too ı saw the word"P3do" ı was curious about it ı only searched its a creep but never fully research

I went to play a game then ı saw pride flags ı wanted to social but then my thoughts hit me are" P3do related to Pride flags" because ı didn't knew much about Pride flags and that word fully so ı went to ask a person about it but ı asked so awkard and stupid said

"İs there PDF flag in here"

And she was suspicious of me thought ı am a creep and a admin grabbed and ım sure ı said"ım not one of them"but second memory is ım sure tags had some problem and she said "Does it look like there is" and ı got Votekicked

I didnt knew what was going on ı was confused then ım scared that am ı gonna get exposed?

Then ı turned mid 17 and realizination hit me I went trauma and scared ı was almost panic attack I started to get POCD ı could'nt told anyone even my parents becaude they do not know online nor any ı get depression and more closed to myself ı stopped playing roblox in New Evening

I need help some advice am ı gonna be okay?

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Am ı ruined?

I am autism (17)M and when ı was early 17 before realizination ı roleplay as different characters detective and depression guy from sad musics

I saw some exposed roblox youtubers gets exposed and ı wanted to be expose some creep too ı saw the word"P3do" ı was curious about it ı only searched its a creep but never fully research

I went to play a game then ı saw pride flags ı wanted to social but then my thoughts hit me are" P3do related to Pride flags" because ı didn't knew much about Pride flags and that word fully so ı went to ask a person about it but ı asked so awkard and stupid said

"İs there PDF flag in here"

And she was suspicious of me thought ı am a creep and a admin grabbed and ım sure ı said"ım not one of them"but second memory is ım sure tags had some problem and she said "Does it look like there is" and ı got Votekicked

I didnt knew what was going on ı was confused then ım scared that am ı gonna get exposed?

Then ı turned mid 17 and realizination hit me I went trauma and scared ı was almost panic attack I started to get POCD ı could'nt told anyone even my parents becaude they do not know online nor any ı get depression and more closed to myself ı stopped playing roblox in New Evening

I need help some advice am ı gonna be okay?

When ı was in second class ı was little happy and enjoyed my first time in second class ı was autism running around energy and something happen

I was playing with door and opening and closing it then a bald and goat assistant manager stopped me and take me to his room for punishment ı giggled with my friend but then he slapped me ı was scared and wanted to cry and he shoutered at me then we went back to class and ı cried

I still remember that year and ıdk why

My curiousity awkard question let me down ım traumitized now

Im tired ı need a therapy but ı also need answer will ı be okay?

POCD is keep asking me a weird thoughts after ı asked a stupid question in roblox when ı was a teen

"Now wait until you get exposed creep"

Im really scared of expose ı had dreams and normal life but ı ruined it

I don't know what should ı do therapy would help but ı need a answer is someone done that?

Im having trauma from a stupid question My POCD makes me thinking ı am a monster

Im 17 and ı been trying to get over and over this guilt but that stupid question ı asked in game in early 17 in roblox ım strugling

I said "is there pdf flag"GOSH I ASKED LİKE SOME İDİOT ı was in narcistic detective bullshit or something or some adventurer

I said to a pride flag artist and she suspicious on me and ı got kicked

Im scared ı can't get over it ı convinced my parents can ı go to therapy they said yes but ı didn t told reason ım scared

Update about my POCD Iconvinced my brother ı will go to therapy he agreed but ı didn't told my POCD its anger issue but ı will tell therapy about my POCD ım finally gonne be in peace ı might show my report papers

Will that work?

I saw some weird guy messaged me on reddit asked me do you have a telegram ı said "Who are you" he didn't answer my question so ı blocked him felt uncomftrable is he gonna help my ocd? I feel uncomftrable right now he just texted me right now Please help

I insulted someone

I was 16 playing brookhaven doing robbery roleplay and while ı was doing funny activity ı saw a women talking to a abc player

Player said"ABC FOR..."

And other women said" shut up you talking like a..."

And ı wanted to defend abc player but ı gone too far (NOTE: my brain doesn't remember much it makes me forget so much but ım sure ı know what ı remember)

I said"And you talking like a WH***"

She confused and said" what do you mean"

I said "you know what ı mean"

Then she understood fwkt like assulted she told everyone"GUYS HE İS HARRASİNG ME"

I QUİCKLY QUİTED I didn't knew what happend to me ı always been nice sometimes ı don't go that far my narcism and autism was stupid ı went to panic and why ı called her wh*re ı never insult the womens like that ı mean ı was immature yeah but not that immature way

I am scared and didn't knew why

ı want to continue writing but sometimes when ı scroll on tiktok or youtube ı see video of...

