u/BeginningActuator343

This has just been on my mind for a bit tonight and I wasn’t sure where else to take it. As far as my life goes, I’m in a great spot. Stable job, good family, friends, a girlfriend I love dearly. By all accounts, I should be chilling, right?

But I’m not, because for whatever reason, I have a voice in my head telling me at every opportunity that I’m not good enough, and I don’t deserve this, and I’ve convinced myself that something horrible is gonna happen to me because I feel I don’t deserve to be happy. It’s exhausting. I hate living like this, and it’d be different if this was just an ‘every now and then’ sorta thing, but it’s not. This is something I deal with at damn near every waking moment of my life. Rarely am I able to just sit down and enjoy what I have, and it’s really messing with me.

I just wanted to get this off my chest, thank you for reading if you did :(

My girlfriend is coming down soon and we’re planning on having sex and so I ordered a couple of condom brands. My girth is around 5.4”, and so I settled on both Caliber 2XLs and MyOne 64mm and I’m gonna see which one I like best. Is there another good option for my size or are these okay?

I want this to go okay and I’ve never done it before so I’m just curious.

My girlfriend is coming down soon and we’re planning on having sex and so I ordered a couple of condom brands. My girth is around 5.4”, and so I settled on both Caliber 2XLs and MyOne 64mm and I’m gonna see which one I like best. Is there another good option for my size or are these okay?

I want this to go okay and I’ve never done it before so I’m just curious.

I’m embarrassed of myself and everything I have going on in my mind, I don’t ever tell anyone what’s going on, not my friends, not my girlfriend, nobody. I just bottle it up and cry alone when no one’s looking because I’m tired of being made to feel like I’m weak for just being overwhelmed with life.

I don’t think I’ll make it to the end of the year. I thought I could do this and turn my life around but every day I wake up just feels more and more overwhelming now. It’s to a point where I no longer want to exist. All I want is to fade away and have everyone just forget who I am. I’m not worth anything and I never will be.

I CANT EVEN USE IT, IT CRASHES MY CHAT EVERY TIME I TRY FOR A RESPONSE

devs are so smart

I’m embarrassed of myself and everything I have going on in my mind, I don’t ever tell anyone what’s going on, not my friends, not my girlfriend, nobody. I just bottle it up and cry alone when no one’s looking because I’m tired of being made to feel like I’m weak for just being overwhelmed with life.

I don’t think I’ll make it to the end of the year. I thought I could do this and turn my life around but every day I wake up just feels more and more overwhelming now. It’s to a point where I no longer want to exist. All I want is to fade away and have everyone just forget who I am. I’m not worth anything and I never will be.

I’m so anxious and depressed over it that I can’t stand it

I’m so anxious and depressed over it that I can’t stand it

And now another pandemic is about to start.

Sure did get better.

I hate every part of myself and my life, and I’m definitely not going through another pandemic lockdown to add onto that because the COVID lockdown led to the absolute worst period of my life where I had several suicide attempts.

I’m not doing this again. So I’m gonna take myself out now, once I leave work. Plenty of parking garages around for me to use

This hantavirus situation has me terrified, the most terrified I’ve been SINCE 2020. And I’m just saying, people told me not to be worried then either…

Nothing is sitting right with me this time.

This hantavirus situation has me terrified, the most terrified I’ve been SINCE 2020. And I’m just saying, people told me not to be worried then either…

Nothing is sitting right with me this time.

I don’t know what to do anymore