u/Colei_the_weird

>![F14]!< it was my own brother. it wasn't rape but inappropriate touching, peeking in the bathroom a couple times when I was in, taking a photo of my ass once, but one time he mightve tried to rape me, he said to lay down and don't watch and when I tried to run away and say no he kept me. i tried to reach out to my parents on the inappropriate touching and peeking part. they sent him to sleep at my aunt's every night and had a talk with him, but at the moment they said I was overreacting for saying it was assault and for wanting to call the police and my dad even called me a brainless degenerate.

we still live in the same house and I still see him every day. nothing ever happened ever since but I still do not know his intentions and I live in fear that he could just rape me. rape would devastate me and I fear it like hell. i cannot stand to live in this house anymore sometimes. he also has horrible ideals, unironically supports Trump and says really mysoginist things. yet I'm expected to pretend nothing ever happened and all is normal. only in those years I realize how much my family is fucked up. i hate that my options are either kill yourself, fund the police or stay longer in this house and probably get raped. i hate myself and everything. i just need help. i want to dissappear

io non ho l'ADHD, sono semplicemente una degenerata del cazzo che non ha voglia di fare niente. è colpa del cazzo di telefono, aveva ragione mia mamma. vaffanculo se vado indietro nel tempo e incontro la me di 11 anni le tiro uno schiaffo così forte che la mando a terra. è tutta colpa mia se sono così. non riesco a studiare perchè sono una cazzo di ignorante asina brainrottata, ma sì, certo, dai la colpa al tuo autismo, al tuo ADHD, al trauma della morte di tua nonna e che hai subito molestie da tuo fratello che ancora vive in casa tua. si, sì, cogliona, degenerata, imbecille, dai la colpa a tutto tranne che a te. è tutta colpa mia. è tutta colpa mia. è tutta colpa mia È TUTTA CAZZO DI COLPA MIA E DEVONO TAGLIARMI LE VENE E POI SPACCARMI IL CRANIO. è colpa mia se le persone veramente neurodivergent poi non riescono ad avere una diagnosi. ho tutti i cazzo di mali del mondo e sono ignorante e asinina. porca madonna ma cosa aveva mia madre in testa quando ha deciso di tenermi. non riesco a fare nulla. sono inutile a me stessa, a chi è intorno a me e alla società. non ho un futuro. mi ritroverò sotto i ponti. mi odio con tutta me stessa. non riesco nemmeno a parlarne con la mia terapista perchè ho problemi a interagire con le altr persone. non vedo l'ora che qualcuno mi violenti o mi torturi così finalmente trovo la forza di uccidermi. cazzo. ma perchè a me

reposting this here because my own post in r/vent got put as NSFW and now i can't view it :,) either way, for context I'm a teenager who has autism, probably ADHD, emethophilia and anxiety problems prob. My parents signed me for therapy last year. There is nothing wrong with my therapist, she's really nice. The problem is I genuinely struggle to talk to people IRL. and it's really difficult for me to open up even to her about problems that I think are embarassing or about my sexual assault. i don't really know why. it's making me feel really bad for her, but probably if I told my parents that I want an online therapist they would scold me and take away my phone and computer. am I ungrateful and rude or is it normal?

It keeps telling me that it doesn't load and to try again later. I just made my account, it could be because of that?

Little bit of context: I'm a girl, a teen and a minor, and I live in Italy.

So, a couple days ago, I put as my public WhatsApp status a message that hinted clearly to my (probable, I'm still not 100% sure of it) bisexuality. My mom came into my room and said that she didn't care who I loved, but that I had to remove it for my safety, because people could not be open minded and acceptable of it.

I personally would want to be openly queer in the future, and so I got a bit frustrated by it. Is it covert homophobia disguised as "safety reasons" or am I just being immature?

Heya I'm Colei!!

She/her/hers

ITA/ENG 🇮🇹/🇬🇧

I can also speak a bit of Spanish because I study it at school so if you prefer me to speak Spanish I will try my best at it

I'm AuDHD, emetophobic and really paranoid

I have 12 OCs in total, thought not comfortable with sharing all of them

I draw quite a lot

I'm preferabily looking for friends with 1 or more interests in common with me bc I will hyperfix ramble a lot, or if you have OCs also we could have fun making them interact

•My (wildly specific 😭💔) interests are:

•A Clockwork Orange (both movie and book idc)

•Black Christmas 1974

•Martin 1977 (or Wampyr, whatever they call it in your country)

•Death Certificate/Свидетельсво о смерти (the post punk Russian band)

Yea my close friends are very keen on 70s slasher movies and have been infecting me lately lol.

Waiting tapping my feet for someone to show up!! Byeee thank you -Colei

I really like the vibe of Human or Not, however I'm strictly anti AI or atleast I'm trying my best to be and when I found out it used a Gemini related AI my best friend suggested me to stop playing. Is there any similar game or with a similar vibe as HON that is also free and playable on mobile?

I have an OC roleplay side blog and I want to send an ask to another roleplay blog but it only lets me send it with my main, is there any way to change it?