How to cope with abusive parents?
I have been struggling to survive at home. My father is physically, emotionally, and verbally abusive. My mother either tolerates it or genuinely doesn’t seem to see anything wrong with it, and she can also be verbally abusive.
A few months ago, my father physically harmed me to the point where I genuinely thought I might die. I tried to make my mother understand that if we don’t leave him, he could eventually kill us. But she still chose to stay.
I reached out to an adult I trust and told her everything. She suggested contacting the authorities, but my father is a police officer and has a very good image as both a father and a person. I’m terrified no one would believe me, especially since I don’t think my mother would back me up. For some reason, I also can’t bring myself to report him.
I had an argument with my mother earlier. It was the first time I truly told her how I feel. It was painful to hear her say that the physical abuse can be justified. It made me so sad to hear my mother be okay with their partner hurting their child to the point of almost dying and still say it’s okay.
Living here feels unbearable sometimes. It feels like a prison. I wouldn’t say I’m suicidal, but during arguments, abuse, or when I’m being controlled or forced into things, those thoughts cross my mind a lot.
Leaving is not an option for me right now. But advice from anyone who has survived something similar or knows how to cope while stuck in this kind of environment would mean alot.
Thank you for reading.