ı just want to forget my guilt what ı said as a teenager they were cringy and stupid narcistic words ı said i online my POCD triggers when ı see some videos on tiktok and ı feel guilty having panics

should ı quit social media?

Im late 17 and ı need help...

I know ı been writing about my guilts and fears on reddit but ı wanna give full list.

I feel lot regrets for my behavior when ı was early 17

(OLD POST)

I hate my teen past...

I am traumitized by my teen regrets ı am turning 18 and when realizination hit me. I remember what some horrible things ı done in roblox; bully, narcism and gone far on my words. ı am traumitized for what ı had done in past on roblox. ı betrayed myself ı supposed to become positive nice and normal... but ı become weird and said bad things when ı was early 17 late 16

1 I had no social skill much so ı told do you have fantasies and it was disgusting a man called me freak he was right ı was acting freak

2 I Insulted andsomeone and she said to others about what ı did and ı snapped and shocked what ı said ı thought ı moved on but ı couldnt...

3. I told my fantasy again to other man but it was weird what ı said server called me freak and ı told him ı was autistic he supported me but asked me get a therapy be happy when he comfort me like that ı thought ı am feeling change and ı realized now in end od the year ı quitted roblox to heal myself but ı got OCD and hated myself

4.I was on the game and saw lgbtq flags. there are too many flags on lgbtq ı said to myself then my autism brain just jumped on and my thought said" does pdf flag related to them?"

I asked a to a person said"is there pdf flag here?"

And she was suspicious on me and admins grabbed me and ı woried and said "ım not one of them" she thought ı am pdf and ı was so dumb why ı asked that question but ı was confused ı said to myself what is going on and she said "does it look like there is ? "And they kicked me ı was confused then after months it popped on my brain and ı searched on internet and that day ı was an idiot but ı got trauma due to my stupidity and could'nt stop thinking about my guilt it keeps saying

"You are the monster"ım scared for my health and my future. Does anyone had like these mistakes

5.now when ı saw that MAP flag my OCD brain tricking me saying ı painted that flag in roblox but ı am mostly sure ı painted TRANS flag for comedy but it keeps messing with mw ı know ans ım sure because back rhen in roblox ı didn't saw that flag much just seen a little bit but ı know ı dont involve with this and ı didn't even know details and that thing so ım sure ı did not but my POCD keeps tricking me

6.When ı turn 18 ı will completly stop masturbation and write fantasy on ai because when ı was 17 ı masturbated so many bad things without knowing what ı was doing ı should've watch porn because that what people do and ı just did my own fantasies write them but ı remember ı was mostly on SFW transformation and weight gain still it madealmost to NSFW ı feel like a disgusting man and

horrible some point ı was reckless and curious

Im still spending my teenage times on fantasies ı wrote but focus on adults characters completly ı learnt it from my faults and wanna be good person

I discovered on youtube when ı was 13 ı wish ı wouldn't discover it

And that's all but it still drives me insane after my guilts mistakes and fear of exposure

I am now growing up to become better person move on have a normal life but self guilt and fear of exposure

I was early 17 and autism boy ı quitted roblox to not be weird but ı sometimes miss old games pizza place and piggy those were my favorite but if ı go back again ı become worse and ı do not want to be so ı quit ans become a better person learn to watch my words be careful learn them directly what that means for my questions

I really wanna be better but ı do want to know did someone done that said horrible things without knwoing

Am ı the only one?

I had a dreams a better life become writer a hero stories ı want to write comedy fun romance and action but with my guilts and fear what ı said what ı did this Real event POCD is strong and ı saw a lot of people exposed for being gross predetor ım thinking am ı like them? am ı just disgusting?

ı always been a good to people sometimes see them as a friend family ı always wanted to care them

But my life is ruined and this fear is strong my dreams shattered ı feel like ı am a bad guy in most ı am disgusting and ım still having this Guilt POCD

1.Seeking the Hope chapter 1: birth of Hope(alien distopia story)

2.walking to the end(cold heart women's adventure)

3.Lion and Bear(soviet and america friendship through WW2)

these are action movie like stories but ı also struggle with title ı need something cool and accurate ways

so any ideas?

I have lots of online guilt the weird and stupid questions ı asked

Im trying to be better calm write but they just keep coming back when ı see some videos ım thinking ı am guilty ı breathe heavy and scream at myself inside like a lunatic ım tired...

ok so there is a turkish guy and he works in gift shop in eyüpsultan and he have trauma past where his mother abandoned for mafia boss and his father died by spanish mafia

turkish guy lives in apertment with his little brother.

a women he met she came from america and moved to nişangah a bakery shop she opened.

they met in road and fell in love each other... ı wrote my first story on notebook and it made my heart touched. so what do you guys thing?

