
I wish that doing a just a few hard things didn't wipe me out for the rest of the day.
I feel like whenever I have to do something difficult, after I've done the difficult things, it's like I'm completely wiped out for the rest of the day. Today for example, I had a call with my boss's boss (nothing bad, and it was a nice chat) but that still felt like a "big thing I had to do".
In addition, I had to make the dreaded doctor's appointment. Because I had to make the doctor's appointment, I also had to talk to someone else to check on the status of my financial aid request. (Good thing I did too, because the nice lady I spoke with discovered no one had even looked at it since I submitted it so she flagged it for me.) Then I messaged one of my colleagues to arrange a meeting next week.
The actual time I spent on these things was collectively probably less than 2 hours. And yet, I feel exhausted and like all I want to do is scroll on my phone or play a video game. I don't feel like I have any energy left in my body for doing dishes or putting away laundry. I have ordered dinner and feel like all I want to do is eat then take a nap. Then I'll inevitably wake up at 10 p.m. and transform into a goblin with as much energy as I need, but won't be able to do much of anything productive because the rest of the world is sleeping.
Bleh. (P.S. I am indeed medicated)