I tried dynamic but i get very tired and fall asleep just after it
I listen to meditative musics affirmation
But i feel smtngs lacking or im stuck
So its been good 8 months since breakup and im only now realising what it actually was
He just liked me for the way i looked
Everytime id ask him what do u like about me
Hed be speechless and say
Ur smile
I had million things to say about his personality (he was not that good looking)
Id also complement his eyes arms things like that
But yeah
He only ever saw my body not anything else about me
And i feel ... unseen and disgusted i as a human being have a million different aspects ao does he
I was always eager curious but him performative
That 1.5 years of relationship feels like nothing to me anymore because it was nothing from his side just performance !
Lovebombing and performance he never even .. loved me so to say
Cuz he didnt even know me 👁👁
Hello "Pata hai Aaj kya hua" redditors
Today i wanna share something extremely beautifulllllll
With you guys
LOVE
My roommate left today her college is over i still have 1 more year to go
I didnt think i would be crying or in shambles over just a roommate leaving uk? I didnt expect this at alllllll we were together for a year
We had our good and bad days days i was so irritaed by her but ive a thing i cant say my boundaries to people
Most of them shed understand by herself, she wasnt one of those whod intentionally want to make ur life hell
She made my life easier she was a listener a talker, we would chat after our clg gets over wed eat together
We had a sync in our life
These things are what makes life uk?
It was beautiful human connections are beuatiful beyond words
Pain comes with love i never realised that love can be such a beautiful feeling and people leaving can make u realise love and its value its a vibration an energy u create around urself and people tune into it
I am someone jisko pyar dikhana nj ata i dont even realise what love is i am very negative kind of person i became this way cuz i got hurt in past but after this incident i feel ive broken my shell and am actually happy that i can feel this pain and everything
I do love everything in life so much i love love so much
I lied to other before i behaved SO WRONG with someone and if i could i would japanese apologise to them daily for lifetime i would
But those were mistakes ig i needed to make to learn loves value and how to love
I do feel everything it turns out
I became an avoidant i shut down every emotion i ever had i tuned out of life so that i dont have to feel negative feelings ever but its over now.
Im talking here about love not the romantic bollywood thing pls!!
I just wanna tell u guys that love is beautiful be love.
Im out of my life hating shell guys, im finally out of being scared, afraid. Of not loving or not showing love im out of my avoidant shell....
IT WAS SO HARD TO BE ME IM GLAD IM NOT ME ANYMORE!!!!
IM GLAD I GREW to be the me i am today
After 9 years of bleeding i can say ive finally got the hang of periods
Ovulation phase is so frisky my LORD
My hormones be like: if i could kill you i would
My mood was all over the place i was crying becoming depressed sad anxious for no reason and then happy again then sad then crying
Then came today morning where I got a river of blood gushing down my legs 😭 ive never experienced this cuz i usually wear UW and sleep but last night i didnt
It was alll over floor
But im so grateful i got period again on right time 🫶
Love myself sm my body sm for thisss
Im gonna take extra care of myself from now on ovulation days😭😭 my ovulation days are crazZZZZYYyyyyyyyyy
I feel mad like my hormones are everywhere
Anyway this was a lil morning story🫶🥀
GOOD MORNING GURLSS
"Pata hai aaj kya hua"
So its been good 8 months since breakup and im only now realising what it actually was
He just liked me for the way i looked
Everytime id ask him what do u like about me
Hed be speechless and say
Ur smile
I had million things to say about his personality (he was not that good looking)
Id also complement his eyes arms things like that
But yeah
He only ever saw my body not anything else about me
And i feel ... unseen and disgusted i as a human being have a million different aspects ao does he
I was always eager curious but him performative
That 1.5 years of relationship feels like nothing to me anymore because it was nothing from his side just performance !
Lovebombing and performance he never even .. loved me so to say
Cuz he didnt even know me 👁👁
Context
Her cloths were in wm since morning
And this is what she does give lecture instead of actually doing what i asked
Like how dumb can one be?
This girl has talked to me so rudely in past
Demeaned and direspectfully talked with me and now giving me gyan i seriously cant with people
Who give advice that they dont take
I replied with
Sure just dry them
They used to get on my nerves a lot now its just like a insect biting on my brain
Ik ill evolve soon to not be affected by it but yeah
If i hadnt given them warning IT WOULD BE THERE TILL NIGHT OR EVEN NEXT MORNING
LAZY AF B i t c h
I HATE THEM SO MUCH
but i truly do wanna be on vibration of idgaf
HOW DO I DO THAT??
God i live in a flat
And for my convenience i order veggies from here
Few months ago the product quality of food here was far better
Than whatever i receive now!
Its all discarded products that i get
Old veggies
That are not eatable!!!
I fing hate it.
Like noone wld eat those veggies
+
If uve ever ordered curd or packaged thing theyve a lot of dirt on them its extremely dirty
Which means its not stored in proper storage
I stopped ordering from zepto cafe all together for this!
The quality is degrading everyday!
I went thru a breakup almost 6 7 months ago and emotions have not yet died attachments quiet active
Ive started to eat uncontrollably so that i dont think dont breathe dont do anything
Ive cried a lot but its like the feelings just are not stopping and not letting me breathe
Its either eating or thinking ...
I feel lost ik what im supposed to be doing but i cant stop this
Im afraid of getting fat again which ik ill lose but still i dont wanna become unhealthy...at any cost
I became healthier and i feel its all going down the drain
I try to overeat healthy foods but its still pushing ur bodys limit ...
I feel guilty tbh
Apparently we are supposed to do it but i really do not wish to.
Ive informed my guide this and he earlier said its fine ill cut marks i was like Okay and?
Then again my teammate and guide are forcing me to pay some kind of regostration fee cuz my names there
Can someone clarify regarding this?
Are we supposed to present it in some conference cuz i asked seniors they said not really.
Everyone lies after getting acceptance but my frking teammate is stupid so yeah😀
And ig it doesnt really matter for placements too!
And since my name cant be taken out theyre expecting me to pay up which I really do not want to its like a power play thing happening that the guides doing for idk what stupid reason
Just like how for some stupidity they ask us to bring 4 copies of same report and next day its thrown out cuz it was meaningless to begin with? Similarly
My pot for stupidity and powerplay has already overflowed and i wont add another pebble!