u/CelXid210

Hear me out. I've been listening to "Show yourself" by Idina Menzel & Evan Rachel Wood, and can't help but think it's literally a song about coming out. And I've always loved the idea that Elsa is a lesbian.

Just finished reading Hungerstone, and absolutely loved it. It is the book that finally made me understand the appeal of vampirism in literature.

I also love her writing and am planning on reading the rest of her books. To anyone who has read her books, is Bitterthorn Worth it??

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I'm on my last year of highschool, and I have posted here before about my abuse from my parents (physically and verbally). I really have no one or any trusted adults to run to for help or advice. My situation at home is affecting me alot. I wake up everyday with no energy to go to school, which creates more problems due to missed activities.

I am considering guidance counseling, but I do not want to share the details of my situation at home, especially the physical abuse. I'm worried my parents will be contacted or the authorities. My father is a police man, and has threatened me that even if I report him, he can take care of it. He also told me last night that he'll bring back physical punishment, and my trauma came back to me. I really just wanna leave the house peacefully after highschool, another reason I don't wanna report this.

Will school guidance counseling help me at least help me deal with my struggles and depression? Do you advise I seek help from them or not? Thank you.

I'm on my last year of highschool, and I have posted here before about my abuse from my parents (physically and verbally). I really have no one or any trusted adults to run to for help or advice. My situation at home is affecting me alot. I wake up everyday with no energy to go to school, which creates more problems due to missed activities.

I am considering guidance counseling, but I do not want to share the details of my situation at home, especially the physical abuse. I'm worried my parents will be contacted or the authorities. My father is a police man, and has threatened me that even if I report him, he can take care of it. He also told me last night that he'll bring back physical punishment, and my trauma came back to me. I really just wanna leave the house peacefully after highschool, another reason I don't wanna report this.

Will school guidance counseling help me at least help me deal with my struggles and depression? Do you advise I seek help from them or not? Thank you.

I ask for advice for being abused by my parents and I get "Ask for forgiveness from God, and forgive your parents". I live in a very religious country, and I can't seek help, because I do not believe in God, and praying won't simply stop my abuse. Every single person I run to says the same thing. I fear saying that I'm an atheist would prevent me help as well.

Saw an old picture of me last year. When I was so happy. I was glowing, I almost didn't recognise myself. I look so different now, different hair too.

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This year has been filled with struggles, at home and at school. I know it's the main reason I look unhappy now, including the fact that I do not feel confident at myself.

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I wanna look glowing again. Any advice on how to feel alive and look alive would help.

I just moved schools for 12th grade and am having trouble making friends with my classmates due to social anxiety. Back from my old school I made a lot of friends, probably since we were together for years but also because of the confidence my school achievements brought me.

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But now, in my new school, I feel all my anxiety go back. My new classmates have been friends for years, and I'm having trouble with fitting in. I know I should give it time as, friendship cannot be forced. But, I would appreciate some advice on how to be more engaging when I'm with them. I feel as though they are testing my personality as I'm testing theirs.

I went through a traumatic experience a few months ago. I lost all my control or motivation in life, almost like that event completely detached me from everything. Since it had been a few months now, I thought I was getting better, but there are times where I would realize how detached I still am.

I love reading and watching films, so I tried those to "feel" something. They did make me feel emotions, but it is as if there's a barrier preventing me from feeling them to the fullest.

I feel, more than anything, alone. My parents are abusive, I've outgrown most of my friendships, and my hobbies doesn't feel the same. So, I feel like a floating ball untethered to the ground.

School is starting in a few days and I want to feel connected again, not simply distracted. I'm afraid what I'm going through plus the academic work would be too much. Is there anything I can do to feel grounded again?

Any advice would be appreciated. Thank you.

Does anyone have any recommendations? It feels like I've seen all of them or at least most of the popular ones. Thank you!

Does anyone have any recommendations? I feel like I've seen them all or at least the popular ones. Thank you!

I usually buy my books from NBS, Fully Booked, or second-hand sellers, and I always prefer original copies when I can find them. The problem is that I read a lot of niche books, and some titles are either unavailable in the Philippines or ridiculously expensive to import.

For books that are genuinely difficult to obtain, what are your thoughts on buying counterfeit copies? Have you ever done it, and how do you feel about it ethically?

Just finished We used to live here by Marcus Kliewer, and looking for similar sapphic books that leaves you with questions and stays with you after reading. It's my first time trying the horror genre, as I am scared easily. Ghost or spiritual leaning horror are not for me. However, I enjoy psychological, speculative, mystery, reality-bending horror stories. Any recommendations are appreciated.