I know ı been writing about my guilts and fears on reddit but ı wanna give full list.

I feel lot regrets for my behavior when ı was early 17

(OLD POST)

I hate my teen past...

I am traumitized by my teen regrets ı am turning 18 and when realizination hit me. I remember what some horrible things ı done in roblox; bully, narcism and gone far on my words. ı am traumitized for what ı had done in past on roblox. ı betrayed myself ı supposed to become positive nice and normal... but ı become weird and said bad things when ı was early 17 late 16

1 I had no social skill much so ı told do you have fantasies and it was disgusting a man called me freak he was right ı was acting freak

2 I Insulted andsomeone and she said to others about what ı did and ı snapped and shocked what ı said ı thought ı moved on but ı couldnt...

3. I told my fantasy again to other man but it was weird what ı said server called me freak and ı told him ı was autistic he supported me but asked me get a therapy be happy when he comfort me like that ı thought ı am feeling change and ı realized now in end od the year ı quitted roblox to heal myself but ı got OCD and hated myself

4.I was on the game and saw lgbtq flags. there are too many flags on lgbtq ı said to myself then my autism brain just jumped on and my thought said" does pdf flag related to them?"

I asked a to a person said"is there pdf flag here?"

And she was suspicious on me and admins grabbed me and ı woried and said "ım not one of them" she thought ı am pdf and ı was so dumb why ı asked that question but ı was confused ı said to myself what is going on and she said "does it look like there is ? "And they kicked me ı was confused then after months it popped on my brain and ı searched on internet and that day ı was an idiot but ı got trauma due to my stupidity and could'nt stop thinking about my guilt it keeps saying

"You are the monster"ım scared for my health and my future. Does anyone had like these mistakes

5.now when ı saw that MAP flag my OCD brain tricking me saying ı painted that flag in roblox but ı am mostly sure ı painted TRANS flag for comedy but it keeps messing with mw ı know ans ım sure because back rhen in roblox ı didn't saw that flag much just seen a little bit but ı know ı dont involve with this and ı didn't even know details and that thing so ım sure ı did not but my POCD keeps tricking me

6.When ı turn 18 ı will completly stop masturbation and write fantasy on ai because when ı was 17 ı masturbated so many bad things without knowing what ı was doing ı should've watch porn because that what people do and ı just did my own fantasies write them but ı remember ı was mostly on SFW transformation and weight gain still it madealmost to NSFW ı feel like a disgusting man and

horrible some point ı was reckless and curious

Im still spending my teenage times on fantasies ı wrote but focus on adults characters completly ı learnt it from my faults and wanna be good person

I discovered on youtube when ı was 13 ı wish ı wouldn't discover it

And that's all but it still drives me insane after my guilts mistakes and fear of exposure

I am now growing up to become better person move on have a normal life but self guilt and fear of exposure

I was early 17 and autism boy ı quitted roblox to not be weird but ı sometimes miss old games pizza place and piggy those were my favorite but if ı go back again ı become worse and ı do not want to be so ı quit ans become a better person learn to watch my words be careful learn them directly what that means for my questions

I really wanna be better but ı do want to know did someone done that said horrible things without knwoing

Am ı the only one?

I had a dreams a better life become writer a hero stories ı want to write comedy fun romance and action but with my guilts and fear what ı said what ı did this Real event POCD is strong and ı saw a lot of people exposed for being gross predetor ım thinking am ı like them? am ı just disgusting?

ı always been a good to people sometimes see them as a friend family ı always wanted to care them

But my life is ruined and this fear is strong my dreams shattered ı feel like ı am a bad guy in most ı am disgusting and ım still having this Guilt POCD

ı masturbated so many fantasies and my thoughts ı listened when ı was a 15 and 16 ı didn't knew what ı was doing

ı didn't knew much about sex,rules and boundries most of my fantasies are SFW but ı almost turn NSFW then gronial response came in early 17 ı feel regret and disgust too much now ı am late 17 and ım turning into adulthood but these guilts what ı did in past why ı did that

ı feel shame guilt and OCD keeps looping me and ı cannot stop thinking about my guilts a lot that ı am panicking so much

I remember things ı masturbated when ı was 15 16 ı wrote my fantasies on my journal then gronial response came in early 17 and ı felt heavy guilt and felt like mental hospital ı was in ı am late 17 now and ım focusing on adult characters conpletly but ı will stop masturbate when ı turn 18 due to trauma

I remember things ı masturbated when ı was 15 16 ı wrote my fantasies on my journal then gronial response came in early 17 and ı felt heavy guilt and felt like mental hospital ı was in ı am late 17 now and ım focusing on adult characters conpletly but ı will stop masturbate when ı turn 18 due to trauma