Here are what intrigued me and are my next read so far (although not all are sapphic):
-The Caretaker by Marcus Kliewer
-There is no Antimemetic Division
-The luminous dead

I recently read Bury Our Bones in the Midnight Soil and A Long Time Dead and found problems with both. I thought I should start with the classic Carmilla, and then, since I’ve been hearing mixed reviews, but mostly good ones about Hungerstone, I bought that as well. This is my first time reading vampire books. What do you think? Recommendations would also be appreciated!

My parents have neglected me for as long as I can remember. Not just neglect, but also physical, emotional, and verbal abuse.

What led me to start buying myself things and having them pay for it is the feeling that they owe me so much, not only financially, but emotionally too. I’ve already come to terms with the fact that I will probably never receive emotional care from them, so part of me started thinking that maybe this is the only kind of support I will ever get from them at all.

Growing up, I was always made to feel spoiled whenever I asked for money, even if it was usually just a dollar for snacks or hygiene needs. Because of that, I rarely bought myself anything unless I felt like I had somehow earned or deserved it. Even then, I would still feel guilty.

What really pushed me toward this mindset happened a few months ago, although they’ve done similar things multiple times before. My aunt gifted me a bag worth hundreds of dollars. Without telling me, my parents sold it and donated the money to the church. I only found out after seeing a stack of money in an envelope and asking about it.

What hurt the most was knowing why they did it. They are often extremely generous to other people because they care deeply about maintaining a good image. For example, they bought a motorcycle for someone my age while constantly scolding my brother for asking for one, even though he genuinely needs it for transportation to college every day.

I didn’t receive a single cent from the bag that belonged to me.

And honestly, I don’t believe the donation came from genuine kindness. At home, they verbally and physically abuse us almost every day. Most of the time, my brother and I just try to avoid my father so we don’t get hurt.

So I wanted to ask: is it wrong for me to buy books for myself and have them pay for it? Books are one of the few things that help me cope and survive living in this environment. Part of me knows it may not be completely right, but another part of me feels like this is the only thing I will ever receive from them when they so freely give to others.

My parents have neglected me for as long as I can remember. Not just neglect, but also physical, emotional, and verbal abuse.

What led me to start buying myself things and having them pay for it is the feeling that they owe me so much, not only financially, but emotionally too. I’ve already come to terms with the fact that I will probably never receive emotional care from them, so part of me started thinking that maybe this is the only kind of support I will ever get from them at all.

Growing up, I was always made to feel spoiled whenever I asked for money, even if it was usually just a dollar for snacks or hygiene needs. Because of that, I rarely bought myself anything unless I felt like I had somehow earned or deserved it. Even then, I would still feel guilty.

What really pushed me toward this mindset happened a few months ago, although they’ve done similar things multiple times before. My aunt gifted me a bag worth hundreds of dollars. Without telling me, my parents sold it and donated the money to the church. I only found out after seeing a stack of money in an envelope and asking about it.

What hurt the most was knowing why they did it. They are often extremely generous to other people because they care deeply about maintaining a good image. For example, they bought a motorcycle for someone my age while constantly scolding my brother for asking for one, even though he genuinely needs it for transportation to college every day.

I didn’t receive a single cent from the bag that belonged to me.

And honestly, I don’t believe the donation came from genuine kindness. At home, they verbally and physically abuse us almost every day. Most of the time, my brother and I just try to avoid my father so we don’t get hurt.

So I wanted to ask: is it wrong for me to buy books for myself and have them pay for it? Books are one of the few things that help me cope and survive living in this environment. Part of me knows it may not be completely right, but another part of me feels like this is the only thing I will ever receive from them when they so freely give to others.

I have been struggling to survive at home. My father is physically, emotionally, and verbally abusive. My mother either tolerates it or genuinely doesn’t seem to see anything wrong with it, and she can also be verbally abusive.

A few months ago, my father physically harmed me to the point where I genuinely thought I might die. I tried to make my mother understand that if we don’t leave him, he could eventually kill us. But she still chose to stay.

I reached out to an adult I trust and told her everything. She suggested contacting the authorities, but my father is a police officer and has a very good image as both a father and a person. I’m terrified no one would believe me, especially since I don’t think my mother would back me up. For some reason, I also can’t bring myself to report him.

I had an argument with my mother earlier. It was the first time I truly told her how I feel. It was painful to hear her say that the physical abuse can be justified. It made me so sad to hear my mother be okay with their partner hurting their child to the point of almost dying and still say it’s okay.

Living here feels unbearable sometimes. It feels like a prison. I wouldn’t say I’m suicidal, but during arguments, abuse, or when I’m being controlled or forced into things, those thoughts cross my mind a lot.

Leaving is not an option for me right now. But advice from anyone who has survived something similar or knows how to cope while stuck in this kind of environment would mean alot.

Thank you for reading.